Sharon Jackson - Every Moment Needs Some Light

EveryMomentNeedsSome Light

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Dedication Page

IwouldfirstliketothankGodalmightyforallowingmethebreathtoproduceina hostile situation. For loving me enough to give me Jesus as my savior. To my children,youaremynever-endingpushtoleaveaninheritanceofhealth,wealth, and success for you and future generations.

Thank you for always being the strength that never gives up on me, my mother, Jessie.Toallmysistersandsistersinlove,eachofyouareremarkable;thankyou for always holding me up when I need it most.

FreshFireFamilyMinistries,eachofyoupossessesastoryofyourown;thankyou for loving me while I am still under construction. The Gems of my Heart, Retta Banks, Johnnie Reeves, Patricia Blackmon, Mary Gilder, Ruby Butler, Dell Webb, Elizabeth Freeman, Lucille Watkins, Martha Garrett, Virginia Aaron, and Rosett Eady, your words mold me every day and give light to my dark places.

Lastbutnotleast,Iwanttothankallofmyreadersforyourconstantsupportand encouragementofmywork.MayGodshinehislightoneachofyou.Lastly,thank you for all the wrongs that give way to the right.

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Andtheythatshallbeoftheeshallbuildtheoldwasteplaces:thoushaltraisethefoundations of many generations; and thou shalt be called, the repairer ofthe breach, the restorer of paths to dwell in.

Isaiah58:12 (KJV)

I was a pawn for so many people. I was cast down, but I wasn't destroyed. The shadow of pain followed me because I allowed myself to become used, unappreciated, and betrayed.

All I wanted was to be accepted and not traded as a cheap thrill. Why did I have to be the one? I was sought after in the night when gross darkness covered the land?Theonewhowaspleasurableandpleasantwhennoonewasaround,andI allowed myself to become the secret.

Iwaitedpatientlyforyourphonecallsforthenextassignment.Hangingontothe smallest amount of self-esteem I had. I am merely the shadow box, which was shatteredbytheemptypromise,lies,andself-betrayalofmany.Thenalightthat I never knew entered my life. It was then I began to know my worth. I am worth allthatGodhasforme.Inowpassthosethattriedtokeepmeshattered,andthey look upon what Jesus has mended.

~Sharon Jackson

AMoments of Light

Haveyoueverfeltusedandabusedbythoseyoulovethemost?Relationshipscan be subtle mixtures of emotions, leaving us empty and void. Jesus came that we might have victory over every emotion that life brings.

Castallyouremotionsonthealtartoday,proclaimingfreedomfromthebondages andpainthatlifebrings.Icanrememberfeelingemptyandafraidfromchildhood devastations and young adult complications, empty because of the choices I made. Only the love that God can give shatters feelings ofabandonment, loneliness, and guilt.

Are you holding on to past pain, insecurities, and shame? That can only be cleansed by the father, leaving you with a clean heart and a renewed start. Cast your cares unto Jesus today, for he cares for you.

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have lifeand have it abundantly.

John10:10 (ESV)

Wake Me Up

Likewise, the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses, For we do not know what we shouldprayforasweought,buttheSpiritHimselfmakesintercessionforuswith groanings which cannot be uttered.

Roman8:26 (NKJV)

I think of how I used to be broken, confused, lonely, and sad. I remember when healingwassomething,IonlyheardothersexperienceandIneverthoughtitwas for me. I could only imagine what living outside of the box would be for me, void ofthefeelingsofbitterness,frustration,orfeelingsofbeingunsatisfiedthatIwas so accustomed to. What a life! What a feeling! But then I found a friend that showed me the way. We do not have a High Priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are-yet He did not sin. Hebrews 4:15. (NIV).

Jesus was the answer I needed, I saw the scales begin to come off my own eyes. For the first time in a long time, I started to see what vision looked like.

One day, I screamed, I have to break free," and I heard an echo saying, "You're free."

I realized that I was being ministered to by the Holy Spirit. It spoke to my brokenness, confusion, and lonely state, and I was being reconciled back to the place I called "Wholeness."

~Sharon Jackson

AMoment of Light

Toberememberedthroughtheyearsbyachildhoodfriendissuchamemorythat you will cherish forever. Those are great memories, but what about memories of pain,hurt,anddisappointments.Howdowegetoverthose?Irememberwalking around daily with so many memories of self-inflicted pain and feeling. I couldn't share my problems with anyone. Honestly, everyone around me was consumed with their success or profound dark failures. Who had time for me? Hearing the wordchangedmymind,butIgivethehonortoGodforJesus,whointercedesfor me daily. If you have a situation that seems no one understands, Jesus does and will advocate on your behalf. Give Jesus your weakness today and allow Him to turn each of them into victories.

Heremembered usin ourweakness; hisfaithful loveendures forever.

Psalms136:23 (NLT)

Crying Replenishes the Soul

Youhavekeptcountofmytossing;putmytearsinyourbottle.AretheynotinYourbook? Then my enemies will turn back in the day when I call.

Psalms56:8-9 (ESV)

When chains and bonds break off me, what a being I w ill be. When light overcomes darkness and my eyes begin to see, how you kept me is still a mystery. When I didn't want what I felt inside, revelation and truth caused me to hide. Then the truthcameforthasadawningnewday.Theresidueandthereproachallwashed away."Yetevennow,"declarestheLord,returntomewithallyourheart,fasting, weeping,andmourning,Joel2:12(ESV).Thankyouforpreparingmeforwhatwas tocome.Youdevelopedmedaybyday.Iconfessnotmine,butyourway.Foryou knowthatafterwardwhenhedesiredtoinherittheblessings,hewasrejected,for he found no place for repentance, though he sought it carefully with tears, Hebrew 12:17(KJV).