INTRODUCTION
Much of the time we are our own fools, caught in a cinema of our minds and moving through conditioned patterns. We are carried by old stories, versions of ourselves that have been reinforced over and over by mostly well-meaning people, our internalizations of those influences, and by our own habitsthese stories have created neurological paths through which we move psychically and physically.
Why is this a problem?
The imagination is like the underside of a stone that you find hiding on the side of a trail you have never taken before. Maybe heading down that trail to begin with is scary, perhaps there are wolves. But what is the alternative? Our culture needs new patterns. We need to remodel old energy. When I find a new way of moving, everything I see changes. When my viewpoint shifts, new things are possible.
In this book, Michael writes that practice is just a blink. Its a single moment, a single trailhead that you decide to take, or that takes you quite by surprise. There may be no map, but surely, you will find others if you walk it long enough.
This is a small book. It is meant to be like a friend on your path, in your practice (whatever your practice is). It is meant to encourage you. Keep it by your bedside or on the windowsill next to your bathtub. Work through it page by page or flip it open and read wherever you find yourself. Read one chapter at a time or the whole thing at once. Theres no right way; each chapter is like a bead on a mala, each nugget a teaching to digest and take along on your journey.
C ARINA S TONE
Autumn 2018, Pender Island
PART ONE
THE WORLD COMES TO YOU
Notes on Practice
Practice is a sensibility toward felt experience. Things in the world touch us, and things inside ourselves touch us, thoughts and sensations touch us. When we allow these things to come and go, this is practice. When we twist them as they come and go, and we notice it, and the noticing stops us, this is practice. When we remember that we can relax and not twist things for our benefit or comfort, even if we have been doing a lot of twisting, this is practice. Everything we experience is living, and some of living is practice, and in that way, all of living can be practice. Even doing the dishes, and greeting your parents. We slide in and out of receptive sensitivity, and we need to so that we can wake up. Then we can apply this learning in many ways for the benefit of ourselves and others.
These writings come out of decades of Michaels yoga and meditation practice, and his own experience of life. Your practice may look similar to his, or it may look very different. Maybe you take moments of pause in your day, or mindfully walk down the hall in the clinic you work in, or maybe you finish your exhale before responding to your childrens requests at the breakfast table. If your practice creates some spaciousness and returns you to a full and generous experience of yourself, your habits, others, and your life, then your practice is a path.
CARINA STONE
1
THE WORLD COMES TO YOU
The world comes to you. It comes to meet you.
When we do anything the world is always coming to meet us. If we pay close attention, we dont even know what direction the world is coming in from. Is it internal? External? If youre too busy inside your own skull, inside this bag of skin, then you dont notice when the world comes to meet you. Or its annoying, its in the way, because you have plans for yourself.
In order to meet the world, I return to sitting meditation practice because for me its the foundation. When you sit still you can see whats going on in your life, and really be honest with yourself. You set up the posture in your body, which becomes a container where you can begin to trust that whatever emerges, you have the ability to be one with it. Knowing that whatever you become one with is going to shift. This is different than the idea, which many of us have inherited, that meditation is simply a process of being the observer, watching or witnessing.
Becoming curious about what arises, really intimate with our experience, takes some courage.
In psychoanalysis there is a term I like very muchforeclosure. Foreclosure happens when something is emerging from the unconscious and we shut if off too quickly. You may be familiar with this in relationships when a partner or friend asks to talk with you about something really difficult. They begin talking, and youre not even listeningor youre already formulating your response. Or youre trying to change the subject. Youre doing these things because something intense or vulnerable or painful or risky has arisen, and its hard to be with the discomfort.
We can lean into our own urge to shut down, to foreclose. Or we can become curious about whats difficult or unknown. This takes courage.
2
AS IS
The practice of mindfulness meditation is a practice of coming home. Its a practice of arriving. If we cant arrive and meet each moment, then ethics is just good philosophy, or its disciplineneither of which is really the heart of what were working toward. So lets say that our practice right now will be creative engagement with each moment as it is.
If you cant meet whats going on for you moment to moment to moment, you lose track of yourselfyou lose track of your life and youre unable to hear the oneness of life. This practice is about the loving response that happens naturally when were not stressed, or highly reactive, or projecting our suffering onto institutions, politicians, teachers, or our children. Practice sings when were able to stay with the truth of whats happening in our experience. In this way, being mindful day-to-day is inseparable from ethics. I like to call this