Don Winslow - While Drowning in the Desert

I never should have got out of the hot tub.

I was luxuriating in the steaming water when Karen asked me to get her a Diet Pepsi.

Excuse me? I murmured.

Im in postcoital bliss, she said. And when Im in postcoital bliss I need a Diet Pepsi.

Why dont you get one?

She shook her head.

When a womans in postcoital bliss its the guys job to get the Diet Pepsi, she smiled. Its a rule.

Im in postcoital bliss, too.

Too bad.

I saw I wasnt going to win so I lifted myself out of the tub. She looked at me with what I wanted to think was a lascivious expression.

Besides, she said, its your fault.

That was very nice of her to say.

Then you dont mind if I get myself one, too? I asked.

Not at all.

Even though no one could see us on the deck of our house I wrapped a towel around my midriff as I padded into the kitchen. I turned to admire Karen as she stretched her long neck back onto the edge of the tub and closed her eyes. Her black hair was wet with steam. Her wide mouth bent into a smile.

I loved her to distraction.

I had just opened the refrigerator and taken out two cold, shiny cans of Diet Pepsi when the phone rang.

And stopped.

I stood stock-still and watched the sweep hand on the kitchen clock. No, no, no, no, I thought. Let it be a wrong number. Let it be an obscene caller that chickened out. But dont let it ring again in thirty seconds.

Exactly thirty seconds later it rang again.

I snatched the receiver off the hook and snapped, What.

I knew who it was.

Son! Grahams mock cheerful voice pierced my eardrum.

And it had been such a nice evening.

Hello, Dad, I moaned.

Dad was not actually my father in the biological sense. We met when I was twelve years old and tried to pick his pocket in a bar. He pretty much raised me after that, even to the extent of teaching me a trade.

The trade he taught me included such skills as breaking and entering, following people, stealing documents from offices, searching hotel rooms, and finding the lost, missing, and running.

In short, he taught me how to be a private eye.

Like him.

You dont sound happy to hear from me!

I could picture him on the other end of the line, sitting in his immaculate Murray Hill apartment, his artificial right arm set at a kitchen table that Christian Barnaard could operate on. I could imagine his cherubic little face, his thin, sandy hair greased straight back, and his aggravating, satanic grin.

Not exactly.

I know, I know. Petulant and rude. But a phone call that starts in code is not going to be good news. The single ring and thirty-second gap meant that this wasnt a social call, but business.

And I didnt want to get back to business.

Graham said, My feelings are hurt.

Yeah, right.

The Giants blowing the point spread with twelve seconds to play, that might hurt Grahams feelings.

How are the wedding plans coming? he asked politely.

Wedding plans? I thought in a moment of alarm. What was there to plan? I figured that everyone would show up at the Milkovsky ranch, and Karen and I would say the I dos, and that would be about it.

Uhh, fine, I answered.

Have you registered your patterns?

Uhhh, yeah.

Registered? Patterns?

What about the honeymoon?

In favor of it.

Great vacations dont just happen, you know, Graham said.

I had never thought of a honeymoon as precisely a vacation, but I let it pass. Instead I said, You didnt call me just to nag me about wedding plans.

No, thats just a bonus. We have a little job for you.

I thought I was on permanent disability, I said. Ed Levine, our mutual boss at Friends of the Family, had officially declared me mentally ill. I knew Ed didnt really think that I was actually crazy, just that I drove him nuts. Either way, it worked for me.

By the way, my name is Neal Carey. I dont carry a badge.

Actually I never did. Even in the days when I was working I didnt have a badge. Or a license or a gun or any of that private eye stuff. I just did the stuff that Friends asked me to do, and if that isnt crazy

We decided that youve recovered, Graham announced.

No, Im still crazy.

Dont get your panties all wet, Graham said. Its a short job. In fact, lets not even call it a job. Lets call it a errand.

What kind of a errand?

Because this was no time for a job or an errand. Not only was I getting married in two months, I was also heading into the last semester of my masters program at Nevada. I even had my thesis, Tobias Smollett and the Image of the Outsider in Eighteenth-Century English Literature, almost finished. Dr. Baskin, my old professor at Columbia, thought he could get me an assistantship in the Ph. D. program there, and Karen was cool about going to New York for a couple of years. So this was no time to get involved in some wacko job for Friends.

And Friends has some wacko jobs, all right. Friends of the Family is a confidential service that The Bank in Providence, Rhode Island, provides for its wealthier depositors. I had worked on and off for Friends since the day Graham found my hand in his back pocket.

Graham said, This old guy wandered away from his home and ended up in Las Vegas. His niece has a couple of million in The Bank and is worried sick about him. Thinks maybe he has Alzheimers or something. Shes a friend of the family. We were wondering, what with you being so close, if youd pick him up and take him home.

If I havent mentioned it, Karen and I lived in Austin, Nevada, a small, remote town in the Toiyabe mountain range. Its six hours and a hundred years away from Las Vegas.

Im supposed to find him in Vegas?

You dont even have to find him, Graham answered. Hes in a nice room at the Mirage and securitys keeping an eye on him. Its a no-brainer, which is why I thought of you.

There has to be a catch, I thought.

Where does he live? Tibet?

Palm Desert.

Wheres that?

Next to Palm Springs.

California?

No. Palm Springs, Antarctica.

Graham has a gift for sarcasm.

A pause, then Graham repeated, Alone and confused. An old man.

He also has a gift for bathos. Bathos is one of those graduate-school words you dont often get a chance to trot out. Bathos, bathos, bathos.

All right, all right, I said.

Youll do it?

Im a sucker.

Especially for bathos.

Nathan Silverstein, Graham said. Room 5812. Hes expecting you, but clear it through security first, right?

Right.

Now, what am I supposed to wear? Graham asked. I hope this isnt going to be one of those blue-jeans weddings.

See you, Dad.

Bye-bye, son.

I hung up and grabbed the sodas. This wasnt so bad after all. Id be gone a couple of days and pick up a few extra bucks. And not get dragged back into Friends.

Yep, masters degree soon, deliriously happy marriage, back to New York for a while. I had life pretty much wired. And maybe Karen had evolved into some precoital bliss in my extended absence.

When I got back outside she was sobbing.

Honey, whats the matt-

She looked at me with red-rimmed eyes and bawled, I want a baaaaby!

I never should have got out of the hot tub.

Don Winslow

While Drowning in the Desert

A baby, I thought the next morning as I drove the Jeep down lonely Highway 93 toward Las Vegas. A baby, I thought, replaying the whole argument.

Were not even married yet, Id said to Karen as we sat on the edge of the hot tub.

We will be in two months, she answered.

Wed decided on an early-October wedding out at the ranch of our best friends, the Milkovskys.

I trotted out some old cliche Id seen on a talk show. But I thought wed have some time together just as a couple before we brought a third person into it.