Marcia Talley - Through the Darkness

The sixth book in the Hannah Ives series, 2006

Crickets. Twittering birds. The patter of rain, gentle as springtime, on a tin roof. Somewhere a violin, electronically enhanced, swooped and soared.

Relax, Hannah.

I melted, boneless, into the warm flannel sheets. Ummmm.

Fingers, soft, smooth, and sure circled my breast-the good one-compressing here, releasing there. I suppressed an insane urge to giggle. This feels weird, I said.

Garnelle continued working in silence, her fingers gently kneading, stroking, gradually converging on my nipple. As she worked, shed glance at me from time to time through a waterfall of blunt-cut silver bangs. This forces toxic fluids out through your lymph nodes.

That feels so good, it should be illegal.

Garnelle grinned. In some states, it is. She paused, let her fingers linger briefly against my skin, then raised them, gracefully, like a pianist from the keyboard as the last note of a Beethoven sonata faded away.

Ah, I breathed.

Garnelle drew a corner of the flannel sheet up to cover my newly pink and tingling breast. Now for the other one.

Hah! I snorted, shifting my buttocks, the only part of me that wasnt naked, into a more comfortable position on the massage table. Fat lot of good itll do. Its a fake, you know. I havent had a lymph node on that side since my mastectomy.

Through her bangs, Garnelle studied me as if I had two heads. Havent you heard of adhesions? she asked. I lay still as she peeled the sheet away from my right shoulder, revealing my reconstructed breast in all its lopsided glory. Regular massage can minimize adhesions.

She resumed work, using the same circular motion as before. You should do this yourself, Hannah. Here. Garnelle extracted my hand from where it rested, warm and secure under the sheet, and guided it up to my pseudobreast, a flesh-covered mound bisected by a faint scar, with a nipple tattooed on top. Feel that?

I nodded.

That tissues mobile. She moved my fingers a centimeter closer to the scar. Thats not.

I was surprised I hadnt noticed the difference before, but when I did my monthly self-exam, I was looking for lumps, not adhesions.

If you dont watch it, girl, that boob will get hard as a rock.

Wouldnt want that, I said, tucking my arm back under the sheet. I closed my eyes and tried to concentrate as Garnelle instructed me on how to stroke, lift, and roll the scar. I wondered if Paul might like to volunteer to work on my adhesions. My husband was a pretty helpful guy.

How longs it been? Garnelle asked a few moments later as her hands began a slow cha-cha-cha along my upper arm.

Six years, three months, and Beneath the sheet I tapped my fingers one by one against the leather. and seven days.

But whos counting, right?

I opened my eyes and grinned up at her. Oh, but I do. Every days a blessing.

My aunt had breast cancer, Garnelle said, working my elbow. Said chemo was the pits, what with the nausea and all.

Cant say Id recommend it, either, I muttered, but if it puts her into the cured category like me, then all the barfing will have been worth it.

Three years out for her.

Thats so good, I moaned.

What? My aunts continuing good health, or the effleurage?

I opened my mouth to answer, but by then Garnelle had turned her attention to my neck and head, her long fingers moving expertly along my scalp, drawing any thoughts I might have had completely out of my brain. Ummmm.

Shhhh.

Never let it be said that I dont know how to follow orders.

As Garnelles gentle fingers moved along under my hair, I lay still, half listening to the new age music that drifted at low volume from speakers mounted flush into the walnut cabinets high on the wall. Something by Sayama, I guessed, having pawed through Garnelles CD collection a while earlier, with flutes and gongs and tinkling temple bells. If I were wrong, though, and it turned out to be one of her other titles, like TimeTemptress, or Spirit of the Wolf, I would be out of there the minute the panpipes kicked in.

Breathe in, breathe out. In. Out. Nothing existed for me but Garnelle Taylors amazing hands and the calming scent of the essential oils she favored, a subtle mix of sandalwood and patchouli, with a touch of bergamot.

In. Out. Pachelbels canon with the ocean crashing on a distant shore. Something by Enya, lyricless and soothing. I was so far away that theyd have to send out a search party to find me.

Then, out of the speakers, an acoustic flute sustained a note so high and impossibly long that if it had been produced by a human being rather than a synthesizer, the player would have passed out cold a long time ago.

Nice trick, I sighed.

You can do this yourself, too, Garnelle said, misinterpreting my remark. She cradled my head in both her hands and rocked it gently from side to side, stretching the muscles along each side of my neck.

What? I asked, still worrying about the poor flute player.

Massage.

Why would I want to, I asked, as long as I have you? My eyelids fluttered open. Would you cut your own hair?

No, I wouldnt, she chuckled.

I chuckled, too, feeling stupid. Except for her bangs, Garnelle hadnt cut her hair in years. She wore it today as I suspected she always had, in a single long braid, brown and streaked with silver, down her back. A child of the Woodstock Nation, you might think, but youd be wrong. Just under forty, Garnelle was far too young for Woodstock or the Summer of Love. If you quizzed her on it, shed probably guess that Jefferson Airplane was an upstart, cut-rate airline.

I studied Garnelles face hovering upside down over mine, her braid flopped casually over one shoulder, and fantasized about grabbing a pair of scissors, hacking it off, and dragging her down the hall to the salon for an expert cut and blow dry. Im a sucker for those makeover shows on TV. I imagined the reveal, the camera zooming in on all her friends clapping their hands to their cheeks and screaming, Ohmahgawd, ohmahgawd, you look ten years younger.

Ever think of cutting your hair? I ventured.

Garnelle wriggled her fingers. Im like Sampson, she quipped. Itd sap my strength, destroy my powers.

I smiled and closed my eyes, so a few minutes later I only sensed it when Garnelle moved around the table to begin working on my ankles, the arch of my foot, and, incredibly, little-piggy-went-to-market-like on my toes. This freebie is just a preview of coming attractions, then? I asked, praying it would be so. When the spa actually opens, youre going to stay?

Dante hired me yesterday, she replied.

At the mention of my son-in-law, my eyelids flew open and I stared at the ceiling where track lighting with pink bulbs suffused the room with warmth, making the walnut paneling-the best that Dantes major investor, Phyllis Strothers money, could buy-glow. Shelves surrounded a porcelain sink that was made, I swear, from an ancient Chinese bowl. With the exception of the exotic oils stored in dark brown bottles that ranged along the shelves, the massage room could just as easily have been the library of a corporate CEO, minus the executive desk and all the leather-bound books. And Paradiso had three more rooms just like it, each situated at the end of a short corridor-north, south, east, and west-off the spas focal point, a Roman-inspired Natatorium that featured an Olympic-sized swimming pool.