Elin Hilderbrand - Nantucket Nights

Acknowledgments

My deep and unending gratitude to:

My agent, Michael Carlisle, who is a safe place for me in the chaotic world of New York publishing, and Jennifer Weis, my editor at St. Martins Press, who knows commercial fiction like nobody else.

Jeff Allen, of the Nantucket Fire Department, for his detailed descriptions of open water rescue.

The women in my rife who have taught me about friendship. (You know who you are.)

Clarissa Porter, for reminding me that I had a literary mind even when I was up to my elbows in baby food, and Mimi Beman, of Mitchells Book Comer, for her enthusiastic support of my work.

Heather Osteen Thorpe, always my first reader.

My mother, Sally Hilderbrand, few my roots and my wings.

Most of all, thank you to the men in my life, or should I say, the men who are my life: my husband, Chip Cunningham, and our shining star, Maxwell.

Karla

It is December on Nantucket Islanda month of white skies and the first truly cold winds of the winter, a month made bearable by Christmas cheer. When Kayla stands next to the big Douglas fir in front of Pacific National Bank, she gazes down Main Street at the rows of trees with their fat colored lights, the snow flurries dusting the cobblestones, and the people she has lived amongst for twenty years, who are hurrying into the warm shops.

Kayla has shopping to do as well. At The Complete Kitchen, she buys an ice cream scoop for Lukes teacher, and the woman behind the register offers her an hors doeuvre from a silver platter: smoked salmon on rye bread topped with caviar that looks like black pearls. At Nantucket Sleigh Ride, theyre handing out hot cider in paper cups. Kayla buys ornaments and a strand of scallop-shell lights. At Johnstons of Elgin cashmere shop, Kayla splurges on a cherry red pashmina for a party she and Raoul have been invited to on the fifteenth. The salesgirl wraps the pashmina in cream-colored tissue paper, ties it up with red ribbon, and then slips it into a fancy shopping bag with silk cord handles. Walking back to her car, Kayla marvels at how, on the outside, everything in her life appears to be back to normal. And on a day like today, better than normal.

Antoinette has been missing for three months.

As Kayla walks into her house, the phone rings. She still cant bring herself to answer the phone because shes afraid.

Afraid of what? Raoul asked her once.

Afraid of this very thing: She waits for the machine to pick up, and then she hears a voice.

Kayla, the voice says. This is Paul Henry. I have news. Please call me.

Kayla deletes the message and begins pacing the house, still clutching her shopping bags. She is grateful that shes the only one home. No one else heard the message.

I have news.

Afraid of what?

Afraid that everything is not back to normal. Antoinette, the woman whom Kayla once called her best friend, was swept off the coast of Great Point while swimming in the middle of the night on Labor Day weekend.

Was Antoinette dead? Alive? There was no way to know.

Until now.

Karla

At two oclock on the Friday of Labor Day weekend, the phone rang. Kayla was eating lunch: half a tomato sandwich and eight Lays potato chips. As she ate, she paged through the Dutch Gardens catalog, looking for spring bulbs.

Kayla plucked the phone off the kitchen wall. It was her friend Valerie Glucksterns secretary.

Hold for Val, the secretary said.

Twenty seconds later, it was Val herself. Kayla heard her shut the door to her office. Val always took her personal calls behind closed doors.

Kayla?

Yes, Counselor, Kayla said, licking salt off her fingers.

Have you talked to Antoinette?

Not yet.

But were on for tonight? Eleven-thirty, and not a minute later? Youre driving?

As promised.

God, Im so happy, I could just burst. I have, like, sixteen closings this month, and I dont care. John said something last night about running for selectman again in the spring, and even that didnt bother me.

And tonight youre going to tell us whos making you so happy? Kayla said. The mystery man?

As promised, Val said. Im bringing a bottle of champagne I picked up when I was in France. You bought cheese?

Im going to the store this afternoon. When I talked to Antoinette last week I asked her to bring the lobsters, but Ill call and remind her.

Its a full moon tonight, Val said. Can you even believe the romance in that? Has there ever been a full moon for Night Swimmers before?

I dont remember one.

So this is the first time in twenty years, Val said. Twenty years, can you believe it? God, were old. She sucked in her breath and let out a long stream of air. It sounded like Val was smoking a cigarette, but Kayla knew better.

Are you lifting your weights? Kayla asked. Twenty reps, bicep curl, Val said. You can fight age, you know.

You can fight age, Kayla said. Its too late for me. I have to ration potato chips. Count them out, seal the bag, and hide it away.

I know what you mean, Val said.

You dont know, Kayla said. Ms. Size Two.

Size four.

I envy anyone over forty in the single digits, Kayla said.

You know this book Im reading? Val said. By the Swiss therapist? She has a lot to say about Americans suffering from poor self-image, and she actually recommends having an affair. So for once in my life, Im doing something right. Something European. Kayla heard the weights clunk to the floor, and then Val said, Whew! I dont like to hear you getting sensitive about your weight.

I cant help it, Kayla said.

Do you want to borrow the book?

When you have a book that deals with the potato chip syndrome, let me know, Kayla said. She heard the other phone in Vals office ringno doubt, important business, money to be made. Kayla let her go. Ill see you tonight.

Kayla clicked off the phone and returned to her lunch and the seventy varieties of daffodils, but her mind stayed on her conversation with Val. Val had spent the shimmering summer months having an affair. With someone they all knew, Val said, but she wouldnt tell who. Kayla had been guessing all summerCharlie, who owned the fish market; The baud, the chef at 21 Federal; Alan, the mail carrier. Nope, nope, nope, Val said. Kaylas other best friend, Antoinette, refused to play guessing games.

I have better things to do with my time than speculate about Valeries illicit sex life, Antoinette said. For example, I could be conducting an illicit sex life of my own.

Kayla poured herself a glass of lemonade and drank it slowly. The house was quiet, and for just a minute she felt lonely, like the last housewife left in America. Her husband was building the biggest house in the history of Nantucket Island, her four children were out enjoying the final days of freedom before they had to go back to school, and her two best friends were conducting lives that brimmed with sexual energystrangers hands running up the insides of their thighs, the electric sensation of a first kiss. These feelings were lost to Kayla, buried in her past. As far away as Europe.

Dutifully, she put her plate and glass in the dishwasher.

Although she occasionally felt sorry for herself, Kaylas life wasnt dull. True, Nantucket was small and stranded thirty miles off the coast of America, but it had endless stretches of beach, hundreds of acres of moors dotted with freshwater ponds, and a charming town of cobblestone streets, spired churches, and historic homes built with whaling fortunes in the nineteenth century. It was popular to believe that things only happened on Nantucket during the summer. Summer was a slice of heaven, but the same was true for the rest of the year on the island, and Kayla felt sorry for anyone who missed the days of October that were as red and crisp as an apple, or the snow silently blanketing Main Street on Christmas Eve, or the seals that lounged on the rocks of the jetty and flapped their fins at the people who rode the ferry into the icy harbor in winter. It was true, though, that most of the excitement on Nantucket arrived in summer, and such was definitely the case this year, even for a housewife like Kayla.