Peter Anghelides - Another Life

In memory of my dear friend

Craig Hinton

19642006

Youve never been the kind of soldier who would disobey a direct order. Thats about to change right now. Because here you are gripping the cold and pitted plastic of the steering wheel in a stolen Wolf Land-Rover. The Wolf is loaded with equipment, and you are staring into the barrels of two SA8O rifles. Those L85 individual weapons are what have stopped you driving the Wolf through the barracks exit barrier. In the bright midday sunlight, the barriers tattered candy-stripe is still the most colourful thing among a swathe of brown earth, the dirty grey guard post, and the sentries khaki uniforms.

You recognise both the soldiers who are aiming those rifles at you, of course. Privates Foxton and Kandahal. Its only a few months since you first saw them in training, at the start of their twenty-four weeks. Ross Foxton looks the more nervous, with none of the cocksure swagger of his first days at Caregan training camp. His pale face is flushed, threatening to match his cropped ginger hair.

Sujit Kandahal is shorter, stockier, dark in appearance and demeanour. He is bracing his feet in the dirt to steady his stance. Hes got a good grip on the weapon, hes balanced well, and hes positioned himself to your right with a clear view of you beyond the bonnet of the Wolf. In other circumstances, youd tell him you were impressed. Turn the engine off and step out of the vehicle with your hands raised. Sir, he adds, like an afterthought. Not used to giving orders. Especially to you.

You can feel the hunger rising again. So soon, much sooner than youd thought possible. You try to swallow it down, and then watch for the reaction that this provokes in the sentries. Maybe Foxton interprets it as nerves, because he steps calmly to your left, some of that old confidence returning. Sergeant Bee, you have to step out where we can see you. A clear, shouted statement. No hesitation in his Scots accent. You stare at the weapons, and dont make eye contact with the soldiers. Your face is impassive. Youll give them no more clues.

All right, you say, calm and loud. Im coming out. You reach down. slowly, and kill the Wolfs Rover V8 engine as easily as youre going to kill one of these sentries.

As you step from the vehicle, you scoop up your Browning and slip it into the rear of your waistband. At nearly two pounds weight, its not comfortable or safe to hide the pistol there, but its out of Foxton and Kandahals line of sight.

The light wind wafts the sound of church bells to you from the local village, heralding the afternoon service as usual. You think: Time of death, twelve thirty.

No point in running. Just time for a quick smile. See you again, you tell them brightly. Soon.

The muscles in Kandahals forearm twitch. I said hands in the air, Sergeant-

Even before hes finished speaking, youve brought the Browning around in a double-handed grip and loosed off two shells in quick succession. The first takes Kandahal in the forehead, just below the badge on his beret, and he sprawls in an ugly pile on the tarmac.

Foxton still has you cold. You let him fire the killing shot, and hope for better luck in another life.

People live here, Jack Harkness said to Gwen as they stepped out of the Torchwood SUV.

Yeah. Awful, isnt it? she answered. Even when its gone eight oclock in the rest of Wales, itll still be 1955 in Splott.

Jack looked at her sideways. No, I mean they live here. He gestured around the alley, at the concrete walls of the flats that stretched nine storeys above them on both sides. They dont just exist. They breathe. They love. Play, decide, plan, laugh, screw. It has the smell of life.

It has the smell of something else, if you ask me. Vomit and piss.

And just a dash of dog shit, conceded Jack. Labrador, Id say.

Now youre just showing off.

Well, watch your step. And you wanna take a look at him while I check out the victim? Jack pointed to a hunched figure opposite, and then strode off down the alleyway into the crime scene, his long military coat flapping around him.

Police Constable Jimmy Mitchell had his head in his hands when Gwen went over to him. She didnt recognise him immediately. She only saw the burly policeman sitting on the kerb, where he clutched one leg of the nearby road sign as though he was frightened to let go. The uniform, the fluorescent jacket, should have given him an air of authority. Instead, he was like a lost child. His posture looked defeated and his peaked cap was discarded on the pavement beside him. There was a fresh pool of vomit near his feet. He looked up, and she almost didnt know him then either, because his face was grey with shock. Shed worked for a while with Mitchell on late patrols, weeks ago, the usual boring driving tour of night-time Cardiff, enlivened only by the chance to break up a bottle fight in a dingy pub at closing time.

Mitch? Gwen asked him. Oh God, whats happened to you?

Mitch opened his mouth, but for a moment couldnt speak. There were flecks of vomit in his moustache. He gestured wordlessly back down the alley. Should she leave him to take a look, or stay with him to make sure he wasnt injured or badly in shock? An angry shout from Jack decided the matter, and she hurried down the alley to join him.

Jack stood by the corpse, his hands on his hips. He tilted his head up towards the blue afternoon sky and screwed up his eyes, whether from the bright sun or from sheer exasperation it wasnt clear to Gwen. What do you see?

She studied the body. It lay supine, half on the pavement and half in the gutter. Legs folded over to one side, arms splayed out at shoulder height. The back of the head had leaked blood and brains into the roadway, and wetted the otherwise dried mud that caked the nearby drain. Looks like the same cause of death as the others she said.

Look again.

Gwen took a broader view of the alley. This is a new location. Still out of the way. Secluded. But further into town.

He dropped his gaze and his pale blue eyes stared directly at her. Look again.

Time of death must be early this morning.

He clucked his tongue. Lets leave that for Owen to decide at the autopsy. Now, look again.

Gwen stooped for a closer examination. The corpses lower face and chest were spattered with fresh vomit. Gwen coughed and gagged abruptly. This is too recent. It wasnt him.

It wasnt him, right, agreed Jack. He raised his voice to a shout. It was someone else who barfed over the evidence! Gwen could see Mitch further up the alleyway, still staring silently at his own feet. It was someone, Jack continued, who had two corned beef sandwiches and a Tango Orange before he came on duty.

Gwen arched her eyebrows at him. I dont believe you can work that out from just looking at that pile of sick.

Its the smell, he told her.

Dog shit, vomit Now I feel sick. She hunkered down to examine the corpse again, unsure whether to breathe through her nose or her mouth in the process. The face seemed familiar. And why did she associate that face with the smell of fish and raw meat? Not from the stench of Mitchs acid vomit, that was certain. She could see that the victim had been a tattyhaired vagrant who looked much more than his teenage years. The previous victims were older than this guy.

Gwen remembered where shed seen this kid before. Hed been selling magazines by the covered market. He was one of the badged vendors who cheerfully cajoled shoppers to part with their money, and who didnt scowl even when the passers-by gave him the finger instead of cash. And now here he lay, dead in a grubby back alley in Splott. Someone or something had extinguished that lively look in his eyes by crushing the back of his skull. Crushing it so completely, Gwen already knew, that when they turned him over they would be able to see the cracked remains of his top vertebrae.