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I dedicate this book to mother, Ann Haas, who without, I would have no idea what being in my power truly looks like. Thank you, Mom, for fiercely loving me, for accepting me exactly as I am, for always showing up for me, and for supporting me in all the darkness and light that I have experienced in life. Your fire and passion for contribution has inspired me to bring forth my deepest gifts in service of helping others, and for that I am forever grateful. Your courage and willingness to be so unapologetically YOU, no matter what anyone thinks, has shaped me into who I am today. I love you infinitely.
I also dedicate this book to my father, Ken Pollinger. Thank you for showing me the way into the magical and mystical realms of life and for always encouraging me to question and seek a deeper level of truth. Thank you for your unconventional ways and beliefs and for sparking my curiosity of the esoteric. Thank you for guiding me to my path of chiropractic, yoga, meditation, and spirituality as this book would definitely not be in existence without these things in my life. Thank you for giving me the gifts of your profound wisdom and your hunger for always going deeper. I love you oceans and oceans and mountains and mountains.
Finally, I dedicate this book to my daughter, Willow Maya Keefe. Thank you for being the one who ultimately motivated and inspired me to be the best woman I could possibly be. From the moment you were born, I knew that I would keep growing and evolving until I was a woman that both you and I were proud of. Thank you for being so authentic and real, for always telling me exactly how you feel, for making me laugh and helping me not take any of this too seriously. Thank you for being my best friend for these past nineteen years. Thank you for your patience and support with all the traveling, phone calls, zooms and team building in these past two - and - a - half years, so that we can have a truly extraordinary life of infinite possibilities. You are and always will be the light of my life.
Introduction
Simply holding this book in your hands means that you are on your way to creating a wildly successful business in network marketing with ease, energy, and joy. That much, I can promise.
Before you read further, Id like you to sit somewhere that feels pleasurable and comfortable, put the book down, close your eyes, take a deep breath, and feel your body for a moment. Now, let the opening statement sink in: You are meant to create a wildly successful business in network marketing with ease, energy, and joy.
This book is like nothing youve read before, and my intention is that by the end you will feel drastically different about your life, your business, and yourself as a woman.
I get that this may seem impossible right now. I know how you feel, because Ive been there.
Youre feeling overwhelmed, exhausted, and disconnected from yourself, your business, your earning power, and those you love. Youve been thinking about creating an incredible network marketing business, but you fear its never going to get off the ground. You feel a lack of support, and its often a struggle just to get through the day. You have huge dreams and aspirations, but no idea of how to get there. In fact, your dreams are starting to feel more and more fleeting and impossible to attain.
I want you to know that I am sorry.
I am so sorry its been so hard for you. I am sorry that you are feeling alone and unsupported. I am sorry you have not been told every day that you are a beautiful, powerful, extraordinary woman with amazing gifts to share with the world. I am sorry that you were not told daily what a precious gift you are. I am sorry that you were not taught that you are an unlimited being in an unlimited universe in which anything you desire is possible. I am sorry that you have not known that you can be, do, and have whatever it is that your heart and soul deeply long for.
I am sorry you havent been seen or heard.
I get it. Ive been right there in your shoes. And I am here to assure you, that as women, we can have what we desire. We can create extraordinary lives that we are wild and crazy about, from a place of pleasure and power, while feeling fully fueled and alive. How do I know this? Because I am living it. And so can you.
From Disconnected to Fully Fueled
Who am I anyway and why should you listen to me? Let me tell you a bit about myself and the path I have walked. When I was younger, I really struggled to discover my identity. I suffered from low self - esteem and wasnt quite sure where I fit in. When I was in high school, I used sex, alcohol, and drugs to help cope and find a sense of connection and belonging. Most of the time, I was unable to connect to my joy, energy, or light, and I did what I could to try to cover up my pain.
I graduated high school with straight Asyes I was still an overachiever, which was another way I tried to avoid pain. In college, I continued using drugs and alcohol as a way to feel connected and part of something. I found myself in a very dark place as a result. I knew I needed to do something different or I would spiral down into a place that I wasnt willing to go. A chiropractic adjustment resulted in a life - altering experience of connecting to the peace, joy, and light inside of myselfand as a result I decided to enroll in chiropractic school. I graduated with honors when I was twenty - four years old. Shortly after, I became pregnant with my daughter and took over a very successful chiropractic practice in Berkeley, California.
I overworked and pushed myself as we were struggling financially. I was severely stressed out and wound up going into labor six weeks early. My daughter was born healthy, but my relationship with her father came apart under stress and ended three years later. The separation sent me into a tailspin of grief, despair, and deeper disconnection than I had ever felt before.
Although my ex was an incredible and present father, being a single mom was difficult to say the least. I was forced to be resourceful because I didnt have a partner to rely on for the day - in and day - out . I was the breadwinner, the cook, the cleaner, and the gardener. I was everything, and it took its toll.
I began suffering from severe physical symptoms that manifested as digestive and skin issues, which caused me to lose more of my self - confidence . I didnt want to get out of bed in the morning, much less leave the house. At times I wasnt sure how I would pay rent or put food on the table for my daughter. Those were dark days and I sometimes wondered if it would be way easier to run my car off the side of the road than to continue to live that way.
In my mid - thirties I reached a breaking point and found myself sobbing on my knees on the kitchen floor. It was then that I made a decision that my life was going to change. I decided that I was no longer going to be sick or broke. Somewhere deep inside I knew that my gifts had to be shared, my voice had to be heard, and that my message was too big to live this way for even one more day. I made those decisions with every single bone in my body and didnt look back.
The Feminine Connection
That breakdown, and breakthrough, was a long time in the making. I had spent years trying to find my power to varying levels of success. At one particularly low point, a friend introduced me to Tantric Dance of Feminine Power, which was an invitation to learn how to connect with my centermy womband to move from a new and different place in myself.