Sam Lipsyte - The Fun Parts: Stories

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FOR SUSANNAH

CONTENTS

the CLIMBER ROOM

The sign in the Sweet Apple kitchen declared it a nut-free zone, and every September somebody, almost always a dad, cracked the usual stupid joke. The gag, Laura, the school director, told Tovah, would either mock the schools concern for potentially lethal legumes or else suggest that despite the signs assurance, not everyone at Sweet Apple could boast of sanity.

Today, as Tovah leaned into the fridge to adjust the lunch bag heap, a skinny gray-haired man in a polo shirt, old enough to be the grandfather of the girl who called him Papa as he nudged her toward the cubbies, winked at Tovah, pointed to the sign.

Here it came, the annual benediction.

Nut free! Papa said. Oh, no! Guess Id better scram!

He looked at Tovah as though expecting some response, but what? Tolerant smile? Snappy retort? Hand job? These older fathers with their second, doing-it-right-this-time families were the worst. This version stuck out a large, knuckly hand that seemed locked in a contest for supremacy with his heavy platinum watch.

Randy Goat, the man said.

Tovah figured she had misheard.

Tovah Gold, she said, and shook his hand, or, rather, a few of his supple fingers.

And this is Dezzy.

Dezzy! Tovah said, recognized the girl now. She sank to a knee, which was not only the proper way to address children but a nifty evasive maneuver vis--vis their crypto-creepy progenitors. Hi, Dezzy. Do you remember me? I tagged along with Laura on the home visit a few weeks ago. You showed me your new sparkly shoes.

Sparkle shoes, said Dezzy.

Sparkle, of course.

Right, Randy said. I was out of town when you guys popped by.

The place had been enormous, dizzying, a living (well, not quite living) embodiment (not embodiment, precisely) of the aspirational sconce porn that Tovah sometimes indulged in online or at magazine racks.

We met your wife, Tovah said. She was so nice.

Tovah still blanked on the family name. She was stuck with Goat.

I remember with my older children, the man said. You guys like to do a little recon. Find out if we keep our kids in filth while we boost skag all day. But I guess we passed. We good, God-fearin folks, I swears.

Tovah stared at him, unsure of Lauras preferred reply to such a performance. She was new to the pre-K world, and just part-time, temporary. Tovah had been an administrative coordinator at an East Side prep school for years, until the school brought back the retired headmaster to replace her. The crash had made crumb snatchers of the toniest. The headmaster had run the school. Now he ran the office, and Tovah, at home, ran a lot of hot water for non-revitalizing soaks. The offer from Sweet Apple, managed through a distant family friend, had saved her.

Sorry to shock you, Randy Goat said now. Just funnin.

You didnt shock me, said Tovah, though the word skag, the old-timey TV creak of it, intrigued her.

A tightass, Randy Goat said. Good. It means youll be careful with my kid.

Now other children tore past, monogrammed backpacks jouncing. Laura jogged up in an outfit shed recently described as business yoga casual.

Mr. Gautier, she said. Wonderful.

You know to call me Randy, Laura. You look radiant. You must have bloomed with love this summer.

Laura blushed. Not quite.

Just a fling? Sounds fun.

Tovah pictured another universe where, without hesitation, she could slap Randy Gautiers smug, maybe once sensual old-man mouth. Laura was annoying, but she didnt deserve this spinster baiting, especially from a geezer. Tovah wasnt that far from cat ladyhood herself, though she believedhad staked her life on the beliefthat everything always changed at the last minute. The right man, or even woman (what did it matter, really?), would just appear and, for goddamn certain, the right baby. Which meant any baby, within reason. Race or gender didnt matter, but spine on the inside would be nice. Now an unknown force, perhaps the mans shimmering wrist piece, whipped her back through conjectured space-time, far from the cool, lavender room where she cradled her perfect newborn. She stood with her hand on Desdemona Gautiers silky skull while the girls father bent down to address her.

Its going to be a great day, sweetie. The first of many great days. Just do whatever Laura and Tovah tell you.

The Goat Man winked at Tovah again.

Tovah treated him to the smile she once bestowed upon the creative writing professor who told her that some people were meant to write poetry and others, like Tovah, to treasure it.

Shed proved that incontinent toad wrong, for a few years, anyway.

* * *

Tovahs DAgostinos card wouldnt beep her the rebate. She feigned a pressing appointment, offered to pay full price for her crackers and sodium-free vegetable broth. The woman at the register looked at Tovah as though shed chucked a diamond brooch into the Hudson.

I can just swipe for you, she said, slid an extra card from beneath the cash drawer.

Save it for somebody worthy, Tovah said.

Hey, the woman said. We need the wood.

Whats that?

You didnt die for my sins, lady. So dont go building a cross for yourself. We need the wood.

Tovah gave a feral grin. By midnight tonight, fueled by soup and crackers, she would have her first verse in years.

Thank you, Tovah said. You dont even know.

I know you need crazy bitch pills, the woman muttered, but Tovah, lost in private, triumphal noise, did not catch it.

* * *

By midnight Tovah lay on the couch with a stomachache. A miniature swordsman flensed her gut with his foil, or so went an intriguing image that had come to her as she puked up the crackers, the soup, and the Chinese entres shed ordered after the crackers ran out. She never ate like this. She kept her slim figure with a subsistence diet of iced espressos, store-cut cheese cubes, and a few dry salads a day. But she remembered that back when she really wrote poetry, she ate a lot of greasy food, with no gastric regret. The extra weight had just made her voluptuous. Shed been so young.

Now she was thirty-six and in one eating spree had become a vile sack of fat and rot. In her vision of herself she was not even obese, but more like a bloated carcass gaffed from a lake. There on the couch, her belly flopped over her jeans, the new chin shed acquired in about five hours damp and rashy, rank scents curled from her pores and, especially, from her crotch, whenever she tugged at her waistband to ease the ache. It was all so awful, evil, so unlike the Tovah of recent years, of modified appetites and reduced expectations, that her corpse-body surged with something revoltingly, smearishly pleasing. She felt slimy, garbage-juice sexy. Her hand jerked inside her underwear for relief. She pictured the actual gaffer leaning over the gunwale: rugged, with kind, lustful eyes under a brocaded cap. Sparkle eyes. Tovahs legal pad, upon which shed written only the title of her poem, Needing the Wood, slid to the carpet. Her fountain pen, caught against an embroidered yellow pillow, impaled it.

Morning light woke her, but Tovahs half-closed eyes bent the rays back into a dream about a sun-stabbed land of which Tovah was philosopher-queen. She could retain her crown only by mastering a vintage pinball machine set atop an onyx plinth. The flippers stuck, and the holes were the mouths of female poets. A silver ball plopped into the maw of Dickinson. A voice in the head of her dreamself told Tovah not to skin lip.