Charlie Jane Anders - All the Birds in the Sky

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T O A NNALEE

In the game of life and evolution there are three players at the table: human beings, nature, and machines. I am firmly on the side of nature. But nature, I suspect, is on the side of the machines.

GEORGE DYSON , DARWIN AMONG THE MACHINES

WHEN PATRICIA WAS six years old, she found a wounded bird. The sparrow thrashed on top of a pile of wet red leaves in the crook of two roots, waving its crushed wing. Crying, in a pitch almost too high for Patricia to hear. She looked into the sparrows eye, enveloped by a dark stripe, and she saw its fear. Not just fear, but also miseryas if this bird knew it would die soon. Patricia still didnt understand how the life could just go out of someones body forever, but she could tell this bird was fighting against death with everything it had.

Patricia vowed with all her heart to do everything in her power to save this bird. This was what led to Patricia being asked a question with no good answer, which marked her for life.

She scooped up the sparrow with a dry leaf, very gently, and laid it in her red bucket. Rays of the afternoon sun came at the bucket horizontally, bathing the bird in red light so it looked radioactive. The bird was still whipping around, trying to fly with one wing.

Its okay, Patricia told the bird. Ive got you. Its okay.

Patricia had seen creatures in distress before. Her big sister, Roberta, liked to collect wild animals and play with them. Roberta put frogs into a rusty Cuisinart that their mom had tossed out, and stuck mice into her homemade rocket launcher, to see how far she could shoot them. But this was the first time Patricia looked at a living creature in pain and really saw it, and every time she looked into the birds eye she swore harder that this bird was under her protection.

Whats going on? asked Roberta, smashing through the branches nearby.

Both girls were pale, with dark brown hair that grew super-straight no matter what you did and nearly button noses. But Patricia was a wild, grubby girl, with a round face, green eyes, and perpetual grass stains on her torn overalls. She was already turning into the girl the other girls wouldnt sit with, because she was too hyper, made nonsense jokes, and wept when anybodys balloon (not just her own) got popped. Roberta, meanwhile, had brown eyes, a pointy chin, and absolutely perfect posture when she sat without fidgeting in a grown-up chair and a clean white dress. With both girls, their parents had hoped for a boy and picked out a name in advance. Upon each daughters arrival, theyd just stuck an a on the end of the name they already had.

I found a wounded bird, Patricia said. It cant fly, its wing is ruined.

I bet I can make it fly, Roberta said, and Patricia knew she was talking about her rocket launcher. Bring it here. Ill make it fly real good.

No! Patricias eyes flooded and she felt short of breath. You cant! You cant! And then she was running, careening, with the red bucket in one hand. She could hear her sister behind her, smashing branches. She ran faster, back to the house.

Their house had been a spice shop a hundred years ago, and it still smelled of cinnamon and turmeric and saffron and garlic and a little sweat. The perfect hardwood floors had been walked on by visitors from India and China and everywhere, bringing everything spicy in the world. If Patricia closed her eyes and breathed deeply, she could imagine the people unloading wooden foil-lined crates stamped with names of cities like Marrakesh and Bombay. Her parents had read a magazine article about renovating Colonial trade houses and had snapped up this building, and now they were constantly yelling at Patricia not to run indoors or scratch any of the perfect oak furnishings, until their foreheads showed veins. Patricias parents were the sort of people who could be in a good mood and angry at almost the same time.

Patricia paused in a small clearing of maples near the back door. Its okay, she told the bird. Ill take you home. Theres an old birdcage in the attic. I know where to find it. Its a nice cage, it has a perch and a swing. Ill put you in there, Ill tell my parents. If anything happens to you, I will hold my breath until I faint. Ill keep you safe. I promise.

No, the bird said. Please! Dont lock me up. I would prefer you just kill me now.

But, Patricia said, more startled that the bird was refusing her protection than that he was speaking to her. I can keep you safe. I can bring you bugs or seeds or whatever.

Captivity is worse than death for a bird like me, the sparrow said. Listen. You can hear me talking. Right? That means youre special. Like a witch! Or something. And that means you have a duty to do the right thing. Please.

Oh. This was all a lot for Patricia to take in. She sat down on a particularly large and grumpy tree root, with thick bark that felt a little damp and sort of like sawtooth rocks. She could hear Roberta beating the bushes and the ground with a big Y-shaped stick, over in the next clearing, and she worried about what would happen if Roberta heard them talking. But, Patricia said, quieter so that Roberta would not hear. But your wing is hurt, right, and I need to take care of you. Youre stuck.

Well. The bird seemed to think about this for a moment. You dont know how to heal a broken wing, do you? He flapped his bad wing. Hed looked just sort of gray-brown at first, but up close she could see brilliant red and yellow streaks along his wings, with a milk-white belly and a dark, slightly barbed beak.

No. I dont know anything. Im sorry!

Okay. So you could just put me up in a tree and hope for the best, but Ill probably get eaten or starve to death. His head bobbed. Or I mean. There is one thing.

What? Patricia looked at her knees, through the thready holes in her denim overalls, and thought her kneecaps looked like weird eggs. What? She looked over at the sparrow in the bucket, who was in turn studying her with one eye, as if trying to decide whether to trust her.

Well, the bird chirped. I mean, you could take me to the Parliament of Birds. They can fix a wing, no problem. And if youre going to be a witch, then you should meet them anyway. Theyre the smartest birds around. They always meet at the most majestic tree in the forest. Most of them are over five years old.

Im older than that, Patricia said. Im almost seven, in four months. Or five. She heard Roberta getting closer, so she snatched up the bucket and took off running, deeper into the woods.

The sparrow, whose name was Dirrpidirrpiwheepalong, or Dirrp for short, tried to give Patricia directions to the Parliament of Birds as best he could, but he couldnt see where he was going from inside the bucket. And his descriptions of the landmarks to watch for made no sense to Patricia. The whole thing reminded her of one of the Cooperation exercises at school, which she was hopeless at ever since her only friend, Kathy, moved away. At last, Patricia perched Dirrp on her finger, like Snow White, and he bounced onto her shoulder.