Michael Collins - Walk a Black Wind

Most of us pass through life without ever meeting real danger or fear. We slide from day to day, and nothing very bad happens. We like it that way, I think, even if we do sometimes feel that life is flat. But fear and horror come to some of us, and we meet it in different ways.

There are some who face it naked and early and come to terms. Nothing ever scares them again, or even worries them. They are the great, the saints, and the monsters. Then there are some who see fear once and are destroyed. If they go on, they are hollow shells. Most neither come to terms nor are destroyed. They simply endure the moment, survive, and never know how they will meet fear the next time.

The man who came to my one-window office that Thursday in late October had met fear or horror or both.

Two weeks ago I met a girl, he said. Shes dead, Mr. Fortune, murdered. I want her murderer caught.

He was my height, about five-foot-ten, broad and solid in a good blue pin-stripe business suit under a navy topcoat. His olive-colored face was faintly Latin, clean-shaven and deeply lined, but somehow youthful despite the deep wrinkles. I guessed his age at about forty-five. He held a blue homburg where he sat in my one extra chair, and his thick hair was dark brown and coarse. There was no gray in the hair, and his hat was unusual these days. The business card he placed on my old desk explained the hat: John F. Andera, Sales Representative, Marvel Office Equipment, Inc. Salesmen were among the few who still always wore a hat.

What was the girl to you, Mr. Andera? I said.

His eyes were a cloudy blue as if he had been stunned. He looked like a man who has been hit by a train and isnt sure yet what damage has been done. Not sure if he was alive or dead, holding himself together inside, breathing carefully.

A friend, he said. I liked her. I had hopes.

He spoke with a kind of stiff, prep-school diction that was not natural to him. The sound of some faint accent underneath.

I said, What was the name originally? My grandfather was Fortunowski when he got off the ship. Sometimes I miss it.

He didnt smile. Anderoparte. We came from Corsica. My father changed it for business. Will you take the job?

Ill have to know more about it, I said. You only knew this girl for two weeks?

He glanced around my cubicle office with its view of an air-shaft wall as if he was surprised Id think twice about any job. With the shabby office, my rough clothes, and my missing arm, I dont look affluent, and we are a world based on cash and prospects. Andera had expected me to be hungry to work, but he said nothing. He took two newspaper clippings from his pocket, gave them to me.

They were both from The New York Times. The first was from yesterdays late edition, Wednesday. An inch from page nine:

WOMAN FOUND MURDERED

Fran Martin, of 280 East Eighty-fourth Street, Manhattan, was found stabbed to death in her bed at 8:30 A.M. this morning by her weekly cleaning woman. Police report that the victim died sometime after midnight last night. No motive is yet known for the brutal slaying of the woman who worked as a cocktail waitress at the Emerald Room on East Sixty-sixth Street. Police are investigating.

The second clipping was much longer, dated Thursday, today, and had run on page two of The Times:

MURDER VICTIM DAUGHTER OF UPSTATE MAYOR

The attractive young victim of Tuesday nights slaying at 280 East Eighty-fourth Street has now been identified as Francesca Crawford, daughter of Mayor Martin J. Crawford of Dresden, New York.

On his arrival at the Plaza, the Mayor of the upstate city stated that he knew of no motive for his daughters murder, and neither he nor his wife could cast any light on the tragedy.

Mayor Crawford revealed that his daughter had left home three months ago, and had not been in contact with her family since. He could offer no explanation for her living in Manhattan under an assumed name. The Mayor and his wife are now in seclusion at the Plaza.

Police identified Miss Crawford through her roommate, Celia Bazer, who had been away visiting friends on Long Island. The roommate is now being interrogated, but police emphasize they have no leads.

Miss Crawford, first identified as Fran Martin, was found stabbed in her bed-

The rest was a repeat of the first story, with more words but no more facts. I handed the clippings back to John Andera.

Any ideas why she was killed? I asked him.

No, none, he said. I met Fran two weeks ago today at a party. She was alone, I took her to a late dinner. I liked her. I took her out twice more. We got along. She seemed much older, more mature, than she really was.

How old was she?

Twenty, Mr. Fortune. Just twenty. I went away a few days on business this week, returned on Wednesday for a date with Fran. She didnt show at the restaurant. I was angry, so didnt call her. Today I saw that second story. His thick hands shook. She had been using a false name. Then she was dead. I had hoped well, that we He stopped.

You can prove you were out of town?

Yes, of course. He had expected the question, and he anticipated my next one. Im not married, I have no jealous women, and I dont know if she had other men. I dont know anything, thats why I want you. I can pay well.

For a girl you hardly knew?

How long does a man have to know a girl to know he likes her? I liked her a lot! Ill pay you a thousand dollars in advance, another thousand when you bring in her murderer!

His voice was still steady, but inside he was bleeding hard where it didnt show but hurt just as much. Inside, he was crying for a girl who hadnt even given him her right name. Then, that wasnt so unusual in the fast world of New York.

Thats a lot of money, I said. You could get a big agency for that, and the police will handle it well enough.

The police have too much work, and I dont want Fran lost in a big agencys computers. I want a man who will work for Francesca. I want to do something!

Its still a lot of money, I said.

Yes, it is. Because I want to make you take the job, and because I want my name kept out of it. I dont want to be involved. He said it bluntly. Either he was naive or bolder than he looked.

Even though you can prove you were out of town?

Im not worried about being thought guilty, he said. Its just that a young girl, a salesman, a few weeks, you understand?

I understood. The newspapers, and his office people, would have a fun-time with it. We love to see dirt.

All right, I said. In murder, I have to work with the police. If I cant keep you out, Ill tell you first.

Andera thought for a moment, then nodded, and stood up. He counted ten hundred-dollar bills from his wallet. They were all new bills, hed come prepared from his bank.

Ill come here for any reports, he said.

When he had gone I thought about him. He had paid me more than I was worth on any market, and I had a hunch that he knew it. Had he decided how much it would cost to make me take a case I didnt quite believe? Maybe, but did that mean that his story wasnt true, or only that he was afraid I wouldnt think it was true?

The only way to know was to go to work, and I could always use two thousand dollars. I called Centre Street. They told me Captain Gazzo was on the case. It figured-a mayors daughter. Gazzo agreed to meet me at The Medical Examiners Building on the East River.

I walked across town in the autumn afternoon sun, the sharp October wind blowing through my old duffel coat. A wind that had been blowing hard all week, the whole city walking bent.

Captain Gazzo was at one of the crypts in the basement autopsy room when I walked in. The dead girl in the crypt had not been beautiful, yet there was something very alive about her face even in death. Her long, dark hair framed a face of high, broad cheekbones, and a proud nose like a hawk. There was an Oriental shape to her dark brown eyes. She wore no make-up at all. It made her seem older.