Angela Hart - The Brokenness and Restoration of a Lost Soul

THE
BROKENNESS AND
RESTORATION
OF A LOST SOUL

ANGELA HART

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Published by AuthorHouse 07/16/2019

ISBN: 978-1-7283-1961-2 (sc)

ISBN: 978-1-7283-1960-5 (e)

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CONTENTS

This book is about one womans journey from having a cold hard heart, caused by being beaten down in life, to having a heart of flesh full of love, forgiveness, and redemption! so come along with her through this journey she had blocked out of her mind, because of a secret to painful to remember! through years of therapy she will travel through her dark side and have to face the demons of her tortured past! discover along with her as she finds out what that secret is, and why she could never tell anyone!

This book is dedicated to the lost souls being held captive in your minds by the devil, and to give you the key of knowledge that will unlock those prisons in your minds, and you will be set free!

You will come to know why you do, and are the way you are. She changed, so can you!

This book is a story of a woman from a young age to being an old woman discovering who she is through years of therapy! She knew she always had pain in her that drove her to basically self destruct from it. The pain gave her a hard, cold heart, read how god took her heart of stone and turned it into a heart of flesh! Through this therapy she came to understand who she is, and why she lives like she does! She discovers the dark secret she had told no one, until now! The secret that drove her to alcohol and drugs, random sex, and the streets in the first place, the secret she blocked out of her mind that was to painful to remember! Her journey through her dark side ends with her finding hope, faith, and love!

All is fair in love and war! Fight however you can!

There is a battle with many warriors, yet no two warriors fight alike. They all have different instincts they apply at different stages of battle. There have been many books written on spiritual warfare, so read this story how one woman chose to fight her demons!

The loud sounds of the city shook her awake as she heard the traffic going by her window, the clanging of trash cans as the garbage truck roared down the street, the people yelling hailing down taxi cabs! She reached out her hand to see if anyone lay beside her and found that side of the bed empty. She set up in bed and found as she opened her eyes to focus, she had a splitting headache and felt like she would throw up! The last thing she remembered was being at a night club where they knew her well and always kept her glass full! She remembered dancing with this cute guy and then walking or rather him half carrying her to his car! Not again, she thought as she looked at the clock and seen she would be late for work, again, this made yet another job she would lose! As she made her way into the shower she decided she would just call in sick, instead of running the risk of being fired. The hot water hit her, it felt so good. She stood there letting the hot water run down her body and asked herself why do you act like this? Going home with strange men you just met in the club, getting into their car, how do you know he wasnt a rapist or worse a killer of women! She was disgusted with herself! As she was drying off she said a prayer again and thanked god for keeping her safe and not letting her get killed! She then promised god that she wouldnt do this again! Even as she prayed this, she knew in her heart she couldnt keep her promise to him! Something inside her made her act like this, drinking, having sex with any man that showed her any interest at all! Some she would bring home, some she would just have sex with them outside the club in the alley or car! She had a pain in her mind and heart she thought she could quiet by drinking, getting high and having random sex! She wiped the steam off the mirror and looked at herself. She was an older woman who had just turned 50 but looked to be in her in her late 30s and this was the 1980s! Everyone acted like her she though, right!?

She swallowed some aspirin to help her aching head, lit a cigarette and called her office to let her boss know she would be a little late but she would be there. Her boss informed her in the six months she had worked there, she was late six times, and this time though she liked her and her work, when she was at work, she would have to let her go! She hung up the phone, kicking herself for doing this again! She hated herself for not being able to stop! This self loathing of being a failure again made her reach for a bottle she had stashed behind the cushion of her couch! She poured herself a hair of the dog and wondered to herself well now what does she do with her day? She weighed her options, while slugging down another glass and lighting up another cigarette. This makes the fifth job shed lost in two years! She half chuckled as the warm liquid started to put her in a better mood. She was running out of places to look for a job!

She should go look for another job! She had to pay the rent that was coming due at the first of next month! She had another drink and a cigarette and headed to the place that she knew she could get some sympathy and another drink! As she pulled up outside the club and shut off her car, she checked her make up and hair in the rear view mirror, and said to herself as she got out of the car girl youll never learn! Sure enough as she walked into the smoky club and sat down at the bar, even this early in the day, the place was full of lonely pathetic useless people like her looking for a friend for awhile to make them forget about their miserable lives, like her! She got up and walked to the juke box making sure her hips kept time with the music, taking note of all the men watching her walk by! Hmm, she thought, who will be going home with her at the end of the night? She walked back up to the bar and sat down; she had set the bait now lets see who will bite! Her favorite bartender set another glass down in front of her and as she put a cigarette to her mouth and looked around for matches, a flame flickered in front of her and she lit her cigarette. As the lighter closed she was staring into the bluest eyes she had ever seen, they were sky blue, then she noticed his long blonde 80s rocker hair and she knew she was in trouble again! He sat down next to her at the bar and they had some more drinks as she told him about how unfair it was for her boss to have fired her! Her boss was a bitch and had it out for her since she worked there! He asked her if she wanted to dance and they moved to a booth, put down their drinks and hit the dance floor! The hell with her boss and her life, its time to have fun! She was in her element and it felt good to forget for awhile what a loser she was and danced wildly with this gorgeous hunk that just came into her life! She knew when she drank to kill this pain inside her, not knowing why it was there, but just knowing she had to stop it, so she could forget about it, she would have to drink until she couldnt see and have to be carried out of the club! She didnt care, this hunk was going home with her she thought so let the good times roll, and roll they did!