Anne Graham Lotz - Why?: Trusting God When You Dont Understand

Why?

Trusting God
When You don't Understand

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Why?

Trusting God
When You don't Understand

BY
ANNE GRAHAM LOTZ

2004 Anne Graham Lotz. All rights reserved. No portion of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form or by any meanselectronic, mechanical, photocopy, recording, or any otherexcept for brief quotation in printed reviews, without the prior permission of the publisher.

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All Scripture quotations, unless otherwise indicated, are taken from the Holy Bible, New International Version. Copyright 1973 International Bible Society. Used by permission of Zondervan Bible Publishers.

Other Scripture references are from the following sources:

The King James Version (KJV) of the Bible.

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1982, Thomas Nelson, Inc., Publishers. Used by permission.

Unless otherwise indicated, non-Scripture chapter epigraph quotations are taken from Mrs. Charles E. Cowman, comp., Streams in the Desert (1925, reprint: Zondervan, 1977).

"I Lay My Whys? Before Your Cross" by Ruth Bell Graham from Ruth BellGrahams Collected Poems, published by Baker Books, a division of Baker Book House Company, copyright 1977, 1992, 1997. Used by permission.

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

Lotz, Anne Graham, 1948

Why? / by Anne Graham Lotz.

p. cm.

Includes bibliographical references.

ISBN 0-8499-1786-7 (hardcover)

ISBN 0-8499-0845-0 (softcover)

1. Consolation. I. Title.

BV4905.3.L68 2004

248.8'6dc22

2003026213

Printed in the United States of America

03 04 05 06 07 RRD 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1

Dedicated
to
those who have unanswered prayers

Contents

B EFORE MY HUSBAND and I rushed out the door yesterday to drive my mother-in-law to UCLAs cancer clinic, I rummaged around looking for reading material to help bide the time. "Here, take this," my friend said, handing me a manuscript that had just arrived in the mail. I looked at the title, Why? and remembered I had promised Anne Graham Lotz I would write the foreword. I tucked it in my bag, and we were off.

We arrived at the clinic and had to search for a few open seats. The place was crowded with families sitting quietly, somberly flipping through magazines, and checking their watches every now and then. The air was heavy with sadness. I glanced at my mother-in-law, a frail eighty-four-year-old woman struggling against the last stages of pancreatic cancer. She sat slumped, waiting, with both hands folded on top of her purse. My heart twisted whenever I saw her wince in pain. All of us were hoping shed be helped with one more chemotherapy treatment.

I breathed a prayer as they escorted Mom Tadathats what Ive always affectionately called this brave, hardy little Japanese womaninto the chemo room. She hunched her shoulders, and I could tell the pain was worse. Oh, Lord Jesus, I prayed, can You not lighten her load a bit? Ease her plight?Please?

After Ken and his mother disappeared behind the doors, I sighed and turned to Annes manuscript and began reading.

After the first five pages, I sensed a strange, warm peace flood my heart. The Bible verses seemed fresh and alive. The story of Mary, Martha, and LazarusI felt as though I were reading it for the first time. The testimonies were riveting and revealing. The poems and quotes resonated. Page after page, I found comfort and consolation, encouragement and insight. I looked up and bit my lip, realizing God was using this remarkable book, Why? to speak to me, to comfort me, to escort me into the deeper recesses of the heart of my Savior.

God, thank You for placing this book in my hands for such amoment as this!

Mom Tadas chemo treatment took almost three hours. By the time she was wheeled back into the waiting room, I had nearly finished the manuscript. Breathing a sigh and sharing my smile, I gave my mother-in-law a hug straight from the heart. Or maybe... it was a hug straight from Gods heart. For Anne Graham Lotz had helped me "get it all back in focus." Her book Why? provided just the insight, just the comfort, I needed to pass on to my family that afternoon. Bolstered and boosted by the Spirit of Christ, we sang hymns all the way back home.

Need I say more about the book you hold in your hands?

Thank you, Anne, for reminding mefor reminding us allthat we can trust the One Who holds all the answers to that jarring question Why? Just knowing that is... enough.

JONI EARECKSON TADA
Joni and Friends
winter 2004

T HIS BOOK IS BASED ON the following portion of Gods Word:

Now a man named Lazarus was sick. He was from Bethany, the village of Mary and her sister Martha. This Mary, whose brother Lazarus now lay sick, was the same one who poured perfume on the Lord and wiped his feet with her hair. So the sisters sent word to Jesus, "Lord, the one you love is sick."

When he heard this, Jesus said, "This sickness will not end in death. No, it is for Gods glory so that Gods Son may be glorified through it." Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus. Yet when he heard that Lazarus was sick, he stayed where he was two more days.

Then he said to his disciples, "Let us go back to Judea."

"But Rabbi," they said, "a short while ago the Jews tried to stone you, and yet you are going back there?"

Jesus answered, "Are there not twelve hours of daylight? A man who walks by day will not stumble, for he sees by this worlds light. It is when he walks by night that he stumbles, for he has no light."

After he had said this, he went on to tell them, "Our friend Lazarus has fallen asleep; but I am going there to wake him up."

His disciples replied, "Lord, if he sleeps, he will get better." Jesus had been speaking of his death, but his disciples thought he meant natural sleep.

So then he told them plainly, "Lazarus is dead, and for your sake I am glad I was not there, so that you may believe. But let us go to him."

Then Thomas (called Didymus) said to the rest of the disciples, "Let us also go, that we may die with him."

On his arrival, Jesus found that Lazarus had already been in the tomb for four days. Bethany was less than two miles from Jerusalem, and many Jews had come to Martha and Mary to comfort them in the loss of their brother. When Martha heard that Jesus was coming, she went out to meet him, but Mary stayed at home.

"Lord," Martha said to Jesus, "if you had been here, my brother would not have died. But I know that even now God will give you whatever you ask."