Oliver Stark - American Devil

West Virginia, February 14, 1982

He stood behind the white picket fence, hidden in the shadows of a beech tree. It was ten forty in the evening enough time still to ask her the question. In his right hand, he held twelve red roses with velvet-soft petals. He wanted to give her something real special; after all, she was the girl of his dreams.

Above the large timber-framed house, the moon was so bright that he could see the jumble of kids toys abandoned on the veranda. His nervous grey eyes rose to the first floor and scanned each window in turn. He stopped at hers and sweat formed instantly down his back. Her bedroom glowed with a soft pink light. The beautiful and untouchable Chloe Mestella, just fifteen years old and already way beyond the reach of him or any of the local boys.

He figured that shed be fast asleep by now, so hed have to steal up to her room without her parents seeing. He knew what he was going to say to her when she woke up. Chloe, will you be my Valentine? I love you so much sometimes I want to die. He looked again to the pink-lit window. His head was throbbing as if a train was driving through it.

The boy stepped out on to the crisp cut lawn. The house itself looked like it was sleeping. He thought he could see the roof rising and falling like a breathing chest. What a place to grow up! What a fairy tale! But why couldnt she just be a little bit nice to him?

The problem with these rich girls was that deep down they werent nice at all. They dressed in pretty clothes and smiled sweetly when they had to, but hed been at the old log yard after dark and seen what they did in the back seats of borrowed cars, their innocent faces twisting and trembling in the shadows like they were in some kind of pain.

Even the untouchable Chloe had been ruined. Someone had taken advantage of her, rubbed her up in the dell, pulled her clothes about and rutted with her like a farm animal. Grunt, grunt, grunt, went the football star, with Chloe crying out for him to stop. But he carried right on to the finish line, just like hed been taught.

Holding the roses close to his chest, he crept along the side of the house and lifted his head to the living-room window. Mary and Don Mestella were eating seafood linguine with a couple of friends. Upstairs their little girl was tucked up in bed a snug warm curl of a body in soft pink pyjamas. It was the perfect family scene and he wanted to be part of it.

The boy pulled at each window in turn. The toilet window opened to his rough fingertips. He pulled himself in through the narrow gap and tumbled head first into the small room. He froze in fear and listened out.

He peered around the half-open door of the toilet as he checked the hallway. Glasses clinked in the living room, but his eyes were fixed on the stairs. It was a short dash across the open hallway. He eased the door further open and placed his left foot on the bright polished floor. From the other end of the hallway something clattered. The boy felt his body seize up. Then a voice called out. Hope youre all ready for dessert in there!

Mrs Mestella. She was in the fucking kitchen. He couldnt move. His breath shortened. She was already walking out of the kitchen with a big pavlova held triumphantly in front of her. He couldnt risk shutting the toilet door and catching her eye. He held his breath, leaned back into the shadow of the dark room and hoped she wouldnt look over. If she did, shed scream, the pavlova would drop and hed have a hell of a lot of explaining to do.

His whole body shivered as he watched Mrs Mestella pass by in profile, all her attention on the big white meringue covered in thin slices of bright red strawberry. The boy caught a gust of sickly perfume in his throat and nearly coughed. He held it until she was in the living room, then he darted across the polished wooden floor spluttering into his sleeve. His eyes rose to the top of the stairs. Little steps to his own private heaven.

At the top of the stairs he took off his shoes and padded down the corridor, edging open each door in turn. In the second room, he saw Chloes younger twin sisters radiating life. Next came the master bedroom with its double doors slightly ajar. He felt like some crazy Goldilocks but inside the fear and anticipation were leaping in his chest.

Along the corridor he came to her door and touched it with his fingertips. It was covered with pictures of fairies. There was a wooden nameplate saying Chloes Room Be Nice. This was the room she had grown up in. It contained all her innocent dreams.

The boy looked down at his roses. He slowly repeated what he had planned to say. He wanted it all to be perfect but he was shaking like a leaf and the spit had dried in his mouth.

He pushed the door open. The walls were pale rose and there was a small night-light that gave the room that warm soft glow hed seen from the garden. He took three small steps into the room and there she was his own sleeping, perfect princess.

He felt as if his whole world had suddenly come to him fully formed from his dreams. His yearnings were so strong he felt fit to burst. He reached out towards the tanned flawless skin of her arm. As his fingers brushed her an electric charge shot right through him. Every nerve tingled.

Her pyjama top had risen up and her hip was visible like the curve of a stone statue. The skin was so delicate and pale. From downstairs, the chatter of voices and sudden bursts of laughter rose up through the house, but they sounded as though they were coming from the bottom of a deep well. He was way up above, in heaven.

The boy placed the twelve red roses on the nightstand, moved to her bed and took the flowered quilt in his hands. He pulled it slowly from her body and let it drop to the floor. He had only wanted a glance, that was all.

But he couldnt help himself now. He moved his mouth to hers and kissed her. His lips were cold and hers so very warm. His hand reached down and slipped inside her top.

Chloe Mestella woke. Her eyelids flickered open. For a moment she was confused, her head still full of dreams. Was this real? The dark shadow above her? In a half second, she realized that this was very real. Someone was in her room. Some stranger was on her bed with his hands all over her. Fear caught fire and rushed wild through her limbs. She breathed in, about to cry out, but a hand caught her. A rough hand covered her mouth and pressed her jaw down firmly.

Shh, a low voice said in the pink light. Your parents will hear us. Chloes eyes flicked left and right. His whole body moved quickly on top of hers and jammed hard against her so hard against her chest that she couldnt breathe. Her heart pounded; she was sweaty and icy cold in the same moment but her muscles felt tired and weak. It was terror clawing at her. Blind terror.

Chloe. I love you so much sometimes I want to die. Will you be my Valentine? She shook her head violently and tried to speak. There were tears in her eyes. She wasnt thinking of the right thing to say, she was just giving him her answer, shaking her head. Please let me go, please dont hurt me! The boy held her down harder, like some struggling animal.

He forced his whole weight on to Chloes mouth. Disappointment mingled with shame. Shame for having hope, for loving her shame for being refused by the one person hed hoped would save him. The devil had said it all along. Give her a chance, if you dont believe me. See if Im wrong about her. Give her a chance to prove me wrong. If Im wrong, Ill leave you alone. With shaking arms he pushed down on her body more firmly, feeling self-hatred squirm in his mind, mocking him. He shuddered with tears as he forced his bony limbs harder and harder against the girl he loved. Chloe couldnt breathe any more. Her legs and arms and torso thrashed about under his weight. She was making too much noise. Way too much noise.