Val McDermid - The Grave Tattoo

O Reader! had you in your mind
Such stores as silent thought can bring,
O gentle Reader! you would find
A tale in every thing. William Wordsworth, Simon Lee

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September 2005 All landscapes hold their own secrets. Layer on layer, the past is buried beneath the surface. Seldom irretrievable, it lurks, waiting for human agency or meteorological accident to force the skeleton up through flesh and skin back into the present. Like the poor, the past is always with us.That summer, it rained as if England had been transported to the tropics. Water fell in torrents, wrecking glorious gardens, turning meadows into quagmires where livestock struggled hock-deep in mud. Rivers burst their banks, their suddenly released waters finding their own level by demolishing whatever was vulnerable in their path. In the flooded streets of one previously picturesque village, cars were swept up like toys and deposited in the harbour, choking it in a chaos of mangled metal. Landslips swamped cars with mud and farmers mourned lost crops.No part of the country was immune from the sheets of stinging rain. City and countryside alike struggled under the weight of water. In the Lake District, it sheeted down over fell and dale, subtly altering the contours of a centuries-old landscape. The water levels in the lakes reached record summer highs; the only discernible benefit was that when the sun did occasionally shine, it revealed a lusher green than usual.Above the village of Fellhead on the shores of Langmere, ancient peat hags were carved into new shapes under the onslaught of water. And as autumn crept in, gradually the earth gave up one of its close-held secrets.From a distance, it looked like a scrunched-up tarpaulin stained brown by the brackish water of the bog. At first glance, it seemed insignificant; another piece of discarded rubbish that had worked its way to the surface. But closer inspection revealed something far more chilling. Something that would reach across the centuries and bring even more profound changes in its wake than the weather. My beloved son , I trust you and the children are in good health. I have found this day troubling matter in your fathers hand. It may surprise you that, in spite of the close confidence between us, I was in ignorance of this while he lived, and wish heartily I had remained in that state. You, will easily see the need for secrecy while your father lived, and he left me no instructions concerning its disposition. Since it closely touches you, and may be the occasion of more pain, I wish to leave to you the decision as to what should be done. I will convey the matter to you by a faithful hand. You must do as you see fit. Your loving Mother

The way it rained that summer
It would have broken your heart to see.
It smashed its sheets to smithereens
And flowed down the corrugated roofs
Of dismal railway stations.
And I would sit waiting for trains,
Feet in puddles,
My head starry with rain,
Thinking of you miles from me
In Grecian sunlight
Where rain never falls. Jane Gresham stared at what she had written then with an impatient stroke of her pen crossed it through so firmly the paper tore and split in the wake of the nib. Bloody Jake , she thought angrily. She was a grownup, not some lovestruck adolescent. Sub-poetic maundering was something she should have left behind years ago. Shed had insight enough to know she was never going to be a poet by the time shed finished her first degree. Studying other peoples poetry was what she was good at; interpreting their work, exploring thematic links in their verse and opening up their complexity to those who were, she hoped, an assorted number of steps behind her in the process. Bloody, bloody Jake, she said out loud, crumpling the paper savagely and tossing it in the bin. He wasnt worth the expense of her intellectual energy. Nor the familiar claw of pain that grabbed at her chest at the thought of him.Eager to shunt aside thoughts of Jake, Jane turned to the stack of CDs beside the desk in the poky room that the council classified as a bedroom but which she called, with knowing pretentiousness, her study. She scanned the titles, deliberately starting at the bottom, looking for something that held no resonance of herwhat was he? Her ex? Her erstwhile lover? Her lover-in-abeyance? Who knew? She certainly didnt. And she doubted very much whether he gave her a second thought from one week to the next. Muttering at herself under her breath, she pulled out Nick Caves Murder Ballads and slotted it into the CD drive of her computer. The dark growl of his voice matched her mood so perfectly, it became a paradoxical antidote. In spite of herself, Jane found she was almost smiling.She picked up the book she had been attempting to study before Jake Hartnell had intruded on her thoughts. But it took her only a few minutes to realise how far her focus had drifted. Irritated with herself again, she slammed it shut. Wordsworths letters of 1807 would have to wait.Before she could decide what to attack next, the alarm on her mobile phone beeped. Jane frowned, checking the time on her phone against the watch on her wrist. Hell and damnation, she said. How could it be half past eleven already? Where had the morning gone?Bloody Jake, she said again, jumping to her feet and switching off her computer. All that time wasted mooning over him when there were better things to be passionate about. She grabbed her bag and went through to the other room. Officially this was the living room, but Jane used it as a bedsit, preferring to have a completely separate space to work in. It made the rest of her life even more cramped by comparison, but that felt like a small price to pay for the luxury of having somewhere she could lay out her books and papers without having to shift them every time she wanted to eat or sleep.The small room could barely accommodate even her Spartan existence. Her sofa bed, although