Paul Kavanagh - Not Comin' Home to You

From: Phil Posmantur

To: Murray Hutter

Subject: HOME treatment (enc.)

Murray

Im sending along the treatment for the last act of HOME. Between the novel and some research Ive done on the original case, I think I have a good understanding of the dynamics of the principals.

Assuming its possible to understand them...

He stood straight and tall on the ramp of the Interstate, thumb out, waiting. There was a slight smile on his face, and the smile never faded when cars passed him by. He didnt mind waiting. Sooner or later someone always stopped, and you appreciated the lift more when you waited on it.

And damn, he felt good! It was getting on noon and he rocked almost imperceptibly on the balls of his feet, rocked to an inner music and relished the Texas sun on his face and arms. Texas sun or Louisiana sun he didnt remember crossing the state line, but it might have come and gone while his mind was elsewhere. The trucker who picked him up outside of Meridian was a good old boy who kept the radio full of down-home music and washed it all out with a down-home conversation that was easy to ignore. He could have tuned out the Louisiana-Texas border while tuning out the trucker.

Not that it mattered much. If he was in Louisiana he was on his way to Texas, and if he was in Texas he was on his way out of it. They didnt know him in either state and he wouldnt be around long enough to shake a lot of hands.

His hand moved to his hair, touching it, and his fingers investigated his cheeks and chin. His hair was sand brown, high in front and swept straight back. The sideburns ended a quarter-inch above the bottoms of the earlobes, and his cheeks and chin and neck and upper lip were shaved clean. He had a light beard but still shaved twice a day. He kept his face as smooth as the softest part of any girl hed ever touched.

It was a habit, this business of touching himself, and he reminded himself again that it was a ritual not to be performed in public. In complete privacy he liked the reassurance of touching all the parts of his body. There was no sexual element in this. Even when he touched his genitals he did so with neither erotic effect nor erotic intent. It was more a matter of continuing self-discovery. All a man had was his own self, and it was as sensible to keep up a dialogue with the body as with the mind. But with the body, as with the mind, this dialogue was a private matter.

Cars passed, and the sun warmed him, and the music sang in his blood and bones. The speed in his veins felt clean and strong and certain. That trucker had been good to him, bought him a breakfast, shook a couple dozen bennies into his palm. Hed lost the breakfast less than fifteen minutes later. Hed half-expected this. It was greasy truck-stop food, and his stomach had known better than to hang onto it. After throwing up hed gone back inside for a glass of water to clean his mouth, and it seemed at the time that the pills from the night before were wearing off, so he got a second glass of water and washed down two of the bennies. But there was still evidently some of last nights Dexedrine in his system and it went with the bennies in a nice moving way, and his body felt so good and his mind was so strong and he was Jimmie John Hall, free and white and twenty-two, and you couldnt ask for better than that.

Cars in a stream, staring out of blind windshields, going from nowhere to nowhere. Except they all knew where they were going. It was all built into the drivers, stamped beneath the skin of their foreheads like the serial numbers on the engines of their cars, imprinted there to tell them who they had to be and where they had to go and what they had to do.

How small they all were. He had nothing but the clothes on his back and the few things in the airlines bag at his feet and the couple of dollars in his pocket, and he didnt know where he was going and wasnt even sure precisely where he was, and yet he was something and they were nothing, nothing at all.

A car slowed to a stop. He picked up his bag and moved to it, stood while the driver leaned across to crank down the window. A balding, red-faced man, his white shirt deeply sweat-stained under the arms.

I said how far you goin, boy?

The car was a Ford, four or five years old, the fenders battered, one of them starting to rust out. The floor in front was littered with cigarette ends and empty coffee containers. The engine, idling now, sounded like a man with phlegm in his throat.

Hop in, boy. Be goin clear across to Abilene.

Thanks, he said. He took a step back. See, I was just waiting for a friend.

This some kind of a joke?

No. Thanks very much, but I dont want a ride just now.

The man a salesman, he guessed, with all those cartons in the back seat was still trying to decide how to react. He couldnt just drive away. He had to make sure nobody was making a fool out of him.

God damn, he said. Car aint good enough for you, is that it? Piece of redneck trash actin like hes used to Lincolns and Cadillacs. Never heard tell of a hitchhiker puttin on the style before. He paused, challenging with his eyes, waiting for a response, and he was angered further by the lack of one. His eyes narrowed, turned crafty. Why, you dont want a ride after all! Youre just lookin to get picked up by some queer. Youre a goddamn queer yourself, arent you, boy?

He felt his hand moving of its own accord to his back pocket. He stopped the movement and managed a smile. You got it, he said.

Huh?

Im a queer, he said. Youre absolutely right. And, still smiling, he turned and walked off a ways in the opposite direction.

He didnt look back. He kept walking, waiting for the car to pull away or for the driver to get out of it and come after him. The piece of pipe in his back pocket rode easy on his hip as he walked, and his mind flashed the image of the pipe leaping into his hand, his shoulder ducking as he spun, the pipe swinging over and down in a neat perfect powerful arc

Come on. Do something.

Tires spun fiercely. He turned and watched the gravel fly as the Ford pulled back onto the road. He smiled broadly and kept his eyes on the Fords rear window, knowing the driver was seeing his eyes in his mirror.

No. No, your car aint good enough for me. Its old and dirty, old man, all the same as you are, and aint neither of you fit to keep company with Jimmie John Hall.

Damn, he felt good!

He knew the Toronado was going to stop before it had even begun to slow down. It was Wedgwood blue with a white vinyl top, and it was just the sort of car to fit his mood. He wondered sometimes at his ability to anticipate things like the stopping of this particular car. Did he pick up vibrations that gave him a sort of clairvoyance? Or did the force of his own will have something to do with it, communicating itself to the driver and actually inducing him to stop the car? Sometimes a mans will had that sort of power. He was sure of it. If the man was strong enough, and if he knew how to draw himself together and use himself well.