Barry Eisler - Killing Rain aka One Last Kill

The fourth book in the John Rain series, 2005

KILLING ISNT THE HARD PART. Gangbangers and other fear biters do it every day. Anger pumps you up, panic cancels consideration, you grab the gun, close your eyes, pull the trigger, Christ, an ape could do it, you dont even need to be a man.

No, the truth is, killing is the easy part. Getting close to the target, though, that takes some talent. And making it look natural, which is my specialty, well, Ive known of only one other operator who could consistently get that right, and Im not sure he should count because Im the one who killed him. And leaving no trail back to yourself, thats no cakewalk, either.

But the hardest part? The part that you cant plan for, that you can really understand only when its already too late? Living with it after. Bearing up under the weight of what youve done. Thats the hardest. Even with limitations like mine-no women, no children, no acts against non-principals-youre not the same person after. You never draw the same breath again, or dream the same dreams. Trust me, I know.

As much as you can, you try to dehumanize the target. Accepting the target as human, a man just like you, creates empathy. Empathy makes killing more difficult and produces caustic regret.

So you employ euphemisms: in Vietnam we never killed people; we only wasted gooks or engaged the enemy, the same as in all wars. When possible, you prefer distance: air strikes are nice, bayonet range is horrible. You diffuse responsibility: crew-served weapons, long chains of command, systematic replacement of the soldiers sense of self with an identification with the platoon or regiment or other group. You obscure features: the hood is used not to comfort the condemned, but to enable each member of the firing squad to pull the trigger without an anguished face to remember afterward.

But its been a long time since any of these emotional stratagems has been available to me. I typically operate alone, so theres no group with whom to share responsibility. I dont discuss my work, so euphemisms would be pointless. And what I do, I need to do from a very personal distance. By the time Im that close, its too late to try to cover the targets face or otherwise conceal his humanity.

All bad enough, even under the usual circumstances. But this time I was watching the target enjoy a Sunday outing in Manila with his obviously adoring Filipino family just before I killed him, and it was making things worse.

The target. See? Everyone does it. If Im different than most, its only in that I try to be more honest. More honest. A matter of degree.

Manheim Lavi was his name, Manny to his business associates. Manny was an Israeli national, resident of South Africa, and citizen of the world, which he traveled much of the year sharing bomb-making expertise with a network of people who put the knowledge to increasingly grisly use. Vocations like Mannys once offered a reasonable risk-to-reward ratio, but post-9/11, if you sold your expertise to the wrong people, you could lose your rewards pretty fast. That was Mannys story, as I was given to understand it, a tragic fall from a certain governments grace.

Manny had arrived in Manila from Johannesburg that evening. A black Mercedes from the small Peninsula fleet had picked him up at Ninoy Aquino Airport and whisked him straight to the hotel. Dox and I were already staying there, outfitted with first-rate ersatz identities and the latest communication and other gear, all courtesy of Israeli intelligence, my client of the moment. Dox, an ex-Marine sniper and former comrade in arms of mine, had recently walked away from a five-million-dollar payday to save my life in Hong Kong. Bringing him in on this job was in part my way of trying to repay him for that.

Dox was waiting in the lobby when Manny arrived. I was in my room on the sixth floor, a tiny, flesh-colored, Danish-designed wireless earpiece nestled in my ear canal, a wireless mike secured to the underside of the left lapel of the navy blazer I was wearing. Dox was similarly equipped.

Okay, partner, I heard him say softly in his southern twang, our friend just got here, him and the worlds biggest, butt-ugliest bodyguard. Theyre checking in right now.

I nodded. It had been a while since Id worked with a partner, and not so long ago Dox had proven himself a damn good one.

Good. Lets see if you can get the name hes using and a room number.

Roger that.

Having to get this information on our own wasnt ideal, but the Philippines wasnt exactly the Israelis backyard, and they hadnt been able to offer all that much. Manny traveled to Manila frequently from his nominal home in Johannesburg, taking as many as ten trips in a year. He never stayed for less than a week; the longest of these visits had lasted two months. Hed been doing this for a decade: presumably because customs control in Manila isnt as tight as it is in, say, Singapore, making the Philippines a good place for meetings with the MNLF, Abu Sayef, Jemaah Islamiah, and other violent groups in the region; possibly because he liked the price and variety of Manilas well-known nightlife, as well. He always stayed at the Peninsula. There were a few surveillance photos. That was all.

With less than the usual dossier to go on, I knew we would have to improvise. Where to hit Manny, for one thing. The hotel was our only current nexus and so presented a logical choice. But if Manny died in the hotel, it would absolutely have to look natural; otherwise, there would be too much investigative attention on the other guests, including Dox and me. Staying elsewhere wouldnt have helped; it would have kept us too far from the action.

The level of naturalness a hotel hit itself would require isnt easy, but there were other problems, as well. Most of the ruses I typically use to get into someones room depend on the targets anonymity, yet Manny was well known to the hotel. And even if I did get into the room while Manny was out and then waited for him to return, what if the bodyguard swept the room immediately before his arrival? What if Manny came back with a bar girl? In the current terrain, I couldnt control for these variables, and I didnt like that.

Still, I wanted the room number. Partly in case a better opportunity didnt present itself and we had to use the Hotel Room Expiration as Plan B; more important, so we would know on which floor to place the video camera that we would use to track his movements. We could have tried placing a camera in the lobby, which would have been easier because it would have saved us the trouble of finding out what floor he was on. But there were downsides to the lobby, too. With all the people coming and going through the hotel entrance, wed have to scrutinize the grainy feed constantly to pick Manny out of the crowd. And if the lobby was always our first chance to see him on the move, wed have to scramble to follow him out of the hotel-behavior that any decent bodyguard would key on in a heartbeat. So I decided we would use the lobby only if we had to.

Even low-end hotels dont give out their guests room numbers, though, and the regal Peninsula Manila, with its expansive, marble-lined lobby and white-uniformed bellhops, was anything but low-end. And even if we found an indiscreet employee, we wouldnt have known who to ask for because we didnt know what name Manny would be staying under. So, while leaning forward to ask some typical questions about Manila and environs, Dox had taken the liberty of placing a few adhesive-backed transmitters under the long front edge of the marble reception desk. When Manny checked in, Dox would be able to listen in on his conversation with the clerk.