folded away now, dominated the space. A table sat against the opposite wall, three wooden chairs tucked under it. A small TV set was mounted on a bracket high on the wall, and a bean bag slouched in the furthest corner. But the room was fresh, its soft green paintwork clean and light. On the wall opposite the sofa hung a series of digital colour photographs of the Lake District, blown up to A3 size and laminated. At the heart of the landscape, Greshams Farm, where her family had eked out a meagre living as far back as anyone could trace. No matter what was outside her windows, Jane could wake up in the morning to the world shed grown up in, the world she still missed every city day.She stripped off her sweatpants and fleece top, swapping them for tight-fitting black jeans and a black v-neck stretch top that accentuated generous breasts. It wasnt her first choice of outfit, but experience had taught her that making the most of her assets meant better tips from customers. Luckily her olive skin meant she didnt look terminal in black, and her co-worker Harry had assured her she didnt look as lumpy as she felt in the tight top. A glance outside the window at the weather and she grabbed her rainproof jacket from its hook, shrugging into it as she hurried towards the front door. She didnt care that it lacked any pretence of chic; in this downpour, she cared more about arriving at work dry and warm.Jane took her invariable last look at the Lakeland vista before walking into a completely different universe. She doubted whether anyone in Fellhead could conjure up her present environment even in their worst imaginings. When shed told her mother shed been granted a council flat on the Marshpool Farm Estate, Judy Greshams face had lit up. Thats nice, love, shed said. I didnt know you got farms in London.Jane shook her head in amused exasperation. There hasnt been a farm there in donkeys years, Mum. Its a sixties council estate. Concrete as far as the eye can see.Her mothers face fell. Oh. Well, at least youve got a roof over your head.Theyd left it at that. Jane knew her mother well enough to know that she wouldnt want the truththat Jane had so few qualifying points that the only accommodation the council was going to offer her was exactly the sort of place shed ended up with. A hard-to-let box on a run-down East End estate where almost nobody had any form of legitimate employment, where kids ran wild day and night, and where there were more used condoms and hypodermic needles than blades of grass. No, Judy Gresham definitely wouldnt like to think of her daughter living somewhere like that. Apart from anything else, it would seriously impair her ability to boast about how well their Jane was doing.Shed told her brother Matthew, however. Anything to blunt the edge of the resentment he carried because she was the one who had got away while hed been left, in his words, to rot in the back of beyond because somebody had to stay for the sake of their parents. It didnt matter that, as the elder, hed been the first to fly the nest for university and that hed chosen to come back to the job hed always wanted. Matthew, Jane thought, had been born aggrieved.The irony, of course, was that Jane would have swapped London for Fellhead in the blink of an eye if it had held the faintest possibility of doing the work she loved. But there were no jobs for academics in the Lakes, not even for a Wordsworth specialist like her. Not unless she wanted to swap intellectual rigour and research for lecturing to schoolkids about the Lakeland poets. Nothing would kill her passion for the words faster than that, she knew. So instead, she was stuck in the worst kind of urban hell. Jane tucked her head into her chest as she walked along the galleried balcony to the stairs. By what she could only believe to be the evil whim of the architect, her block had been constructed so that the prevailing wind was funnelled down the walkways, rendering even a gentle summer breeze blustery and uncomfortable. On a showery autumn day, it drove the rain into every nook and cranny of the building as well as the clothes of any inhabitants who bothered to emerge from their flats.Jane turned into the stairwell and gained a brief respite. No point in even trying the lift. Ignoring the badly spelled graffiti, the unsavoury collections of rubbish blown into the corners and the stink of decay and piss, she trotted downwards. At the first turn of the stairs, her stomach flipped over. It was a sight shed seen so often she knew she should have been inured to it, but every time she saw the tiny frame perched precariously in the lotus position on the narrow concrete banister three floors up, Janes knees trembled.Hey, Jane, the slight figure called softly.Hey, Tenille, Jane replied, forcing a smile through her fear.With what felt like death-defying casualness, Tenille unfolded her legs and dropped down to the dank concrete next to Jane. Whatchu know? the thirteen-year-old demanded as she fell into step beside her.I know Im going to be late for work if I dont get a move on, Jane said, letting gravity give her momentum as she took the stairs at a faster pace. Tenille kept stride with her, her long dreads bouncing on her narrow shoulders.Ill walk wichu, Tenille said, her attempt at a swagger a pathetic parody of the wannabe gangstas that hung around the dismal maze of the estate learning their trade from older brothers, cousins and anyone else who managed to stay out of custody for long enough to teach them.I hate to sound like a middle-aged, middle-class pain in the arse, Tenille, but shouldnt you be in school? It was an old line and Jane mentally predicted the response.Teachers got nothin to say to me, Tenille said mechanically, lengthening her stride to catch up with Jane as they hit street level. What they know about my livin?Jane sighed. I get so tired of hearing the same old, same old from you, Tenille. Youre way too smart to settle for the crap thats coming your way unless you