S L Gray - Skin, Bones, and Too Much Love

Skin, Bones, and Too Much Love -S. L. G R A Y For all the ones that You has belonged to. I always thought I was writing these words for me, but within my soul I know they were always meant for you to see. I. This was not searched for.

This was head down, hands in pockets, hurried steps, and stumbling into something I thought had indefinitely left me behind. This was the sweetest sought after feeling inside of an even sweeter soul and I somehow happening upon you. There is nothing about you that I have once known. But I was told what love was going to feel like when it finally came around and in this way, you are so familiar. If I fall for you, I pray for a long slow drop without an ending. I imagine you out there, and it is like lightning and thunder in the distance.

I am mixed with the excitement for what is to come and the want for you to be so much closer. I can promise you there is no place waiting for you more than my own arms. There is so much life to live still. I cannot control the pace in which the moments will arrive. I want to take on most things that arrive carried in by floods of light at the slowest rate that I can manage. But you, I think of living these days with you and I want in the same breath to know every single one of them.

You have gone into my head hand in hand with love. I have never known dreaming like this. Any walls that I have created to keep love out have been destroyed by my own desire to get close to you I can be the silence when the world around you gets to be too loud. I can be the rain pattering on your rooftop when you need that lullaby sound. I can be anything you want and need to make this life settle in and be at ease. Before you touch me, know that you overwhelm me and that I have already crumbled.

When I saw you there, in the depths of all you are my heart found a home. I am letting my heart go to you. It feels like I set it off running through the dark. I am unaware of where it is being lead to or what will become of it. But I know with certainty that I cannot possibly call it back now. My hearts so simple it only wants just one thing: to beat close to yours.

If there is any way to describe the way that I feel for you it is that you are a book filled with endless pages of everything that I have ever wished to know and how I so desperately wish to find a quiet place and never put you down. Anyone can give me love, but it is only with you in which I can return it. I am here with you now. Our cheeks are red and our eyes are glowing. I think it is you and you believe it is me that this light comes from, for there was no light such as this before this moment. Lights were present, yes, but this light is different, (this life is different), undeniably so.

Its always been yours, I cannot find another this heart will beat for. You will always be enough for me, not even the greatest dreamer could convince me that there is more to life than loving you. Know that you are enough for me, but I will always want more of you. I realized that I loved you when I couldnt be alone in my thoughts anymore. The space was no longer my own, but ours. You lean your head into my shoulder and I fall entirely into you.

My heart loves that I am yours so much that it has somehow convinced my mind to erase any memories that I was ever anything else. You have a soul brighter than anything in the sky. To know you is to gaze up at the stars and feel like they couldnt possibly give me a thing. I like the thought of you; you make my mind feel beautiful. You came into my life unexpectedly, but I hope you never leave that way. I will never be somebody elses.

I will always be either entirely yours or completely my own. There is nothing else that I will ever find beyond you and I. I have found nothing more in this world that I want since I have found you. Youve got it right in the palm of your hand and its beating better than it ever did in my chest. You dove into this ocean. Still waters are a faint and ever fleeting memory.

A world without you is a slumber without dreams. I love you in ways hopeless romantics want to be loved and I hold you in ways the moon wishes it could with the sun. I have heard stories of hearts half-full. Stories of hearts too unfortunate to have ever been touched by a heart like yours. My heart sits satisfied in my chest filled with love for you and from you. I have no empty space that aches for anything more.

Your eyes light up and that is my way home. My feelings are sewn into the seams of yours. The sun is shining on you at this very moment, and I can feel its warmth on my own skin. Should your world ever crumble, we will both feel the shake. There are many ways to love and be loved and with you, I have found it all. There isnt any type of love that I cannot find in you.

And when I love you so much of it pours out of me that it feels like in all the ways to love someone, I have given them all to you. I was never lonely until I stumbled into your company and now all I want is for my silence to be filled with you. I would fight against the hands of time to have more than forever with you. I have never been able to shut you out; you come and go from a place inside of my heart that is only known to you. We share the same darkness. I hope that can only mean that we will find the same light.

Time speaks in my ear that you are taking too long. Tries to put the fear in me that I am going to grow old and still be waiting for you. But time does not know that I will wait for you no matter how much it etches itself into my skin, for time spent with anyone else would be the waste of it. Whenever you are ready I will still be ready too. Time can change a lot of things but never my mind about you. Before you, love could have been anything but now love is defined by all the ways that I have been loved by you.

I will always be here for you, even when it feels like you only want me when you need me. Even when it feels wrong of me to allow you to take from me without a thought to give me any parts of yourself to replace all that you have taken. I will always be here for you; until you have all that you want from me. If you stay here with me or I with you I dont see those dark clouds dissipating I see them building and rushing towards us but you know I have always had a thing for that kind of weather. My greatest fear is within losing you and having to settle my heart in a place where I will feel like I do not belong. I cannot walk away from you; I am still falling into everything that you are.

I cannot take one step in a new direction until you have given me solid ground to plant my feet upon and even then, I am certain I would climb back up everything that you are and fall again. I may not always be in love with you, but I will always know love when I think of you. Should this rose ever wilt please remember how I cut off its thorns. My only intention was to love you and nothing more. II. I think of your hands and how they must constantly ache terribly to reach out and touch the one you have fallen deeply in love with and cannot have.

In this silence, I cannot figure out whether you have given up or have found all that youve been searching for. We couldnt have always stayed in the same place. We were always going to move in some direction. It was at first quickly towards each other and then slowly slowly away. Maybe the world couldnt handle a love as deep as ours, so fate tore us apart to save humanity. Maybe this is for the best.

I wont ever forget you, and maybe that is the only forever the two of us together were ever meant to have. For you and I, time had never been more selfish. We started falling apart and I could not show my strength. Because I told you I would never hold you back and even though it feels like the only thing my arms were ever meant to do is hold you, I had to put them to my sides and let you go. You are gone, and I will miss you for as long as I told you I would love you. It is impossible for someone like you to go away and not have someone waiting around for your return.