James Benn - A Blind Goddess

HUNGERFORD, ENGLAND

March 1944

Tree didnt speak. Hed look up and meet my eyes for a split second, then lower his gaze and shake his head, as if wondering if this was such a good idea. Given our past, I couldnt blame him. The pub owner worked his broom, muttering to himself as he swept shards of broken glass across the floor and looked at me with suspicion. I couldnt fault the barkeep either.

A fire burned low in the grate, but not enough to ward off the chill in the air. The Three Crowns Pub was empty except for us and the publican. Me, Kaz, and Tree. Sergeant Eugene Tree Jackson, to be precise. Id brought Kaz along for moral support, so I might as well be precise about his full name as well: Lieutenant Baron Piotr Augustus Kazimierz of the Polish Army in Exile and my good friend.

Tree had once been a friend, the kind you get the hard way, by starting off as enemies. Over time we had changed, and found common ground. But then things turned sour, and somehow we ended up back where we started. That was a long time ago, but not the kind of time that heals any wounds.

We sat at the table nearest the fire. The pub wasnt much to begin with and was even less impressive with smashed glassware decorating every surface. Heavy mugs, pint glasses, whiskey tumblers, all reduced to sharp edges and reflected light. Tree didnt help by playing mute, even though hed asked for this visit. When we met out front, hed saluted, since both Kaz and I wore lieutenants bars and he had sergeants stripes on his sleeves. Tree addressed me by rank, and thanked us for coming, very stiff and formal. He reminded me of his old man, whom Id never thought of as anyone but Mr. Jackson. I wondered what he saw in the grown-up Billy Boyle and told myself it didnt matter.

When we entered the Three Crowns, Tree didnt comment on the destruction. He nodded a greeting to the owner, appearing to be on friendly terms. The publican shook his head sadly, much as Tree was doing, and bent to his broom. There was a lot of glass to be swept.

Tree dug a pack of Chesterfields out of his pocket and offered us the smokes. We waved them off and watched as he flipped open a Zippo and lit up. It had been seven years since Id last seen him, but his hands still looked like a kids. Long and slim, just as he was, and graceful too, every move easy and assured. At six feet tall, with hands that could handle a basketball or a football like a pro, he suited the nickname well enough. Having Eugene for a first name didnt hurt either. He always thought it sounded like a girls name, while Tree was unmistakably male. He inhaled the smoke, looking at us both with his dark brown eyes as he exhaled, holding his gaze this time. His skin was a shade lighter than his eyes. The color of polished walnut, I had always thought.

Bet youre surprised to see me, Billy, Tree said, finally breaking his silence. He didnt smile, but one eyebrow arched slightly, a gesture of friendship, perhaps.

Surprised youre still in the army, I said, wary of Trees intent. Kaz kept silent, his eyes watching the publican as he went about his business, then drifting in Trees direction.

Youre Polish, Tree said to Kaz. He was making small talk that seemed ridiculous in the circumstances. I figured since he wanted to see me, Id wait until he was ready to spill. Meanwhile, I watched the two of them size each other up.

Yes, said Kaz. And I understand you were a colleague of Billys in Boston.

Colleague? I guess you could call it that, Lieutenant. You a colleague of Billys over here now? There was a challenge in Trees words, no matter how lightly he spoke them. Or a warning.

We work together, yes, Kaz said, with an air of studied indifference. The two of them were a world apart in all things, except for me. Tree was a Negro; tall and good-looking in a Josh Gibson sort of way. Gibson was a six-foot-plus player for the Homestead Grays, and once Id called him the black Babe Ruth for his incredible hitting. Tree had then called the Babe the white Josh Gibson, and wed laughed about it. Wed laughed about a lot of things back then. The foolishness of the adult world, mainly. And now here we were smack in the middle of it.

My friendship with Kaz was different in many ways. He and Id had a few laughs, sure, and Id call him my best friend in a heartbeat, but life these days wasnt all chuckles and mischief. It was about staying alive, and Kaz and I had helped each other out in that department too many times already. With Tree it had been out-and-out sidesplitting guffaws. With Kaz, it was more likely to be a lopsided grin, a few drinks, and then on to the next mission. Over here, you set aside foolishness pretty damn quick.

Small and wiry, sporting steel-rimmed spectacles, Kaz was a good-looking guy himself, if you only looked at one side of his face. On the other side he carried a scar from eye to jawbone, a souvenir from our first case together, and a daily reminder of all hed lost. I caught Tree staring at it for a second, but he didnt ask questions.

Tree was poor. Kaz was rich. His British Army uniform was tailor-made, and he wore it well. Tree was wearing a Parsons jacket, outdated since the new M-1943 field jackets replaced them months ago. Probably the way things went in the colored units. A lot like life back in Boston.

I thought we might have a drink, Tree said, drumming his fingers on the tabletop and glancing at the floor. But theres a shortage of glasses.

Listen, Tree, I said, giving up on waiting for him to explain himself. I got your message yesterday, and came as soon as I could. I started a five-day leave today and spent my first morning packed into a train from London to come out here and talk to you. I dont know what the problem is, but you didnt invite me for drinks. And what the hell happened here anyway?

You Yanks happened, thats what, the owner said, emptying a dustpan filled with glass shards.

Thats not fair, Horace, Tree said. Im a Yank too.

Dont mean your lot, Horace said. You know that.

So there was a brawl or something here, I said. Lets find another pub and have a drink, okay? Maybe thatll loosen your tongue.

Dont bother yourself, Horace said, and disappeared behind the bar.

What does he mean? Kaz said.

He means that every damn glass in every damn pub in Hungerford is in the same condition. It wasnt a brawl. It was a deliberate attack, pure and simple.

By Americans? Kaz said.

Yeah, Tree said. White Americans.

I dont understand, I said. I could imagine, but I wanted the details.

You know how the army keeps things segregated, Tree said. But Ill explain for your Polish pal here. Uncle Sams got colored units, like mine, but that means they have to double up on everything else, to make sure white folks dont have to share the same building, transportation, food, or anything with us. Trains, ships, trucks, you name it. Even towns. Hungerford was designated an off-duty town for colored troops back in forty-two.

Why? Kaz asked.

Women, liquor, politics, it all comes together over here, Tree said. Plenty of my fellow American GIs dont like the idea of seeing us walking out with white girls. Given the lack of female Negroes in England, thats the only choice we have. And the ladies dont seem to mind one bit since they werent raised to despise my race.

There would be fights, Kaz said.

Fights and killing, for certain. You see, over here a white man doesnt have the automatic right to kill a Negro, not like they do in the Deep South. Military justice aint much, but its better than Alabama justice. So to avoid unpleasantness, the army designates certain towns for whites and others for colored troops. Nothing official, of course. But no white GI has ever had a pass to spend time in Hungerford. Tree spat out the words, and I saw the humiliation beneath his anger.