Copyright 2017 by Agnes Nixon
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Names: Nixon, Agnes, 19222016 author.
Title: My life to live / Agnes Nixon.
Description: First edition. | New York : Crown Archetype, 2017.
Identifiers: LCCN 2016044129 | ISBN 9780451498236 (hardcover)
Subjects: LCSH: Nixon, Agnes, 19222016. | Women television writersUnited StatesBiography. | Women television producers and directorsUnited StatesBiography.
Classification: LCC PN1992.4.N55 A3 2017 | DDC 812/.54 [B]dc23
LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2016044129
ISBN9780451498236
Ebook ISBN9780451498250
Cover design by Elena Giavaldi
Cover photographs: (left) Ed Eckstein; (center and right) American Broadcast Companies, Inc.
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Contents
No Flags Flying, an Original Radio Play
by Agnes Nixon
To All My Children: Cathy, Mary, Bob, and Emily
And to Paul and Sarah
To All My Grandchildren: Ceara, Kelly, Erin, Amy, Oliver, Rory, Galen, Bobby, Maggie, and Jack
And to Matt and Jeff
To All My Great-Grandchildren: Faye, Riley, and Emma
To All My Great-Grandchildren yet to be
To my husband, Bob, without whose support All My Children would never have been created
The great and the least
The weak and the strong
The rich and the poor
In sickness and health
In joy and sorrow
In tragedy and triumph
You are All My Children
Theme from my All My Children bible, 1965
I became an All My Children fan when Erica Kane was on her first marriage. In the early seventies when I was doing my variety show, I scheduled my lunch break around the time it would air (because there were no VCRs at the time). Unfortunately, when Friday rolled around, there was no way to watch what was going on in Pine Valley because that was our show dayso what did I do? During the question-and-answer segment at the beginning of our taping, I simply asked if anyone in the audience had seen the episode that day and if they could bring me up-to-date. It made for some interesting and often hilarious explanations. I was absolutely thrilled later when Agnes Nixon got in touch to offer me a role! And it was a doozy. I was to be Verla Grubbs, the illegitimate daughter of a carnival con man and snake charmer, who comes to Pine Valley in search of her biological father. Verla looked and dressed exactly like her name (Ill leave that description to the readers imagination). I returned as the character a few more times, and loved every minute of it.
I was thrilled once more when Agnes sent me her book, asking me to write the foreword. I read it in one fell swoop. The book includes detailed descriptions of the daytime dramas she created, the casting processes, and so much more, which are fascinating to those of us who were hooked on her fabulous storytelling abilities. Moreover, Agness own story is as compelling as those in her dramas. She tells us about her parents on-again, off-again love/hate relationship, and the effect it had on her as a young child who yearned for a normal, loving home. We live through the heartbreak of her first love. We experience her volatile and erratic relationship with her father (who never believed in her writing talent), which makes us admire her drive to succeed all the more. She found the perfect man, married, and juggled her career while successfully raising four children. But her career wasnt easy to come by. The glass ceiling was extremely evident in the days when she tried to break through as a writer, being thwarted at every turn. Of course, we know she wonbut the story of her ups and downs makes this book a true page-turner.
Carol Burnett
P.S.: I was as sad and mad as everyone else when AMC was canceled. It couldve gone on forty-two more years! Agnes, you are a wonder.
T he Emmys, 1981. I was sitting in the backstage area in the Waldorf-Astoria grand ballroom, waiting for my cue. I was the recipient of the Trustees Award for excellence in production, and I was greatly disturbed.
My insecurities plagued me: I didnt deserve this award. Voices from the past confirmed my fears. My father: You, a writer? Thats a joke. The head of Procter & Gamble: Frankly, Agnes, we just dont think youre a writer. The director of The Edge of Night: Sweetie, you dont get how to plot a serial.
Barbara Walters stepped onstage. The destructive voices increased in volume: Thats a joke; youre not a writer; you dont get it.
Barbara stepped up to the podium, and the noises in my head subsided. She addressed the tables crowded with bright lights of the industry and a television audience of millions. This is a very special occasion with the Emmys and the Trustees Award. I will tell you about the big one. The Academy of Television Arts and Sciences Trustees Award recognizes achievement in television so extraordinary that it is rarely presented. Previous winners include General David Sarnoff, William Paley, Leonard Goldenson, and Edward R. Murrow, so you can see what kind of award it is.
Today marks a number of firsts for this prestigious award. It is the first time it has been presented to someone in the daytime area, it is the first time it has been presented to a writer, and it is the first time in the history of this award that it has been presented to a woman. I feel like saying with you all, Right on.
The recipient today is the creator of One Life to Live, All My Children, and the cocreator of Search for Tomorrow and As the World Turns. By now you know I can only be talking about Agnes Nixon.
I felt a little push on my shoulder. The backstage manager said, Agnes, that was your cue. Go join Barbara.
As I walked across the stage through a thunderous standing ovation, the applause mounted. Barbara took my hand and said, One of your shows has been on the air every weekday for the past thirty years. How did you do it?
Rather than answering her question directly, I began by thanking the academy for the honor. Then I said, I honestly dont think I deserve it. But if I do, its because of all the people through the years who have helped me. My Irish family, around whose hearth I learned as a child to love a story. The late, great Irna Phillips, who gave me my first job and taught me the form of the daytime serial, and that every individuals life has a soap opera in it.