Ann Cleeves - The Moth Catcher

The seventh book in the Vera Stanhope series, 2015

Lizzie Redhead listened. In the prison it was never quiet. Not even now in the middle of the night. The other women in her room stirred, snuffling like animals in their sleep. No cells here. Dormitories that reminded her of school. No privacy. No darkness, either. A gleam from the corridor outside shone through the crack under the door, and though this was a low-security establishment there were spotlights at the walls and the gate, and the curtains were thin. Footsteps in the corridor outside. A screw checking that lass on suicide-watch. Two in the morning.

Lizzie worked in the prison farm, so she had access to fresh air and enough exercise to keep her fit, but that didnt mean she slept well. Shed never needed much sleep. Shed always believed she didnt belong to her parents; had decided when she was quite small that she was a foundling child, secretly adopted. What did they have in common after all? She had too much energy and a very low boredom threshold. Annie and Sam were soft and gentle, big on squidgy hugs and soppy kisses. Lizzie saw herself as hard and metallic. As an adult shed chosen men like her. Flinty. Flint on flint made fire. Jason Crow had set her alight.

In a week shed be released, and she was making plans. Shed become healthy in prison. Shed realized there were better ways to get her kicks than booze and drugs. Jason had taught her that too, though she hadnt believed him at the time. She knew, from all hed told her, that she was lucky to have ended up in an open institution.

In prison her entertainment was simple. She visited the library and joined the writers group. She had stories to tell and she needed to find the right words. In the library shed found a book published by the National Geographic and kept renewing the loan until she believed the book was hers. She lay on her bed and looked at pictures of places she wanted to see for herself, felt dizzy at the idea of travelling, had in her nostrils the smell of the rain forest, the salt of distant seas. Huge places, big enough to contain her ambition. Her parents had spent all their life within ten miles of the valley where her father had been born. Lizzie needed tough places to battle with, rocks sharp enough to cut her flesh.

Shed been a cutter when she was a teenager, slicing into her arm with a razor, high on the smell of metal and blood. She still occasionally harboured dreams of steel, sharp blades, blood oozing in perfectly round drops from clean cuts. Her mother had never noticed. Lizzie had always been good at hiding her secrets. Now she was hiding Jason Crows secrets too. She was haunted by them, but she waited for the time that they might be useful to her.

Percy steered the Mini down the lane from The Lamb towards the bungalow he shared with his daughter. On the passenger seat beside him sat Madge, a Border-cross and the best dog hed ever had. Shed win prizes at the trials, if Percy could be arsed to train her properly. Percys sight wasnt so good these days, so he drove with his nose to the windscreen peering at the road ahead. His daughter said he should stop driving, but hadnt done anything about it. She liked the two hours of peace his time in The Lamb gave her. Besides, the lane didnt go anywhere except the big house and those fancy barn conversions, and at this time of day those people were all drinking too. Susan, his daughter, went in to clean for them, and she said the recycling bin was full of bottles every week. Major and Mrs C from the big house were away visiting their son in Australia, so they wouldnt be driving down the lane. There was nothing else to hit, and the car could find its own way home.

Percy found that his mind was wandering. The beer was strong and hed been persuaded to take a third pint from one of the youngsters whod moved into the village. He was late. Susan would be waiting for him, her eye on the clock and his tea in the oven. She liked the washing up done and the kitchen all clean and tidy before the start of EastEnders. Her husband had run away with a lass from Prudhoe as soon as their kids had left home, and Susan had moved in with Percy. To take care of him, she said. To have someone to boss around, he thought, though he was used to her now and would miss her if she moved out.

The lane ran along the bottom of the valley. On each side the hills rose steeply, first to fields quartered with drystone walls where sheep grazed and then to open moorland. Close to the road there were trees, a narrow strip of woodland, with primroses now and the green spears that would turn into bluebells. New leaves just starting and the low sun throwing shadows across the road. He was retired, but hed always earned his living on farms and could turn his hand to anything. Hed liked sheep-work best and this was his favourite time of year. Lambs on the hill and the scent of summer on the way. The sun starting to get a bit of heat in it.

The third pint was sitting uncomfortably on his bladder. That was something else Susan nagged him to go to the doctor about. He was up to the toilet several times a night. Sometimes he got caught short when he was out, pissing himself like a bairn just out of nappies. There was no fun in getting old, no matter what he said to the kids in the pub about having the perfect life. Me, Ive got no worries in the world. When you got old there was the worry of indignity and dying. He pulled the car as close to the verge as he could get and jumped out. Just managed to get his zip undone in time, the water in the burn mingling with the sound of his own water aimed at the ditch. There was a moment of relief as he did up his trousers and he thought that he would make an appointment to see the doctor. He couldnt carry on like this.

Then he saw the boys face, half-hidden by cow parsley. The eyes were open and the pale hair drifted in the ditch water like weed. Theyd had a dry spell, so the ditch was less than half-full. Most of the face was above the water line. It was unmarked. No lines, no wounds. This was a young man, and he looked as if hed just gone to sleep. He was wearing a woollen jersey and a waxed jacket, and the clothes that werent lying in the mud at the bottom of the ditch looked clean and dry. Percy wasnt appalled by death. Hed killed beasts and hed seen dead people. Hed just been too young to serve in the war, but when he was a child it hadnt been unusual for people to die at home. Now people mocked health-and-safety laws, but thered been more accidents at work then too. Farm machinery without guards or brakes, foolish men showing off. And hed been holding his wifes hand when she slipped away. It was a shock to see the boy lying here and it sobered him up, but he didnt want to vomit.

He looked at the face more carefully and took a moment to remember when hed last seen it. Last week in the lounge of The Lamb. Eating one of Glorias steak pies. Alone. Hed asked his mate Matty who the boy was, but Matty had no curiosity and didnt bother answering. And Percy had seen the boy again, more recently. Yesterday morning, strolling down the road towards the village. Percy had been up on the hill walking Madge and had meant to ask Susan about him. Susan was more nebby than he was and she knew all the gossip.

Percy walked back to the car and took the mobile phone out of the glove compartment. All around him blackbirds were singing fit to burst. It was that time of year. The time for marking territories and breeding. He always missed his dead wife most in the spring. Not just the friendship, but the sex.