Barbara Delinsky - Family tree

Contents

Cover Page

Title Page

Dedication

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Chapter 21

Chapter 22

Chapter 23

Chapter 24

Chapter 25

Chapter 26

Chapter 27

Chapter 28

Chapter 29

Chapter 30

Acknowledgments

Also by Barbara Delinsky

Copyright

For Cassandra,
a precious gift

Chapter 1

S omething woke her mid-dream. She didnt know whether it was the baby kicking, a gust of sea air tumbling in over the sill, surf breaking on the rocks, or even her mothers voice, liquid in the waves, but as she lay there open-eyed in bed in the dark, the dream remained vivid. It was an old dream, and no less embarrassing to her for knowing the script. She was out in public, for all the world to see, lacking a vital piece of clothing. In this instance, it was her blouse. She had left home without it and now stood on the steps of her high schoolher high school wearing only a bra, and an old one at that. It didnt matter that she was sixteen years past graduation and knew none of the people on the steps. She was exposed and thoroughly mortified. And thenthis was a firstthere was her mother-in-law , standing off to the side, wearing a look of dismay and carryingbizarrethe blouse.

Dana might have laughed at the absurdity of it, if, at that very moment, something else hadnt diverted her thoughts. It was the sudden rush of fluid between her legs, like nothing she had ever felt before.

Afraid to move, she whispered her husbands name. When he didnt reply, she reached out, shook his arm, and said in full voice, Hugh?

He managed a gut-low Mm?

We have to get up.

She felt him turn and stretch.

My water just broke.

He sat up with a start. Leaning over her, his deep voice higher than normal, he asked, Are you sure?

It keeps coming. But Im not due for two weeks.

Thats okay, he reassured her, thats okay. The baby is seven-plus poundsright in the middle of the full-term range. What time is it?

One-ten.

Dont move. Ill get towels. He rolled away and off the bed.

She obeyed him, partly because Hugh had studied every aspect of childbirth and knew what to do, and partly to avoid spreading the mess. As soon as he returned, though, she supported her belly and pushed herself up. Squinting against the sudden light of the lamp, she took one of the towels, slipped it between her legs, and shuffled into the bathroom.

Hugh appeared seconds later, wide-eyed and pale in the vanity lights. What do you see? he asked.

No blood. But its definitely the baby and not me.

Do you feel anything?

Like terror? She was dead serious. As prepared as they werethey had read dozens of books, talked with innumerable friends, grilled the doctor and her partners and her nurse-practitioner and the hospital personnel during a preadmission tourthe reality of the moment was something else. With childbirth suddenly and irrevocably imminent, Dana was scared.

Like contractions, Hugh replied dryly.

No. Just a funny feeling. Maybe a vague tightening.

What does vague mean?

Subtle.

Is it a contraction?

I dont know.

Does it come and go?

I dont know , Hugh. Really. I just woke up and then there was a gush She broke off, feeling something. A cramp. She held her breath, let it out, met his eyes. Very mild.

Cramp or contraction?

Contraction, she decided, starting to tremble. They had waited so long for this. They were as ready as they would ever be.

Are you okay while I call the doctor? he asked.

She nodded, knowing that if she hadnt he would have brought the phone into the bathroom. But she wasnt helpless. As doting as Hugh had been lately, she was an independent sort, and by design. She knew what it was to be wholly dependent on someone and then have her taken away. It didnt get much worse.

So, while he phoned the doctor, she fit her big belly into her newest, largest warm-up suit, now lined with a pad from her post-delivery stash to catch amniotic fluid that continued to leak, and went down the hall to the babys room. She had barely turned on the light when he called.

Dee ?

In here!

Buttoning jeans, he appeared at the door. His dark hair was mussed, his eyes concerned. If those pains are less than ten minutes apart, were supposed to head to the hospital. Are you okay?

She nodded. Just want a last look.

Its perfect, honey, he said as he stretched into an old navy tee shirt. All set?

I dont think theyre less than ten minutes apart.

They will be by the time were halfway there.

This is our first, she argued. First babies take longer.

That may be the norm, but every norm has exceptions. Indulge me on this, please?

Taking his hand, she kissed his palm and pressed it to her neck. She needed another minute.

She felt safe here, sheltered, happy. Of all the nurseries she had decorated for clients, this was her bestfour walls of a panoramic meadow, laced with flowers, tall grasses, sun-tipped trees. Everything was white, soft orange, and green, myriad shades of each highlighted with a splotch of blue in a flower or the sky. The feeling was one of a perfect world, gentle, harmonious, and safe.

Self-sufficient she might be, but she had dreamed of a world like this from the moment she had dared to dream again.

Hugh had grown up in a world like this. His childhood had been sheltered, his adolescence rich. His family had come to America on the Mayflower and been prominent players ever since. Four centuries of success had bred stability. Hugh might downplay the connection, but he was a direct beneficiary of it.

Your parents expected pastel balloons on the wall, she remarked, releasing his hand. Im afraid Ive disappointed them.

Not you, he answered, we, but its a moot point. This isnt my parents baby. He made for the door. I need shoes.

Moving aside knitting needles that held the top half of a moss green sleepsack, Dana carefully lowered herself into the Boston rocker. She had dragged it down from the attic, where Hugh hid most of his heirloom pieces, and while she had rescued others, now dispersed through the house, this was her favorite. Purchased in the 1840s by his great-great-grandfather, the eventual Civil War general, it had a spindle back and three-section rolled seat that was strikingly comfortable for something so old. Months ago, even before they had put the meadow on the walls, Dana had sanded the rockers chipped paint and restored it to gleaming perfection. And Hugh had let her. He knew that she valued family history all the more for having lived without it.

That said, everything else was new, a family history that began here. The crib and its matching dresser were imported, but the rest, from the changing pad on top, to the hand-painted fabric framing the windows, to the mural, were custom done by her roster of artists. That roster, which included top-notch painters, carpenters, carpet and window people, also included her grandmother and herself. There was a throw over one end of the crib, made by her grandmother and mirroring the meadow mural; a cashmere rabbit that Dana had knitted in every shade of orange; a bunting, two sweaters, numerous hats, and a stack of carriage blanketsand that didnt count the winter wool bunting in progress, which was mounded in a wicker basket at the foot of her chair, or the sleepsack she held in her hand. They had definitely gone overboard.