Sara Shepard - Seven Minutes in Heaven

The walk-in closet would be any girls dream. A thick pink rug lay on the hardwood floor, perfect for bare toes first thing in the morning. Shelves and cubbies lined the walls, filled with designer purses and jewelry and dozens of shoes. Luxurious clothes in every color of the rainbow hung in careful rows: blouses and skirts in silk, cashmere, cotton.

For most girls, this closet would be heaven. For me, it was just another reminder that heaven was exactly where I wasnt.

Next to me in the narrow space, my twin sister, Emma Paxton, ran her fingers through the rich fabrics of my clothes, her heart clenched in a knot of grief. She has my exact chestnut hair and long legs, the same marine-blue eyes lined by dark lashes. She is my identical twin, after all. But even though I stood right next to her, hers was the only reflection in the three-way mirror at the end of the closet.

Ever since I died, Id been invisible. But somehow I still lingered among the living, attached through forces I dont understand to the long-lost sister I never had a chance to meet. The sister whod been forced by my killer to take over my life. Since my death, Emma had fooled all my friends and family into thinking she was me, Sutton Mercer. Shed been fighting tooth and nail to find out what happened the night I died, and shed managed to eliminate my family and my best friends as suspects. But the leads were quickly dwindling, the clues drying up. And the killer was still watching, somewhere in the shadows, making sure she didnt step out of line.

Now Emma stood in socks and underwear, a dazed expression on her face as she stared up at my wardrobe. It seemed ridiculous that after everything that had happenedthe losses shed suffered, the terror shed lived inthe simple act of getting dressed could feel so overwhelming. But maybe it was because of her losses, because of her terror, that the simplest choices had turned complicated in her agitated mind. Emma had never had this kind of closet in her old life. Placed in the foster system of Las Vegas after our mother, Becky, abandoned her, Emma moved from home to home with her secondhand T-shirts packed in a duffel bag. I had so many clothes, so many dresses: short and tight or long and flowing, in bright wild prints or plain blocked color, with sequins or ruching or lace trim. There were, of course, more than a half dozen in black to choose from.

Suddenly, Emma began to tremble. She sank to the plush rug, hugging her arms around her knees as tears rolled down her cheeks.

What happened to you, Nisha? she whispered. What were you trying to tell me?

Itd been nearly two weeks since Nisha Banerjee, my old rival, was discovered floating facedown in her pool. The announcement sent shock waves through the school. Nisha was involved in dozens of activities, and while she wasnt quite the queen bee Id been, everyone knew her. The rumor mill started up almost immediately. Nisha was athletic and a strong swimmerhalf the school had been to a pool party at her house at one time or another. How could she have drowned? Was it just a freak accident? Or could it have been something darkera drug overdose? Suicide?

But Emma and I knew better. The day of her death, Nisha had been desperately trying to reach Emma, calling her over and over. Emma hadnt called back at first because shed been so distracted by my secret boyfriend, Thayer Vega, insisting that there was something different about her and that he was going to find out what it was. By the time Emma did call her, Nisha was already dead, and Emma had a feeling that it wasnt a coincidence.

If Emma was right, if Nisha stumbled on some kind of information about my death, then she was the latest victim in my murderers deadly game. Whoever killed me was still out thereand was willing to kill again to keep his or her secret buried.

Emma finally got to her feet, rubbing the tears away impatiently. Grieving for Nisha was a luxury she couldnt afford. She needed to figure out what happened the night I died, before someone else she cared about paid the priceand before the killer eliminated her, too.

It was almost two weeks ago that this local girl was found dead in her familys pool, the newscasters voice intoned as an image of Nisha filled the screen on a Saturday in late November. Emma stood in front of Suttons desk, streaming the local news coverage about Nisha while she got dressed for Nishas funeral. She wasnt sure why she was watching; she knew the details already. Maybe hearing them repeated often enough would make her finally believe it was true: Nisha was really gone.

The newscaster, a slender Latina in a mauve blazer, stood in front of a contemporary ranch house that Emma knew well. Nishas home was the first place she went as Sutton, the night Madeline Vega and the Twitter Twins, Lilianna and Gabriella Fiorello, kidnapped her from the park bench where shed been waiting to meet her twin for the very first time. Emma remembered how irritated Nisha had seemed when Emma walked into the partyNisha and Sutton had been rivals for years. But over the past month, Emma had started to form a tentative friendship with the tennis team cocaptain.

The girl was discovered by her father just after eight P.M. last Monday. In an official statement, the Tucson Police have determined that there is no evidence of foul play and are treating the death as an accident. But many questions remain.

The camera cut to Clara, a girl Emma knew from the varsity tennis team. Her eyes were wide and shocked, her face pale. NISHAS CLASSMATE appeared at the bottom third of the screen below her. A lot of people are saying it might have been . . . it might have been intentional. Because Nisha was so driven, you know? How much can one person do before they . . . they crack? Tears filled Claras eyes.

The camera cut away again, replacing Clara with a teenage boy. Emma did a double take. It was her boyfriend, Ethan Landry. NISHAS NEIGHBOR, said the caption below his face. He wore a black button-down shirt and a black tie and was obviously leaving his house for the funeral. Emmas knees weakened at the sight of him. I didnt know her that well, Ethan said. His dark blue eyes were serious. She always seemed really together to me. But I guess you never know what secrets people are hiding.

The camera returned to the newscaster. Services will be held this afternoon at All Faiths Memorial Park. The family has requested that donations be made to the University of Arizona Hospital in lieu of flowers. This is Tricia Melendez, signing off. Emma snapped the laptop closed and walked back into the closet. The silence left in the wake of the chattering newscaster felt deep and sepulchral.

Shed never been to a funeral before. Unlike most kids her age, who had lost grandparents or family friends, Emma had never had anyone to lose. She took a deep breath and started to flip through Suttons black dresses, trying to decide which one would be appropriate.

I couldnt remember if Id ever had reason to wear mourning black. My dead-girl memory was frustratingly spotty. I could remember vague, general attachmentsto my house, to my parentsbut very few concrete moments. Every now and then a memory would come back to me in a flash of sudden details, but I hadnt figured out how to predict them, let alone trigger them. I tried to remember my grandfathers funeral, when Laurel and I were six or seven. Had we held hands as we approached the casket?