Ratika Kapur - The Private Life of Mrs Sharma

For my parents: Kuko and Vipen Kapur

The Private Life of
Mrs Sharma

RATIKA KAPUR

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I was walking up to the ticket counter to recharge my Metro card when some man stopped me.

Where are you going? he said.

Cant you see where I am going? I said.

There is a line here, he said.

I am in the ladies line, I said.

I cant see any ladies line here, he said.

I was just going to tell him to mind where he pokes his nose when another man, a younger man, who was wearing a tie with thin blue and grey stripes, interrupted us. Forgive me, bhaisahib, this younger man said in a very calm, cool voice, but let madam go in front.

This was how I first met Vineet. This was almost two months ago.

Three days after that both of us were standing on the platform at Hauz Khas waiting for the train to come. He did not see me, but I could see him just ten or twelve steps from where I was standing, and I knew that if I fixed my eyes on him he would, after some time, look back at me. And he did.

Thank you for that day, I said.

He walked up to me slowly, as if he was a little bit scared. I am sorry, I did not hear you, he said.

Thank you for that day in the line, I said.

Then the train came. He smiled at me, and turned and walked to the end of the train. I got into the ladies compartment.

Seven or eight times after that I saw him at the station on my way to the clinic. It was not every day, but at least two or three mornings a week I would see him on the platform at the Hauz Khas Metro station, standing straight and steady and smart, jacket, shirt, pants, tie, waiting for the HUDA City Centre train to come. Other men played with their phones or looked down the train tunnel or walked up and down the platform or stared at women, but Vineet always stood calmly in one place, like a statue of some great man, waiting for the train. I liked that. I also liked the way he dressed, and from the types of clothes that he would wear I thought that he worked in an office, some fancy air-conditioned office with cubicles and carpets in one of those new steel and glass buildings in Gurgaon. His pants always had one very nice pressed line in the exact middle of each leg and his shirts never had even one line, and at that time, before I knew anything at all about him, I thought that his shirts must have been taken to a presswallah in the locality, and not only that, but also that the presswallah must have brought them back on hangers, not folded.

One morning I was standing behind him at the x-ray machine waiting for my purse when something happened to me and I tapped his shoulder with one finger and said, Are you going to work?

He turned around very suddenly and looked at me, first at my face and then at my feet, and then he nodded his head and smiled. He was wearing the same tie that he wore the first time I met him, the one with thin blue and grey stripes. He told me afterwards that the brand was Zodiac and he had bought it from Shoppers Stop. It cost him almost one thousand rupees.

But I should say here that I am not a cheap woman. I hail from a good family, a well-educated family, my father actually had a BSc in Botany, and I dont talk to men without reason. From time to time men come up to me. Some will offer me a smile, some will try their level best to talk to me and some, I have seen, will allow their eyes to roam all over my body. But I just walk away each and every time. I should also say that Vineet is also not that type of man, the type of man who makes passes at women. I am quite sure about this. Like me, he also hails from a good family, and I knew this from the first moment that I saw him, and that is why when we met each other again at the station four days after that and he asked me if I would like to meet him at Barista in SDA the next Sunday, I said yes. Obviously I waited for one or two seconds, but then I accepted his invitation.

We met each other at Barista at eleven oclock in the morning, I remember, and there was a lot of noise all around. Still, it was a nice type of noise, it was happy noise. There were some girls playing a board game, there were three old women wearing blouses and pants who were drinking coffee and talking as loudly as the girls sitting next to them, and in one corner, all by himself, there was a boy playing a guitar. It was the first time I had been to Barista.

We did not ask each other many questions, we did not talk too much. We watched young people and old people sitting around us, we looked up at the TV, which, I remember, was on one English news channel, and one or two times we looked at each other. We talked a little bit about the weather and a little bit about the news, and that was all, and as it is supposed to be.

After that day, after that outing to Barista, we have met each other five or six times, and always for very short times, for samosas at Shefali Sweets, for example, or for momos outside the station. And then, obviously, we meet each other on the Metro when we go to work, which happens, without any type of planning, two or three times a week. We hardly talk on the train, but I like it like this. Actually, there is nothing that I want to tell him, nothing that I want to hear from him, and maybe this is odd, but the truth is that I am happy to just stand quietly next to him and look out of the window at the tops of the trees and buildings that pass by. When I am near him I feel calm. I feel like I feel when I see photos of snow.

And, as it is supposed to be, we have come to know each other slowly, we have come to know each other like friends come to know each other. Since our first meeting he has told me some small and big things about himself. He always has a cold bath, even in January, he likes to eat uncooked paneer from Quality Dairy in Aurobindo Place, and the smell of petrol makes him vomit. Apart from that, Vineet Sehgal is thirty years of age and he has lived in Delhi all his life. He has a BA in hotel management, he works as a manager in a hotel in Gurgaon and one day he is going to start his own business, his own catering business. His father, who used to work at State Bank of India, died six years ago, and he lives with his mother in Shivalik. His shirts are not sent to a presswallah, his mother presses them. I saw a photo of her on the wallpaper of his mobile, a chubby, fair lady in a baby pink chiffon sari posing in front of Akshardham Temple. And, like me, Vineet has no brothers or sisters.

Obviously there are many, many things that he has not told me. I dont know, for example, why at thirty years of age he is still not married. I dont know if he sleeps properly at night, or if his mother opens the door with a smile when he comes back home in the evening, or if he likes to walk around in the mall. And I dont know if he cries. Still, some things I have also come to know on my own. I know that he is an ambitious man. From time to time he has talked to me about saving up money to buy a flat in Ghaziabad or Greater Noida, a nice new flat that has twenty-four-hour power back-up and water supply, a lobby and a childrens park with a jungle gym and swings and a slide, and he says that if he sells the flat that he lives in just now, he will have enough money for the down payment, and if he manages to get a second job at a call centre, the salary from that job, along with his mothers schoolteacher salary, would be enough to pay for the monthly instalments. I also know from the way that he carries himself, from how he is always so steady, so quiet and steady, whether he is standing in one place and waiting for the train to come or he is sitting peacefully in front of me in a restaurant, I know that he is a man with a lot of confidence, quiet confidence, the type of confidence that normally comes with grey hair, the type that I have only seen in my father or Doctor Sahib. Sometimes I think that maybe Vineet Sehgal has an old heart.