Noah Cicero - Bipolar Cowboy

BIPOLAR COWBOY Also by Noah Cicero Go to work and do your job. Care for your children. Pay your bills. Obey the law. Buy products. 1 The Collected Works of Noah Cicero Vol. 2 The Noah Cicero Bathroom Reader BIPOLAR COWBOY Noah Cicero LAZY FASCIST PRESS
LAZY FASCIST PRESS PO Box 10065Portland, OR 97296www.lazyfascistpress.comISBN: 978-1-62105-178-7Copyright 2015 by Noah CiceroCover Copyright 2015 by Matthew Revertwww.matthewrevert.comAll rights reserved. 2 The Noah Cicero Bathroom Reader BIPOLAR COWBOY Noah Cicero LAZY FASCIST PRESS
LAZY FASCIST PRESS PO Box 10065Portland, OR 97296www.lazyfascistpress.comISBN: 978-1-62105-178-7Copyright 2015 by Noah CiceroCover Copyright 2015 by Matthew Revertwww.matthewrevert.comAll rights reserved.

No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system, without the written consent of the publisher, except where permitted by law.All persons in this book are fictitious, and any resemblance that may seem to exist to actual persons living or dead is purely coincidental. This is a work of fiction.Printed in the USA. CONTENTS This book of love poems is for all those who loved so deeply it crossed the line into mental illness Chronology of the Bipolar Cowboy Dream June 2011 : Noah Cicero and Jordan Castro fly from Ohio to LA to film the movie Shoplifting from American Apparel . Jordan and Noah are on Adderall the entire time. Bebe Zeva shows up and smokes a few cigarettes. August 2011 : Stevie Nicks and Noah Cicero drive a car to Santa Fe, New Mexico.

The cicadas scare Stevie Nicks. They go to the Palace of the Governors, the oldest building in America. Apaches sell expensive goods on the street. Stevie Nicks and Noah Cicero paint a giant picture one night. March 2012 : Stevie Nicks and Noah Cicero go to Japan to teach ESL for one year. December 2012 : Stevie Nicks and Noah Cicero go to Cambodia for one week.

See Angkor Wat. There seems to be magic there, but their western minds have a hard time trying to understand it. March 2013 : Noah Cicero leaves Japan, goes back to America. April 2013 : Noah Ciceros mentor, an old bluegrass guitarist from Kentucky, dies from lung cancer. The old man, a few years earlier on Christmas, gave him a black Martin guitar. Noah Cicero brings the guitar with him everywhere.

April 2013 : Stevie Nicks leaves this reality and goes to an alternate Murakami-based reality with two moons. May 2013 : Noah Cicero flies to the Grand Canyon. At the Grand Canyon he hikes 90 miles. He sits among the desert pinyons and watches families of javelinas walk by. He meets an old Navajo woman. She teaches him a few words of Navajo.

September 2013 : Goes to Las Vegas for two weeks, then flies back to Ohio for two weeks. Stays at his parents house. He rides a bicycle around the old neighborhood. Noah Cicero and his friend Bernice, a 31-year-old woman who is a nurse and basically takes care of Noah Cicero, drive a 64-year-old woman, a 15-year-old boy named James, and two cats across America to Las Vegas in a rented Chrysler minivan. October 2013 : Noah Cicero lives in Las Vegas, cannot find a job. October 2013 : Chiungyi visits Las Vegas for 12 days.

They go to Zion National Park. November 2013 : Noah Ciceros friend Nicky visits from Santa Fe, New Mexico. They go to Valley of Fire State Park. December 2013 : Noah Cicero still has no job. He drinks every night listening to sad songs by George Jones on his adobe porch. No matter how much he drinks he cant forget her.

January 2014 : Noah Cicero and Bernice visit Death Valley. They walk into the Ubehebe where humans came from Coyotes basket. January 2014 : Noah Cicero moves to Scotts Mills, Oregon to live in an A-frame house in the forest on an old logging road. He spends most of his days alone walking the forest with a yellow labrador named Fin. He spends the days reading Bodhidharma and Chuang Tzu. March 2014 : Noah Cicero moves to Portland, Oregon for several weeks before suffering a total nervous breakdown and driving back to Las Vegas.

March 2014 : Returns to Las Vegas. Seeks medical help, gets on medication. April 2014 : There are no more transmissions from Stevie Nicks from the world of two moons. Noah Cicero tells himself she was eaten by an unknown creature living in the world of two moons. April/May 2014 : Noah Cicero writes this book of poetry. July 2014 : Noah Cicero lives in Las Vegas, feels peaceful.

He has direction, not a goal but a direction. He has a job and friends and he feels okay. Bebe Zeva somehow shows up at the end. Noah Cicero gives her this amazing shirt he bought in Cambodia. NOTE 1
This book of love poems says nothing about la condition humaine . It is intimate.

Do not try to look for life answers in this book of love poems. The universals are not here. Only the personals. NOTE 2 This book of poems is merely a moment, a feeling. That came from Noah Cicero in April/May 2014. By the time this book comes out, the Noah Cicero who wrote this book, wont exist.

Noah Cicero hopes this book will change him. Moon Head How did the moon get into your head? Why did you try to stick the earth in your head, did you need it all? Eating Alone After his girlfriend left, she told him it was over during a car ride to his parents house. He doesnt even remember what she said He felt so shocked by it, he didnt even notice. He just consented Now he makes two scrambled eggs instead of four. Now he doesnt order pizza. Theology This isnt an argument, I dont want to win or lose on ObamaCare or who caused the relationship to fail, of if mom you really loved me.

I am going to walk to the gas station, and on the way there, Im going to pick a leaf off a tree, and play with it, in my fingers. Proof of God I was in Oregon, and saw a place called Best Teriyaki. It seemed odd, so fucking unbelievable, that white people came and killed all the buffalo, wiped out or moved into tiny spaces all the Chinook people. Then a guy or woman from Japan, from a country doing great in terms of development, decided to come to Oregon, a forest where the sun hardly ever shines, where it rains rains rains and every white man has a beard, even if it makes him less handsome. And the Japanese person opens a business that has the Best Teriyaki on the Planet Earth. The very concept, the idea, the notion, the phenomenological existence of Best Teriyaki proved to me that the universe was truly weird, that anything could happen, because if the Best Teriyaki could be located inside a forest on the western edge of North America, anything could be possible.

A Way Somehow I dont know, at times, if you are really people, I know you are people, I mean, you arent walking on fours, and you wear clothes. (But sometimes, when youre naked, I dont know if you are human, and get confused, thats why I dont go to strip joints anymore, or have sex.) How did you all become people? How did you get so good at showing up on time for work, and doing what your manager says, how did you get so good at being detailed-oriented. There is an ad on Craigslist for a processor, that says, We are looking for someone seriously ready to start a career and care about the work they do every day. Seriously the ad doesnt even state what the company produces? How the fuck can you people care about some unknown something, will you even care after you get the job? How do you become a person? Usually, instead of trying to get a job, I listen to music on YouTube, instead of being a person, I try to become the notes of songs, the chord structure of Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow covered by Amy Winehouse, I want to become that song, I learn the song on guitar and strum it on my adobe porch thing, trying to become non-human, sometimes I try to become the taste of a Carls Jr. cheeseburger, I want to be that delicious, that bad for you. Sometimes I listen to Amitabha chants, Navajo chants, even old Kentucky Old Regular Baptists call out chants, I want to be a pure feeling, that may lead to heaven, but instead I am Noah Cicero, sometimes I scream, I cant be controlled, I cant be tamed, because I dont know what to be When you see a pronghorn antelope from your car, high up north in Nevada, by the Walker River Rez.