Patricia Wentworth - The Alington Inheritance

Miss Silver #31, 1958

Jenny sat forward in her chair. It was eight oclock in the evening. She sat leaning forward, her elbow on her knee, her chin in her left hand, her brown eyes, big and mournful, now fixed on Miss Garstones pale face, now taking a quick glance round, as if to see the other presence that was so plainly in the room. There was a candle shaded by two propped books on the chest of drawers a little behind the bed. It was a cottage room, oddly shaped, with the thatch coming down to just above the little windows.

Miss Garstone lay in a narrow bed, her head raised by pillows, her arms neatly laid down by her sides, her face as pale as if she were already dead. She had not moved since they had brought her home that morning. She had not moved and she had not spoken. The doctor had been and gone. Miss Adamson, the village nurse, had been there all day. Now she had gone home to get one or two things she would need for the night.

Its not likely shell come round at all. And theres nothing to be frightened of, Jenny.

Jenny said, No- and then, Im not afraid.

Well, I wont be long-not longer than I can help. Her footsteps went away down the narrow stair where you could not walk quietly however hard you tried, because the stairs were all twisty and they had never had a carpet on them since they were first built three hundred years ago.

As the sound of Miss Adamsons feet on the stairs died away and the other sounds of her going ceased, Jenny drew a long breath. Miss Adamson had been very kind, but she would rather be without her. As this was the last time she and Miss Garstone would be alone together, that gave her a solemn hushed feeling. She looked at the quiet white face with the grey hair parted neatly in the middle, and the clean white nightgown coming up to the chin and down to the wrists, and she wondered very much where Miss Garstone was. Was she asleep? And if she was asleep, did she dream? Jenny herself nearly always dreamed when she was asleep. She did not always remember her dreams, but she always knew that she had dreamed. Sometimes she remembered what the dreams were, sometimes they were just out of sight, sometimes there was no remembrance.

She mustnt think about her dreams, she mustnt think about herself. She wondered what could have happened to Miss Garstone on that lonely bit of road. Every day for as long as Jenny could remember, or nearly every day, Miss Garstone had got on her bicycle and gone off to the village. If she had not things to do for herself, there was always plenty to do for Mrs. Forbes who lived in the big house.

Jenny didnt wonder about Mrs. Forbes, because she was one of the people to whom she was so much accustomed that she hadnt to think about her. If you have always known someone and they are always there, you dont think about them, you take them for granted. Mrs. Forbes was always there, and so were her little girls Joyce and Meg, and her grown-up sons Mac and Alan. There was a lot of difference between them in age. That was because of the war. Mac and Alan had been born in the first years of Mrs. Forbes marriage, and the two girls came after the war, so that the boys were quite grown up and the girls were only nine and ten. They were all part of Jennys life. She hadnt any relations of her own. When Mr. Forbes died she felt as if she had lost an uncle. He was always nice to her in a vague, absent-minded sort of way. He had been a very absent-minded sort of person. He had always struck Jenny as being only half there. Sometimes she wondered where the other half was. But the half that was there was always vague and kind.

Miss Garstone had always been there, too. Jenny called her Garsty. She was energetic, kind and industrious, but quite unsentimental. It was very strange to see her lie all day and never stir at all. Jim Stokes who worked for Mr. Carpenter had found her at twelve oclock when he came whistling home to his dinner. She had done her shopping and started home, but she had not got farther than half way. There were the marks where the bicycle had run off the road. What had made it run? Nobody knew. If it was a car, it hadnt stopped to pick her up-it hadnt stopped at all. And Miss Garstone hadnt moved after she had fallen. She had lain there amongst the dusty trails of blackberry at the side of the road with her broken bicycle in the ditch beyond her, and no one to say what had happened.

Jenny had got as far as this when Miss Garstone moved. Her eyelids quivered and then opened. Her eyes looked out, looked all round the room, and then closed again. It was an unseeing look. Jennys heart beat faster. She said Garsty- in a hushed sort of way as if she was calling to someone who might hear her but who mustnt be disturbed. The eyes opened again. This time they saw. She said in quite a strong voice,

Jenny-

Jenny said, Yes?

Ive been hurt.

Yes, but youll be all right now, Garsty.

I-dont-think-so-

Jenny stretched out her hand and took the pale hand nearest her. Miss Garstone had always been proud of her hands. They were her one beauty and she cherished it. They lay on the bed, the nails even and shining, the fingers a little curved, lying there quite empty. Jenny took the hand that was nearest to her. It felt slack and weak and empty. She said, Oh, Garsty, Garsty!

The eyes opened. Miss Garstones voice came again. She seemed to be continuing something that she had been saying in the dream in which she walked. She said,

So it all belongs to you. You know that, dont you?

Dont worry about it now, Garsty.

Miss Garstone shut her eyes, but she was not at peace. The hand that was under Jennys kept on moving. It was like something that was trying to wake up and couldnt quite manage it. Jennys hand closed on it warmly.

Dont. Dont try, Garsty. Its bad for you. You mustnt. Another time when youre better-

The eyes opened again. For the first time the head moved. A very slight movement. It said, No. She lay quiet, her eyes open, fixed on Jenny. Then she spoke in a thread of a voice.

Did I say it?

I dont know.

Its-so-difficult. I-must-tell-you. I oughtnt-to-have-kept it- from you. I never meant-to go-without-telling you. It seemed-best -at the time. Your mother- She stopped. She was Jennifer Hill. Your father-your father didnt know-he didnt know about you-that you were coming-I dont think he knew-but Jennifer never said. He was Richard Forbes-Richard Alington Forbes. Alington belonged to him. But you know that-I didnt keep that from you-everyone knows it. The cold hand under Jennys warm one twitched and turned.

Jenny said quickly,

Doat worry yourself, Garsty. Oh, please dont!

I must. The two words came out quite clearly and strongly. They were weighted with a deep earnestness. After them she fell silent. It was like watching someone drift. Presently she spoke again.

I ought not to have done it. At first I wasnt sure. And there were you, just a tiny baby, and your mother dead and she didnt tell me anything. If she had told me-I wouldnt have-let her down. Oh, I wouldnt! Do you believe me-because its true-

Of course I believe you. Oh, dont trouble yourself.

The pale lips said, I must- on a failing breath. She was silent again. After what seemed like a long time she spoke in a faint voice. I didnt think there was anything more-not till you were seven and Mr. and Mrs. Forbes had been here all that time. I was talking to a friend of mine, and she said, Theres a way you can be quite sure, you know. If there was a marriage, it will be at Somerset House. Did I tell you about the letter?

No. Never mind about it now.