Also by LISA SCHROEDER
I Heart You, You Haunt Me This book is a work of fiction. Any references to historical events, real people, or real locales are used fictitiously. Other names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the authors imagination, and any resemblance to actual events or locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
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SIMON PULSE
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Copyright 2009 by Lisa Schroeder
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Schroeder, Lisa.
Far from you / Lisa Schroeder.1st Simon Pulse ed.
p. cm.
Summary: A novel-in-verse about sixteen-year-old Alis reluctant road trip with her stepmother and new baby sister, and the terror that ensues after they end up lost in the snow-covered woods.
ISBN-13: 978-1-4169-8988-2
ISBN-10: 1-4169-8988-9 [1. Novels in verse. 2. StepfamiliesFiction. 3. SurvivalFiction.] I.
Title.
PZ7.5.S37Far 2009
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Dedication
For my mom, with love While other kids
went to Disneyland,
you took me
to Grandmas house
and the library. What a
lucky little girl
I was. Thank you.
Acknowledgments
Lindsey Leavitt and Lisa Madigan, you complete me. Thank you for your wisdom and insight, and your willingness to read at the drop of an e-mail. Sara Crowe, agent extraordinaire, a million times, thank you for all that you do.
Michael del Rosario and the fine folks at Simon Pulse, I appreciate your efforts and hard work more than I can say. Scott, Sam, and Grant, thanks for your unwavering enthusiasm. Im pretty sure when God was handing out families, He saved the best one for me. Kate, Deena, Emily, and Tina, my Author2Author blog buddies, thanks for letting me join you. Ive learned so much from you! Sally, you are, and always will be, my jukebox hero, and I just want to say thanks for being my loving, supportive friend. Dan, Dolores, and Margie, thanks for the laughs and making work fun.
To my friends in the LJ hood, thanks for being there through it all. Jason Wade, you dont know me and youll probably never read this, but I just had to tell you that Im not sure I could have written this book without your music in my ears. Finally, thank YOU, wonderful reader. Thank you from the bottom, top, and sides of my ever-grateful heart.
Far from You
day four
Were alone with only the cold and dark to keep us company. Familiar. Familiar.
Old friends who have stayed too long and need to go. I wish the angel would have stayed. For a second, I felt warmth. I felt safe. I felt love as she whispered my name, Alice, and floated toward me before she disappeared. So tired. Cold. Cold.
I look out the window, and although its dark, the moon illuminates the scene as if a faraway floodlight is hung from the sky. So much whiteness. Everywhere. Come back, angel. Let us fly away from here. Come back.
softly snowing
Memories fall like snowflakes upon my dreams.
softly snowing
Memories fall like snowflakes upon my dreams.
Me and Mom, a piece of art, a promise, a hug. Me and Dad, a thousand tears, a bouquet, a loss. Me and Blaze, an autumn day, a walk, a kiss. Me and Claire, a flowing skirt, a song, a fight. The snowflakes toss and tumble, each different and yet the same.
part 1
every things always changing
Muffled voices outside my door that October morning woke me and took me from a peaceful place to one Id come to hate.
part 1
every things always changing
Muffled voices outside my door that October morning woke me and took me from a peaceful place to one Id come to hate.
When one of them stepped into my room, the hallway light landed on my closed eyelids, urging them to open like a hand pulling on a doorknob. Its time, Dad said. I didnt open my eyes. I didnt move. I didnt speak. Ali, you awake? I gave a little grunt.
The event wasnt worth wasting breath on. Well call you later. When shes here. Pause. I love you, he said quickly and quietly.
The clock read 4:13 a.m.
My dog, Cobain, slept at the foot of my bed. I changed directions and curled up next to his warm body, feeling the rhythm of his breathing. I stroked his golden fur, and my heartbeats s o f t e n e d. He breathed. I breathed. Cobain. Cobain.
My oxygen tank. He breathed. I breathed. The garage door rumbled open beneath me. They were gone. Gone until theyd come back with her.
Then thered be me. He breathed. I breathed. They knew her name. But they wouldnt tell me. Itll be a surprise, Victoria had said, like a surprise is a good thing.
My stepmom. Victoria. She reminded me of a chameleon lizard, with her annoying habit of curling her tongue up just slightly, and touching her top lip, when she was concentrating. A chameleon. One minute sweet as chocolate cake. The next, sour and possessive, like an old banker.
Once upon a time he and I were close. Dad. Wed cook together, watch basketball together, and make up silly jingles together, since advertising is his line of work. Things changed. Victoria moved in. He changed.
Its like he tried to move on to greener pastures, but the tractor in the barn, once adored, became a nuisance and kept him connected to the painful past. I squeezed in closer to Cobain. He breathed. I breathed. I could see Dad holding his new baby girl. Happy. Happy.
Totally in love. Hed breathe. Shed breathe. Then thered be me.
Mom got cancer. She died. She died.
Dad remarried. The end.
After a while I got up, showered, and put on my favorite jeans, a white shirt, my black jacket, and my combat boots. I grabbed my battered, scuffed-up guitar case and headed outside. The sunlight streamed through the tree in our front yard, lighting up the yellow leaves, creating a brilliant golden statue that moved magically when the breeze blew. Amazing.
I love fall. Fall in Seattle. The season of warm colors. I thought about calling Blaze, to see if I could talk him into going, but he likes church about as much as the queen likes profanity. Its the one thing between us that feels like a tiny splinter in your foot. Painful and annoying, but difficult to remove.
Blaze and I met at a concert last spring. Our eyes locked just as Mudhoney took the stage, and it was like a rocket blasting off into space. I felt heat and my body trembled and forces beyond my control pulled me to him as the music ripped through our bodies. I didnt know his name. He didnt know mine. And yet, it was like wed known each other forever.
My best friend, Claire, was with me, and she kept trying to pull me away, like she was afraid for my life. Silly girl. Nothing to worry about. If anything, he sparked a fire inside of me, making me want to live again.