Peter James - You Are Dead

Thursday 11 December

Logan was driving fast in the pelting rain, hurrying home, glad that her shitty day which had gone from bad to worse, and then progressively worse still, was nearly at an end. She was looking forward to a large glass of chilled white wine and a sneaky cigarette on the balcony before Jamie got home. The familiar Radio Sussex jingle played, then the female presenter announced it was 5.30 p.m. and time for the news headlines. As Logan listened, with half an ear, she was blissfully unaware that by this time tomorrow evening she would be the lead item on the local news, and the subject of one of the biggest manhunts ever launched by Sussex Police.

Her catalogue of disasters had started as she had got out of bed, late for work, with a splitting headache after a tiresome dinner with clumsy, untidy Jamie and tripped over a boot hed left on the carpet. Shed stumbled forward, gashing her big toe open on the edge of the bathroom door. She should have gone to hospital, but she couldnt spare the time for the inevitable wait at A&E, so shed bandaged it herself and hoped for the best.

Then to add insult to injury she had been flashed by the same damned speed camera she had driven past every working day for the past few years, at a careful 32 mph. Somehow, today, in her rush to get to work for her first appointment she had totally forgotten it was there, and had gone past it at well over 45 mph.

The gilding on the lily came when one of her partners in the chiropractic clinic the woman who brought in the largest share of their income announced she was pregnant with triplets, and intended if all went well to be a full-time mum. Without her income stream, the future of the place could be in doubt.

Overshadowing all of that were her concerns about Jamie. He stubbornly refused to accept anything was wrong. But there was; there was so much wrong. His untidiness, which at first had amused her, had grown to irritate her beyond belief especially when hed told her crassly that it was a womans role to keep the home tidy.

So she had tidied up. Shed scooped up all the clothes that he had left lying on the floor, and his beer cans and dirty beer glasses left after a bunch of his friends had come round to watch the footy and dumped them down the rubbish chute in the corridor of their flat.

She was grinning in satisfaction at the memory as she indicated right, braked, then halted her car at the entrance to the underground car park beneath their apartment block in Brightons Kemp Town. She pressed the clicker to open the electric gates.

Then, as she drove down the ramp, she was startled by a figure lurking in the darkness. She stamped her foot hard on the brake pedal.

Thursday 11 December

Within seconds of answering the phone to his fiance, Jamie Ball sensed something was wrong.

The connection was bad as he drove his battered old VW Golf down the M23 towards Brighton in the heavy rush-hour traffic and pelting rain, and it was hard to hear what she was saying; but even through the crackly line, he could hear the unease in her voice.

Are you OK, darling? he asked.

No, she said. No, Im not.

What is it?

Theres a man down here in the car park. I just saw him. He tried to hide as I drove in.

Neither of them liked that underground car park beneath their apartment block. Their small ninth-floor flat, close to Brightons Royal Sussex County Hospital in Kemp Town, had views to die for, across the rooftops and far out into the English Channel, but the car park always gave them the creeps.

It was poorly lit with many totally dark areas, and there was only minimal security. Several vehicles lay beneath dust sheets and never appeared to be moved. Sometimes, when he drove down there, Jamie felt he was entering a mausoleum. If Logan arrived home on her own late at night, she preferred to park on the street and risk a ticket in the morning rather than go down there in the dark.

He had repeatedly warned Logan to make sure the electronic gates had closed behind her before driving on down the ramp. Now the scenario he had always feared seemed to be happening.

OK, darling, he said. Listen to me. Lock your doors, turn around, and drive straight back out.

She did not reply.

Logan, did you hear me?

He heard her scream.

A terrible scream.

Then silence.

Thursday 11 December

Felix is fine with the fact that I kill people. He gets it, he understands my reasons. I have a sneaking feeling hed like to do the same himself, if he had more courage. Harrisons not so sure about the whole moral issue here. As for Marcus well, really hes dead against it no pun intended. He thinks Im a bad person. But hey, its good to have smart friends who have opinions, and arent afraid to express them. Personally, Ive always respected people who speak their mind.

They say a true friend is someone who knows everything about you, and still likes you, but I would question that unconditional aspect of friendship. We need friends to keep checks and balances on us, to help each of us keep our perspectives, our moral compass. But I have to say that Marcus is wrong. Im not really a bad person, Im just a victim. All of us in life, all of us are victims. Were all prisoners of our past, in some form. Our past defines us in ways that are not always obvious. Its only later, on occasions, when you read something that touches a nerve, or your therapist points out some connection you had never made. Thats when you have the light-bulb moment. When suddenly it all makes sense. And you can justify everything.

Ive just started my next project. Shes a young lady in her mid-twenties, slim, pretty, with long brown hair the way I like all my projects to look. Ive been following her for the past three months from a distance mostly, but also on her Facebook page and through her tweets. I like to make a thorough study of my projects, working out the best way to take them, then thinking about what Im going to do with them. Its the anticipation that really gives me the bang. Its like going online and looking at the menu of some great restaurant I plan to eat in. My beautiful dossiers.

Logan is quite a girl. Shes fit, in every sense. Runs marathons, was due to get married, though thats not going to happen now and thats nothing to do with me. But that all helps me, navigating by my moral compass. She cant treat men the way she has.

She needs punishing.

Thursday 11 December

In summer, Hove Lagoon, a childrens park and playground with two large boating ponds, a skate park and a childrens paddling pool, behind the seafront promenade lined with gaily painted beach huts, would be teeming with people. Children, under the watchful eyes of mothers, grandparents, au pairs or nannies, would be playing on the roundabouts, slides and swings, or in the little pool, or sailing their toy boats on one of the two rectangular ponds that gave the place its name, and which they shared with learner dinghy sailors, windsurfers and wakeboarders.

Many would be stuffing their faces with ice creams or sweets purchased from the Big Beach Caf, its utilitarian whitewashed walls, blue windows and steeply pitched roof belying its uber-cool cocktail bar and diner interior the inspiration of its latest owner, Big Beat musician Norman Cook, aka Fatboy Slim.

But in the gloom of this foul December Thursday afternoon, with cold rain pelting down, and a strong, gusting wind, the whole place was forlorn and cheerless. A solitary elderly lady, in a see-through souwester, walked a reluctant dog, the size of a large rat, on a lead attached to a harness.