get enough of an education to sidestep it.Tenille stuffed her hands into the pockets of her skinny fake leather jacket and raised her narrow shoulders defensively. Fuck dat, she said. I aint gonna be no mofos incubator. None of that baby mamma drama for Tenille.They cut through a walkway under the block of flats and emerged beside a stretch of dual carriageway where cars surged past, their drivers rejoicing at finally getting out of second gear, their tyres hissing on the wet tarmac. Hard to see how youre going to avoid it unless you harness your brain, Jane said drily, keeping well away from the kerb and the spray of the passing vehicles.I wanna be like you, Jane. It was a plaintive cry that Jane had heard from Tenille more times than she could count.So go to school, she said, trying not to let her exasperation show.I hate the useless stuff they make us do, Tenille said, a lip-curling sneer transforming her unselfconscious attractiveness into a mask of scorn. Its not like what you give me to read. Her speech had shifted from street to standard English, as if leaving the confines of the estate allowed her to slip from persona to person.Im sure it isnt. But Im not where I want to be yet, you know. Working part-time in bars and seminar rooms while I get my book finished so I can land a proper job is not what I had in mind when I started out. But I still had to go through the same crap to get even this far. And yes, mostly I did think it was crap, she continued, drowning whatever Tenille had been about to add. She wished there was something she could offer apart from platitudes, but she didnt know what else to say to a thirteen-year-old mixed-race orphan who not only adored but also seemed to grasp the significance of the writings of Wordsworth, Coleridge, Shelley and De Quincey with an ease that had taken Jane herself a decade of close study to achieve.Tenille sidestepped to avoid a buggy containing a moon-faced toddler, chocolate smeared across its cheeks, a dummy jammed in its mouth like a stopper designed to keep the chubby child inflated. The pram pusher didnt look that much older than Tenille herself. Im not going to make it that way, Jane, Tenille said despondently. Maybe I could use the poetry another way. Be a rapper like Ms Dynamite, she added without conviction.They both knew it was never going to happen. Not unless someone invented a self-esteem drug that Jane could pump into Tenilles veins ahead of the heroin that kept what seemed like half the estate sedated. Jane halted at the bus stop, turning to face Tenille. Nobody can ever take the words out of your head, she said.Tenille picked at a chewed fingernail and stared at the pavement. You think I dont know that? she almost shouted. How the fuck else do you think I survive? Suddenly she spun round on the balls of her feet and she was off, scudding down the uneven pavement like a gazelle, long limbs surprisingly elegant in motion. She disappeared into an alley and Jane felt the familiar mixture of affection and frustration. It stayed with her on the ten-minute bus ride and it still nagged her as she pushed open the door of the wine bar.Five minutes before noon, the Viking Bar and Grill felt hollow with emptiness. The blond wood, chrome and glass still gleamed in the halogen spots, evidence that nobody had been in since the cleaner finished her shift. Harry had put Michael Nymans music from The End of the Affair on the CD player, and the strings seemed almost to shimmer visibly in the calm air. In twenty minutes time, the Viking would be transformed as the city slickers piled in, desperate to cram as much food and drink into their short lunch breaks as they could. The air would thicken with conversation, body heat and smoke, and Jane wouldnt have a second to think about anything other than the press of bodies at the bar.For now, though, it was peaceful. Harry Lambton stood at one end of the long pale birch curve of the bar, leaning on his forearms as he skimmed the morning paper. The light gleamed on the spiky halo of his short fair hair, turning him into a post-modern saint. He glanced up at the sound of Janes feet on the wooden floor and sketched a wave of greeting, a smile animating his sharp, narrow face. Still raining? he asked.Still raining. Jane leaned in and planted a kiss on Harrys cheek as she passed him on her way to the cubbyhole where the staff hung their coats. Everybody in? she asked as she returned to the main bar, corralling her long dark corkscrew curls and pushing them into a scrunchy.Harry nodded. That was a relief, Jane thought, slipping past Harrys tightly muscled back and checking everything was where she needed it to be for her shift to run as smoothly as possible. Shed landed this job because Harrys boyfriend Dan was a friend and colleague at the university, but she didnt want anybody accusing her of taking advantage of that relationship. Besides, Harry claimed that managing the bar was only a stopgap. One day he might decide what he wanted to do with his life and Jane didnt want to provide her co-workers with any excuse to grass her up to a new boss as lazy or incompetent. Working at the Viking was demanding, exhausting and poorly paid, but she needed the job.I finally came up with a title, she said, tying the long white bistro apron round her waist. For the book. Harry cocked his head interrogatively. The Laureate of Spin: Politics, Poetics and Pretence in the Writings of William Wordsworth. What do you think?Harry frowned, considering. I like it, he said. Makes the boring old bastard sound halfway interesting.Interesting is good, it sells books.Harry nodded, flicking over a page of his paper and giving it a cursory look. Then his dark blue eyes narrowed and frown lines appeared between his sandy brows. Hey, he said. Isnt Fellhead where you come from?Jane turned, a bottle of olives in her hand. Thats right. Dont tell me somebody finally did something newsworthy?Harry raised his eyebrows. You could say that. They found a body.