Elie Wiesel - The Forgotten

Night
Dawn
The Accident
The Town Beyond the Wall
The Gates of the Forest
The Jews of Silence
Legends of Our Time
A Beggar in Jerusalem
One Generation After
Souls on Fire
The Oath
Ani Maamin (cantata)
Zalmen, or The Madness of God (play)
Messengers of God
A Jew Today
Four Hasidic Masters
The Trial of God (play)
The Testament
Five Biblical Portraits
Somewhere a Master
The Golem (Illustrated by Mark Podwal)
The Fifth Son
Against Silence (Edited by Irving Abrahamson)
Twilight
The Six Days of Destruction (With Albert Friedlander)
A Journey into Faith (Conversations with John Cardinal OConnor)
From the Kingdom of Memory
Sages and Dreamers
The Forgotten
A Passover Haggadah (Illustrated by Mark Podwal)
All Rivers Run to the Sea
And the Sea Is Never Full

Copyright 1992 by Elirion Associates, Inc.

All rights reserved under International and Pan-American Copyright Conventions. Published in the United States by Schocken Books Inc., New York and simultaneously in Canada by Random House of Canada Limited, Toronto. Distributed by Pantheon Books, a division of Random House, Inc., New York.

Originally published in the United States by Summit Books, a division of Simon & Schuster, Inc., New York, 1992.

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

Wiesel, Elie, 1928

[Oubli. English]
The forgotten / Elie Wiesel ; translated by Stephen Becker.
p. cm.
eISBN: 978-0-307-80642-0
1. Children of Holocaust survivorsUnited StatesFiction.
2. Holocaust survivorsUnited StatesFiction. 3. Fathers and sonsUnited StatesFiction.
I. Becker, Stephen D., 1927 .II. Title.
PQ2683.I3209213 1995
843.914dc20
94-3677

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For Marion, Always

Respect the old man who has forgotten what he learned. For broken Tablets have a place in the Ark beside the Tablets of the Law.

T HE T ALMUD

G od of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, forget not their son who calls upon them now.

You well know, You, source of all memory, that to forget is to abandon, to forget is to repudiate. Do not abandon me, God of my fathers, for I have never repudiated You.

God of Israel, do not cast out a son of Israel who yearns with all his heart and all his soul to be linked to the history of Israel.

God and King of the universe, exile me not from that universe.

As a child I learned to revere You, to love You, to obey You; keep me from forgetting the child that I was.

As an adolescent I chanted the litanies of the martyrs of Mainz and York; erase them not from my memory, You who erase nothing from Your own.

As a man I learned to respect the will of our dead; keep me from forgetting what I learned.

God of my ancestors, let the bond between them and me remain whole, unbroken.

You who have chosen to dwell in Jerusalem, let me not forget Jerusalem. You who wander with Your people in exile, let me remember them.

God of Auschwitz, know that I must remember Auschwitz. And that I must remind You of it. God of Treblinka, let the sound of that name make me, and You, tremble now and always. God of Belzec, let me, and You, weep for the victims of Belzec.

You who share our suffering, You who share our wait, let me never be far from those who have invited You into their hearts.

You who foresee the future of man, let me not cut myself off from my past

God of justice, be just to me. God of charity, be kind to me. God of mercy, plunge me not into the kaf-ha-kallah, the chasm where all life, hope and light are extinguished by oblivion. God of truth, remember that without memory truth becomes only the mask of truth. Remember that only memory leads man back to the source of his longing for You.

Remember, God of history, that You created man to remember. You put me into the world, You spared me in time of danger and death, that I might testify. What sort of witness would I be without my memory?

Know, God, that I do not wish to forget You. I do not wish to forget anything. Not the living and not the dead. Not the voices and not the silences. I do not wish to forget the moments of abundance that enriched my life, nor the hours of anguish that drove me to despair.

Even if you forget me, O Lord, I refuse to forget You.

M y name is Malkiel. Malkiel Rosenbaum to be exact. I feel that I must set it down. Superstition? To ward off bad luck? Perhaps I merely want to prove to myself that I have not yet forgotten my own name. Could that happen to me, too? One morning I could pick up my pen and it would not obey me; it would refuse to follow my orders for the simple reason that I would no longer be capable of issuing them. Malkiel Rosenbaum would still exist, but he would no longer be master of his own identity.

I am forty years old. Malkiel Rosenbaum is forty years old. That, too, I must set down; it is important. I was born in 1948 in Jerusalem. I am as old as the State of Israel. Easy to remember. I am as old, and as young, as Israel. Forty. Plus three thousand.

What does it matter? Only memory matters. Mine sometimes overflows. Because it harbors my fathers memories, too, since his mind has become a sieve. No, not a sieve: an autumn leaf, dried, torn. No, a phantom which I see only at midnight. I know: one cannot see a memory. But I can. I see it as the shadow of a shadow which constantly withdraws and turns inward. I hardly glimpse it, and it vanishes in the abyss. Then I hear it cry out, I hear it whimper softly. It is gone, but I see it as I see myself. It calls: Malkiel, Malkiel. I answer: Dont worry, I wont leave you.

One day it will call no more.

T he shock was so violent that he lost his balance and almost fell to the damp soil; the name on the tombstone, tilted as if under the weight of its weariness, was his own. Malkiel ben Elhanan Rosenbaum.

A wild notion crossed his mind: could he already be dead? He could not remember living through his death. So what? That meant nothing. Whos to say that the dead carry their memories into the other world? Despite himself he leaned forward and deciphered the date: the month of Iyar 5704. May 1944. Im a fool: I was not yet born. How can you die before youre born? But then, why am I here? Could I have forgotten? No, forgetting is not your problem, not yet, but your fathers, right? Im here to remember what my father has forgotten. But do I live only to remember? Suppose life were only your ancestors imagination, or a dream of the dead?

Leaning on the tombstone of this grandfather who bore his name, he was suffused by an obscure and almost animal anguish, a black tide, menacing, portending disaster. Beyond the trees he saw the reddish-gray roofs of the town hall and the school. Beyond the tombs he saw the blood of the dying day and heard the moan of the yawning twilight. Living, he thought with dread. They call this living.

Its the same with love. They say, If I stop loving Ill die. And then one day they stop. And theyre still alive. They call that loving. They call that choosing life. God has ordained that. As He ordains faith. So He always wins: the opposite of God is still God. To flee God is also to draw near Him. You cannot escape Him. Am I right, Grandfather Malkielyou cannot escape Him?