Stephen King - Ur

When Wesley Smiths colleagues asked himsome with an eyebrow hoicked satiricallywhat he was doing with that gadget (they all called it a gadget), he told them he was experimenting with new technology, but that was not true.

He bought the gadget, which was called a Kindle, out of spite.

I wonder if the market analysts at Amazon even have that one on their product-survey radar, he thought. He guessed not. This gave him some satisfaction, but not as much as he hoped to derive from Ellen Silvermans surprise when she saw him with his new purchase. That hadnt happened yet, but it would. It was a small campus, after all, and hed only been in possession of his new toy (he called it his new toy, at least to begin with) for a week.

Wesley was an instructor in the English Department at Moore College, in Moore, Kentucky. Like all instructors of English, he thought he had a novel in him somewhere and would write it someday. Moore College was the sort of institution that people call a good school. Wesleys friend in the English Department (his only friend in the English Department) once explained what that meant. His friends name was Don Allman, and when he introduced himself, he liked to say, One of the Allman Brothers. I play a mean tuba. (He did not actually play anything.)

A good school, he said, is one nobody has ever heard of outside a thirty-mile radius. People call it a good school because nobody knows its a bad school, and most people are optimists, although they may claim they are not. People who call themselves realists are often the biggest optimists of all.

Does that make you a realist? Wesley once asked him.

I think the world is mostly populated by shitheads, Don Allman responded. You figure it out.

Moore wasnt a good school, but neither was it a bad school. On the great scale of academic excellence, its place resided just a little south of mediocre. Most of its three thousand students paid their bills and many of them got jobs after graduating, although few went on to obtain (or even try for) graduate degrees. There was a fair amount of drinking, and of course there were parties, but on the great scale of party-schools, Moores place resided a little to the north of mediocre. It had produced politicians, but all of the small-water variety, even when it came to graft and chicanery. In 1978, one Moore graduate was elected to the U.S. House of Representatives, but he dropped dead of a heart attack after serving only four months. His replacement was a graduate of Baylor.

The schools only marks of exceptionality had to do with its Division Three football team and its Division Three womens basketball team. The football team (the Moore Meerkats) was one of the worst in America, having won only seven games in the last ten years. There was constant talk of disbanding it. The current coach was a drug addict who liked to tell people that he had seen The Wrestler twelve times and never failed to cry when Mickey Rourke told his estranged daughter that he was just a broken-down piece of meat.

The womens basketball team, however, was exceptional in a good way, especially considering that most of the players were no more than five-feet-seven and were preparing for jobs as marketing managers, wholesale buyers, or (if they were lucky) personal assistants to Men of Power. The Lady Meerkats had won eight conference titles in the last ten years. The coach was Wesleys ex-girlfriend, ex as of one month previous. Ellen Silverman was the source of the spite that had moved Wesley to buy a Kindle from Amazon, Inc., the company that sold them. WellEllen and the Henderson kid in Wesleys Introduction to Modern American Fiction class.

Don Allman also claimed the Moore faculty was mediocre. Not terrible, like the football teamthat, at least, would have been interestingbut definitely mediocre.

What about us? Wesley asked. They were in the office they shared. If a student came in for a conference, the instructor who had not been sought would leave. For most of the fall and spring semesters this was not an issue, as students never came in for conferences until just before finals. Even then, only the veteran grade-grubbers, the ones whod been doing it since elementary school, turned up. Don Allman said he sometimes fantasized about a juicy coed wearing a tee-shirt that said I WILL SCREW YOU FOR AN A, but this never happened.

What about us? What about us? Look at us, bro.

Im going to write a novel, Wesley replied, although even saying it depressed him. Almost everything depressed him since Ellen had walked out. When he wasnt depressed, he felt spiteful.

Yes! And President Obama is going to tab me as the new Poet Laureate! Don Allman exclaimed. Then he pointed at something on Wesleys cluttered desk. The Kindle was currently sitting on American Dreams, the textbook Wesley used in his Intro to American Lit class. Hows that working out for you?

Fine, Wesley said.

Will it ever replace the book?

Never, Wesley said. But he had already begun to wonder.

I thought they only came in white, Don Allman said.

Wesley looked at Don as haughtily as he himself had been looked at in the department meeting where his Kindle had made its public debut. Nothing only comes in white, he said. This is America.

Don Allman considered this, then said: I heard you and Ellen broke up.

Wesley sighed.

Ellen had been his other friend, and one with benefits, until four weeks ago. She wasnt in the English Department, of course, but the thought of going to bed with anyone in the English Department, even Suzanne Montanari, who was vaguely presentable, made him shudder. Ellen was five-two (eyes of blue!), slim, with a mop of short, curly black hair that made her look distinctly elfin. She had a dynamite figure and kissed like a dervish. (Wesley had never kissed a dervish, but he could imagine.) Nor did her energy flag when they were in bed.

Once, winded, he lay back and said, Ill never equal you as a lover.

If you keep talking snooty like that, you wont be my lover for long. Youre okay, Wes.

But he guessed he wasnt. He guessed he was just sort ofmediocre.

It wasnt his less-than-athletic sexual ability that ended their relationship, however. It wasnt the fact that Ellen was a vegan with tofu hotdogs in her fridge. It wasnt the fact that she would sometimes lie in bed after lovemaking, talking about pick-and-rolls, give-and-gos, and the inability of Shawna Deeson to learn something Ellen called the old garden gate. In fact, these monologues sometimes put Wesley into his deepest, sweetest, and most refreshing sleeps. He thought it was the monotony of her voice, so different from the shrieks (often profane) of encouragement she let out while they were making love, shrieks that were similar to the ones she uttered during games, running up and down the sidelines like a hare (or a squirrel going up a tree), exhorting her girls to Pass the ball! and Go to the hole! and Drive the paint! Sometimes in bed she was reduced to yelling Harder, harder, harder! As, in the closing minutes of a game, she was often able to exhort no more than Bucket-bucket-bucket!

They were in some ways perfectly matched, at least for the short term; she was fiery iron, straight from the forge, and hein his apartment filled with bookswas the water in which she cooled herself.

The books were the problem. That, and the fact that he had called her an illiterate bitch. He had never called a woman such a thing in his life before, but she had surprised an anger out of him that he had never suspected. He might be a mediocre instructor, as Don Allman had suggested, and the novel he had in him might remain in him (like a wisdom tooth that never comes up, at least avoiding the possibility of rot, infection, and an expensivenot to mention painfuldental process), but he loved books. Books were his Achilles heel.