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TIGER TIGER TIGER TIGER MARGAUX FRAGOSO Copyright 2011 by Margaux - photo 1

TIGER, TIGER

TIGER, TIGER

MARGAUX FRAGOSO

Copyright 2011 by Margaux Fragoso Published in the United States by Farrar - photo 2


Copyright 2011 by Margaux Fragoso
Published in the United States by Farrar, Straus and Giroux

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Douglas & McIntyre
An imprint of D&M Publishers Inc.
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Vancouver BC Canada V5T 4S7
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Cataloguing data available from Library and Archives Canada
ISBN 978-1-55365-855-9
ISBN 978-1-55365-856-6 (ebook)

The names and identifying characteristics of some
individuals depicted in this book have been changed.

Jacket design by Susan Mitchell


TO EDVIGE GIUNTA
FOR NURTURING THE SEED

TO JOHN VERNON
FOR PATIENTLY HARVESTING IT


Tiger, tiger, burning bright

In the forests of the night,

What immortal hand or eye

Dare frame thy fearful symmetry?

WILLIAM BLAKE, The Tiger

Tell me, Lord, how could you leave a lass so long
so lone that she could find her way to me?

TONI MORRISON, The Bluest Eye

CONTENTS

6. EIGHT IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL
AGE FOR A GIRL

10. THERES SOMETHING VERY WRONG
WITH THAT MAN

TIGER, TIGER

I started writing this book the summer after the death of Peter Curran, whom I met when I was seven and had a relationship with for fifteen years, right up until he committed suicide at the age of sixty-six.

Hoping to make sense of what happened, I began drafting my life story. And even during times I havent worked on it, when it sat on a shelf in my closet, I felt its presence in the despair that comes precisely at two in the afternoon, which was the time Peter would pick me up and take me for rides; in the despair again at five p.m., when I would read to him, head on his chest; at seven p.m., when he would hold me; in the despair again at nine p.m., when we would go for our night ride, starting at Boulevard East in Weehawken, to River Road, down to the Royal Cliffs Diner, where I would buy a cup of coffee with precisely seven sugars and a lot of cream, and a bread pudding with whipped cream and raisins, or rice pudding if he wanted a change. When I came back, hed turn the car (Granada or Cimarron or Escort or black Mazda) back to River Road, back to Boulevard East, and wed head past the expensive Queen Anne, Victorian, and Gothic Revival houses, gazing beyond the Hudson River to the skyscrapers lights ignited like a thousand mirrors, where we would sometimes park and watch thunderstorms.

In one of his suicide notes to me, Peter suggested that I write a memoir about our lives together, which was ironic. Our world had been permitted only by the secrecy surrounding it; had you taken away our lies and codes and looks and symbols and haunts, you would have taken everything; and had you done that when I was twenty or fifteen or twelve, I might have killed myself and then you wouldnt get to look into this tiny island that existed only through its lies and codes and looks and symbols and haunts. All these secret things together built a supreme master key, and if you ask a locksmith whether there is a master key in existence that will open any lock in the world, he will tell you no, but you can make a key that will open all the locks in one particular building. You can configure the locks beforehand to match the grooves of the key in question, but it is impossible to design a key that will open any preexisting lock. Peter knew this because he once created a master key for a whole hospital; he was a self-taught locksmith, learning the trade in libraries at night and on the job after bluffing his way in.

Picture a girl of seven or so, who loves red gumballs that come from gumball machines but leaves behind the blues and greens; a child whose sneakers are the kind with Velcro, not laces; a child whose legs grip metal ponies activated by a quarter at Pathmark Super Center; a child who is afraid of the jokers in a card deck and insists that they be taken out before a game; a child who fears her father and dislikes puzzles (boring!); a child who likes dogs and rabbits and iguanas and Italian ices; a child who likes riding on the back of a motorcycle because what other seven-year-old gets to ride on a motorcycle; a child who hates to go home (ever) because Peters house is like a zoo, and most of all because Peter is fun, Peter is just like her, only bigger and can do things she cant.

Perhaps he knew that human cells regenerate every seven years, that after each of these cycles, a different person rises up from the old nest of atoms. Lets say over the next seven years, this man, Peter, reprogrammed this childs fizzing cells. That he cleverly memorized her pathways to joy and followed her easy trails of desire, her cravings for Creamsicles, going shirtless like a boy, loving the lap of a dogs sweet pink tongue on her face and the sight of a rabbit crunching something crisp and green. Later, he assiduously learned Madonnas lyrics and, still later, the names of twenty Nirvana songs.

Four months after Peter died, I interviewed a corrections officer while working as a feature writer for my college newspaper. At her apartment, a studio in the Journal Square area of downtown Jersey City, we drank chamomile tea and chatted. I mentioned that I was writing a book. She wanted to know what kind, and I said it was about a pedophile and that it was only a first draftvery rough so far. I asked her if she knew any pedophiles in her line of work.

Pedophiles. Sure. Theyre the nicest inmates.

Nice?

Sure. Nice, polite, dont cause any trouble. Always call you miss, always say no maam, yes maam.

Something in her calmness compelled me to talk. I was reading that pedophiles rationalize what they do by thinking of it as consensual even if they use coercion. That particular fact, something Id seen in my abnormal-psychology textbook, shocked me by how perfectly it fit Peters thinking. My next insight, though, wasnt gleaned from a book, but I pretended it was: I also read that spending time with a pedophile can be like a drug high. There was this girl who said its as if the pedophile lives in a fantastic kind of reality, and that fantasticness infects everything. Kind of like theyre children themselves, only full of the knowledge that children dont have. Their imaginations are stronger than kidsand they can build realities that small kids would never be able to dream up. They can make the childs world... ecstatic somehow. And when its over, for people whove been through this, its like coming off of heroin and, for years, they cant stop chasing the ghost of how it felt. One girl said that its like the earth is scorched and the grass wont grow back. And the ground looks black and barren but inside its still burning.

How sad, said Olivia, and she looked like she meant it.

After an awkward pause, the conversation shifted to other types of inmates and the general experience of working in a prison. During our talk, I began to feel nauseated, as though my surroundings, the warm kitchen that had felt so inviting at first, had become menacing. My perceptions were always devastatingly acute, a side effect of years of very little social contact with the world outside of the one Id shared with Peter.

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