I think towels are revealing.
Three Dioramas
Its not an easy oblivion, for example sometimes I still love my collarbones Tipsy is a baby buried in a tree Passed-out is a solitary swan in the basement, forgetting light Oblivion a bruise the size of a cruise ship shitfaced shit faced is a mother of three a mother of three I said
Whats wrong with me is also whats wrong with my mother I cry straight into his eyelashes I pee through my new dress I kiss her hands I fold laundry I cant move Your grandson is growing like a tombstone She plays with tomatoes she smells green like vines I love dirt I hate dirt on his noodles dont worry once the bunnies black out you might have some sex a husband stop hiding your purse be resilient my bunnies my babies
We touch the gills of the girl who left her sisters little faces, fingers after supper we love our iridescent mermaids dish soap bubbles sea foam after I dry my hands a few petals drop from the lilies on the table its a story of resignation verisimilitude we touch the silent girl once upon a time she had all the things i wanted a father a brother a beautiful voice her tail turns to legs she misses her tail her poor legs hurt oh mama they hurt all the time
Precious Energy: A Triptych
dazzling white towels the size of blankets I think towels are revealing.
If I go to someones house to sleep and they sayoh, Ive left some towels on the bedI race right over to see them. I like when towels match, are fluffy. Suzanne (who is still single) has dazzling white towels the size of blankets. Jennifer and her husband Tim keep two kinds of towels: buttery yellow hooded towels for their three small children and thick green (sage?) towels for themselves and their guests. I was drunk at a party they had recently and stumbled into their walk-in linen closet. They had beautiful sheets and pillowcases, too.
I stayed in there for a long time. a generous woman with shabby towels My towels, on the other hand, look like the towels of someone who has given up. When people stay with us I always give each guest at least three towels. I insist on providing clean towels every day. Im generous with my towels even if the towels themselves are shabby. My husband and I have never spent money on good towels.
Whenever we find ourselves in a place where we might buy some new ones we always change our minds or pretend to forget. I pretend to forget. I dont think my husband cares about towels. He often uses the same one for weeks before deciding to take a fresh one. I pretend to forget about my desire for new towels because I dont want to ask him for extra money. I dont want him to know that Im thinking about towels, or my friends towels.