Håkan Nesser (Hakan Nesser) - The Return

also by hkan nesser Borkmanns Point

An Inspector Van Veeteren Mystery Translated from the Swedish by Laurie Thompson
pantheon bo oks, new york

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the authors imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead,

events, or locales is entirely coincidental.
Translation copyright 2007 by Laurie Thompson

All rights reserved. Published in the United States by Pantheon Books, a division of Random House, Inc., New York. Originally published in Sweden as Aterkomsten by Albert Bonniers Forlag AB, Stockholm, in 1995. Copyright 1995 by Hkan Nesser.

Pantheon Books and colophon are registered trademarks of Random House, Inc.

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication DataNesser, Hkan, [date]
[Aterkomsten. English]

The return : an Inspector Van Veeteren mystery / Hkan Nesser ; translated from the Swedish by Laurie Thompson. p. cm.

eISBN: 978-0-375-42483-0
I. Thompson, Laurie, 1938 II. Title.
pt9876.24.e76A8413 2007
839.73'74dc22 2006024011
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You ask me how long life is,
and I shall tell you like it is.
Just as long as the distance
between two dates on a headstone.

W. F. Mahler, poet It was the rst and the last day.

The steel door was locked behind him and the metallic click hovered for a while in the cool morning air. He took four paces, paused and put down his suitcase. Closed his eyes, then opened them again.

A thin morning mist hung over the deserted car park, the sun was just rising over the nearby town and the only sign of life was the ocks of birds swooping over the elds that surrounded the cluster of buildings. He stood there for a few seconds and indulged his senses. The scent of newly harvested corn wafted into his nostrils. The dazzling light quivered over the asphalt. In the distance, a mile or so to the west, he could hear the persistent hum of traffic on the freeway that carved a path through the open countryside. The sudden realization of the worlds true dimensions gave him a moment of vertigo. He had not set foot outside these walls for twelve years; his cell had been seven feet by ten, and it dawned on him that it was a long way to the town and the railroad station. An incredibly long way, perhaps impossibly far on a day like this.

He had been offered a taxi, that was normal practice, but he declined. Didnt want to take a shortcut into the world at this early stage. Wanted to feel the burden and the pain and the freedom in every step he took this morning. If he were to have a chance of succeeding in the task he had set himself, he understood what he needed to overcome. Overcome and get the better of.

He picked up his suitcase and started walking. It didnt weigh much. A few changes of underwear. A pair of shoes, a shirt, pants and a toiletry bag. Four or ve books and a letter. He had tried on the clothes he was wearing and signed for them at the equipment store the previous day. Typical prison clothing. Black synthetic-leather shoes. Blue pants. Pale gray cotton shirt and a thin windcheater. As far as the locals were concerned he would be as easily identiable as a Roman Catholic priest or a chimney sweep. One of the many who wandered into the railroad station carrying a cardboard suitcase, eager to leave. Having spent time out here in The Big Gray between the municipal forest and the motorway. Having been so near and yet so far away. One of them. The easily identiable.

The Big Gray. Thats what they called it around here. For him it was namelessjust a brief stretch of time and hardly any space. And it was a long time since hed been worried about other people staring at him; a long time since hed been forced to turn his back on that kind of supercial and pointless contact. He had left his former life without hesitation; there was no alternative, and hed never longed to return. Never.

You could say he had never really been a part of it.

The sun rose. He had to stop again after a hundred yards. Wriggled out of his jacket and slung it over his shoulder. Two cars overtook him. A couple of warders, presumably, or some other staff. Prison people in any case. Nobody else ventured out here. There was only The Big Gray here.

He set off once more. Tried to whistle but couldnt hit upon a tune. It occurred to him that he ought to have sunglasses: Maybe he could buy a pair when he got to town. He shaded his eyes with his hand, squinted and scrutinized the townscape through the dazzling haze. At that very moment church bells started ringing.

He glanced at his wristwatch. Eight. He wouldnt be able to catch the rst train. There again, he hadnt really wanted to: better to sit in the station caf over a decent breakfast and todays paper. No rush. Not this rst day, at least. He would carry out the task hed set himself, but the precise timing depended on factors he knew nothing about as yet, naturally enough.

Tomorrow, perhaps. Or the day after. If all these years had taught him anything, anything at all, it was precisely this. To be patient.

Patience.

He continued walking purposefully toward town. Took possession of the deserted, sun-drenched streets. The shady alleys leading from the square. The worn cobbles. Strolled slowly along the path by the brown, muddy river where listless ducks drifted in a state of timeless inertia. This was in itself something remarkablewalking and walking without coming up against a wall or a fence. He paused on one of the bridges and watched a family of swans huddled together on a muddy islet, in the shade cast by chestnut trees on the riverbank. Observed the trees as well, their branches that seemed to stretch down as much as upward. Toward the water as well as the sky.

The world, he thought. Life.

A spotty youth stamped his ticket with obvious distaste. Single ticket, yes, of course. He gave him a look, then headed for the newsstand. Bought two newspapers and some mens magazine or other featuring large, naked breasts, without displaying the slightest embarrassment. Next, a pot of coffee in the caf, freshly made sandwiches with jam and cheese. A cigarette or two. Another hour to go before the train, and it was still morning.

The rst morning of his second return, and the whole world was full of time. Innocence and time.

Hours later he was nearly there. Hed been alone in the carriage for the last few miles. Looked out through the scratched, dirty window; watched elds, forests, towns and people marching pastand suddenly everything fell into place. Took on their own specic signicance. Buildings, roads, the subtle interplay of the countryside. The old water tower. The soccer elds. The factory chimneys and peoples back gardens. Gahns Furniture Manufacturers. The square. The high school. The viaduct and the houses along Main Street. The train ground to a halt.

As he disembarked he noticed that the platform had a new roof of pale yellow plastic. The station building had been renovated. New signs as well.

Apart from that it was just as before.

He took a cab. Left the town behind. A quarter of an hours drive with nothing said, following the shore of the lake that sometimes vanished, sometimes glittered beyond cornelds and copses of deciduous trees, and then he was there.

You can stop after the church. Ill walk the last bit.

He paid and got out. There was something vaguely familiar about the drivers wave as he drove off. He waited until the car had made a U-turn and disappeared behind the dairy. Then he picked up his suitcase and the plastic carrier bag of groceries and set out on the last lap.

The sun was high in the sky now. Sweat was running down his face and between his shoulder blades. It was farther than he remembered, and more uphill.

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