"A Brief FamilyHistory"
His given name is Joseph George Sullivan (confirmation name isJohn) named such in March 1939 in Rockaway Beach, (Irish-Town) Queens. Third generation Irish-American andsecond eldest of six children, Four boys and two girls. He was named such in honor of my father'sbrother "Joe", who died four years before his birth at the young ageof twenty-two.
"UncleJoe" was literally the shining star of the staunch Irish-Catholic Sullivanfamily from Belle Harbor, New York. Uncle Joe was doted on by his mother and father and worshipped by hisfive brothers and two sisters who he led the way for and was very defensiveof... at a time when there wasstill a good deal of W.A.S.P. prejudice against Irish Catholics. And signs such as "Irish Need NotApply", employment wise, and "Irish Keep off the grass", werestill a common sight. But noneadored "Uncle Joe" more than Joes Dad, or was more devastated uponhis untimely death. The exceptionof course being his mom, Julia Sullivan (McLoughlin) and my grandfather"Big Tim Sullivan", who all said died of a "broken-heart"within a year of Joe's passing.
BigTim, as all called him, had been the N.Y.C. hand-ball champion while serving asCaptain on the Police Force for over twenty years. Uncle Joe was a strapping six foot two, drop dead handsomeleft-tackle for the "Fighting Irish" of Notre Dame at South Bend,Indiana. He planned to go into theMonastery (priesthood) upon graduation in his senior year of 1935, and had justbeen voted co-captain at the start of the '35 season, his final year under headcoach Elmer Layden... one of theHeralded "Four Horsemen" of the Knute Rockne era. When suddenly, in the bone chillingcold of a South Bend, Indiana winter, Joe contracted pneumonia and died a veryfew short days later. Some of thefamily say his death was due to a head injury in that era of Leather-HelmetFootball. Uncle Joe's greatestbattles on the gridiron were against Army and Navy as two of his youngerbrothers Frank and Eddie played for Navy and Army respectively in Joe's thirdyear at Notre Dame.
Asa wide-eyed eight year old in Joes grandmothers' house in Belle Harbor,N. Y he heard all the lovingstories and thought heI was in a museum dedicated to his memory. His presence was everywhere... in the pictures, medals and trophiesfor football, Javelin, and the shot-putt. And of course in the News-Clippings which I read with a young boy'sawe. Though his most sacredmoments came whenever he snuck down into the basement, silently undoing thehuge brass clamps on a steamer-trunk, which held all Uncle Joe's footballparaphernalia. Before which hedsit for hours on the damp basement floor. Holding and fingering the muddy high-topped cleats, blood stained jerseyand battered leather helmet in his trembling hands. All the while listening for footsteps on the cellar stairs,for it was Taboo --an unspoken agreement that the trunk was never to be opened,or these Holy Relics ever touched again. But something Joe had been doing every week since
the age of eight, hearing theNotre Dame fight song in my fertile mind and heart, and visualizing himself, one day running out onto that samefield in the shadow of the Golden Dome to finish where Uncle Joe had left off. Those were his most memorable momentsas a child when Dad and Mom, and his brothers and sisters would all get intothe Green Hornet, a beat up old Hudson and take a fifteen mile ride for ourRitual Sunday Dinner at Grandma's house. Joe thought Grandma favored him just abit, being her first grandson and named after Uncle Joe to boot. Because one particular Sunday, withoutsaying a word, she handed him a book written about four athletes titled"All-Stars of Christ" by a priest from South Bend, Indiana, to theshock of all his Aunts and Uncles, as they never spoke about Joe around her.
Thebook went far beyond his athletic prowess, and spoke of his gentle decency as aGod fearing man. But it was theauthors opening statement I have carried in my heart. "The Irish are running out onto the field (1935 vs.Army in Yankee Stadium) but a glum silence has come over the crowd, for No."79" Big Joe Sullivan is not there."
Well,Joe has failed miserably, and disgraced this tragic legacy of his youth longago. By falling into that samemurky pit of self-pity and despair that destroyed that too proud generation ofSullivan's before him. And forwhich Joe shall not seek redemption through his son's. For they shall not be burdened by theghosts of the past, no matter how pure. Nor the terrible sins of their father... for the chain must be broken. What follows, is not the man he planned to be... but an agonizingly slow chronologicalmetamorphosis of an aberration he somehow allowed himself to become. The Good, Bad and downright Ugly. Joe thinks the two most influentialpeople in his life, was the "Uncle" he never knew and his father,whom he needed to believe in. Foralthough his Dad died when he was only thirteen... it was to him he whispered in the darkness of his cell whereGod does not live... for strengthand support in face of the physical and moral degradation that could easilybecome the daily fare of a young prisoner who contemplates the luxury ofself-pity or weakness in any form. He did not always answer Joe... but he always felt his presence. And though Joe knew he frowned upon the actions that led him to beincarcerated, he felt his dad never deserted him. So Joe tried to carry himself as a gentleman and respond tointimidation and immorality in the manner he instinctively felt his dad wouldexpect of him. He was bigger thanlife in that young boys eyes, even in death. And all these years later he has not diminished one iota. Joe just had the true essence of hisvalues ass backwards all these years.
"When you're the anvil,you must bear.
when you're the hammer,strike!"
Anon
Tears & Tiers Part I
Attica - April 9, 1971
AsJoe lay in the coal pile before trying to escape and scale the high gray wallof Attica Prison, focusing clearly upon the menacing turreted tower above him,his entire senseless life seemed to race through his mind as he contemplatedwhether the faceless watchdog inside was to be his executioner. As he had looked at many walls before,but this one seemed to have no top. Joe wondered how many years these mechanical men--this particularbird--had been perched in his nest up there, just waiting for a chance to killsomeone. Anyone!
Didthey really have those new AR-15's up there? Joe understood that even if they hit you in an arm or legthe shock impact alone could shatter your nervous system and kill you. He derived some comfort telling himselfthat these guys probably had very little practice and were lousy shots, butdeep inside he knew that all these "country boys" could knock thesweat off a gnat's ass at seeing distance.
Joesthroat was dry and the pains in his stomach nearly doubled me over. He turned his eyes to the storehouseplatform seventy yards away and stared at the man standing there, almost rigidwith a street-sweeper type of broom clenched in my hands. Mike, a friend (the poor bastard), was more anxious and frightenedfor Joe than he was for himself. Joe knew this from the conversation they had the day before, as we pacedback and forth on the gravel-packed driveway just outside the entrance to thestorehouse and garage. He was sosincere in his attempt to discourage Joe, continually bringing up all the badpoints concerning the escape that it was beginning to unnerve him. Joe knew he was right but couldn'tallow himself to listen to it. "Shut up for Christ's sake. Shut Up! Don't you think bynow I should know what the chances are?" Joe shouted!