I would like to thank Juan Antonio Revilla for his clear thinking about the Lilith archetype and for sticking to his guns in the face of many who argue that the osculating apogee cannot be used to understand Lilith in birth charts. Finding his work on Lilith was refreshing and informative but his clear and simple argument that the erratic nature of the energy of Lilith is precisely why the osculating apogee should be used opened a door through which I was able to develop clarity about and begin to trust my instincts that the true Black Moon Lilith is important to use over the mean position. I also thank him for his time and energy dialoguing with me over e-mail as I asked questions and sought to work out some of the ideas contained in this text.
Lovers, family members, and many c lients over the last seven years brought me their Lilith stories, openly sharing their experiences and feelings about them. I am grateful to all of them for being willing to hear my telling of Liliths story and re-envision and reimagine Lilith in the spirit of getting to the truth and recovering a sense of wholeness when it comes to the natural, inner, wild feminine. I consider all of them partners with me in the culture- and patriarchy-busting required by honest work with Lilith.
Preface
The human experience on Earth is at present shifting. You might have heard this spoken of in many different ways, perhaps as the idea that time on Earth has sped up. Or maybe youve heard that the end of the Mayan Calendar is drawing near and when it does, life on Earth will never be the same.
However we have heard of these shifts, o ur capacity to adapt to them rests on our ability and willingness to feel. It rests on our openness to experience emotion, our natural emotive faculties. Our heart centers (4 th chakras) must be brought online as active participants in the roster of inner advisors any of us draws on to navigate the world. This calls for healing anything and everything that we carry in them as blocks, fears, and cautionary tales about the uses of the heart.
When we open our hearts consciously and with intention, whatever emotions we may be carrying in our bodies and fields have the opportunity to come to the surface. In some of us the imagery could be of removing the lid from a pressure cooker. In others it might be more of a slow rising of deep emotions from inner underground cellars. Whatever the speed and intensity, opening our hearts brings up old stuff and leaves us open to brace yourself feeling .
We of course feel all the time, and many of us do operate much of the time from our hearts. Yet the emotional stuff from the past that we carry (a.k.a. baggage) is stored as energy in our bodies. It takes up room in our systems, and it informs and guides how we view and react to the people and situations of our lives. While many of us do access our hearts on a regular basis, when we do so in a reactive mode (reacting to what is around us in terms of the pain we are carrying in us, or absorbing the pain of others) we are less than healthy.
The shift in consciousness that we have been experiencing on Earth, connected with the end of the Mayan Calendar in October 2011, asks that we release the past and live in the present completely and totally in the present moment. Were being invited to catch up to whats really going on right in front of us and stop replaying our old stories of what is probably going on or wishing intently for what wed rather were going on. This is a time of great change on the planet and for all life on it. The stage of evolution that is about to end both in terms of the evolution of individuals and the collective is one of exploring duality, of believing in what I call the myth of separateness. Just one example is that as a collective we do not know how to live comfortably with the fact that men and women have within them both masculine and feminine energies. The general Western cultural view that we have been dealing with and trying to figure out to heal in real ways requires that individuals be clearly categorized into one category or another. This is duality, and it will in time belong to our past.
The variety of portioning out of masculine and feminine energy in heterosexual, homosexual , and bisexual humans, as an example, throws unexpected monkey wrenches into the patriarchal systems edict that men are to be men and women are to be women. And thats just in sexual identity and expression. This requirement that everything be one or the other, black or white, affects all arenas of our lives. It enables social cohesion yet individuals who differ from the norm are left trying to find a place to belong, and there are many of us who are not quite the norm. The socially expected norm, in fact, is not the norm as far as humans actually experience themselves as energetic beings.
At the doorstep of the Aquarian Age, we find ourselves better able than ever in recorded history to connect with like-minded others and to create the families and communities th at suit us and meet our needs. Technology to support these connections abounds, and many can take advantage of exploding their social contexts and, as a result, their worldviews. Those who create such community reflect a determination to honor and live from within a connection to their true natures. To learn and accept our identity as spiritual beings having human experiences is whats waiting for those who let themselves change with the energies on the Earth at present.
Those who are shifting now are coming to understand in what ways they are spiritual beings. They are learning to identify as spirit having human experiences over the sum of their experiences. To do this they are seeking emotional healing, and many are looking for the right ways to go about it. Working with the emotional issues represented by Lilith can bring light to some of our deepest shadows, both individually and collectively. Doing this opens the door for a reconnection to ourselves-as-nature , and nature-as-us , a healing we desperately need after thousands of years of waging and suffering through the patriarchal war on the feminine as nature, both within and outside us.
More and more people are becoming willing to identify as who they feel they are, and not as the judgments and labels of others, not as who they have told they are or should be. This is an exciting time during which many are waking up to and deepening into themselves. More of us are rediscovering ourselves as spirit more and more quickly than ever. My feeling is that this end to our collective slumber will change the world for the better, and it is in part in that spirit that I offer this work.
Part of this shift to opening our hearts is what many are now calling a return to the feminine. When we are willing to feel the world around us instead of seeking to fashion it according to our desires we return to the feminine. We honor it. Similarly, we also return to the feminine when we listen to our bodies for the foods that they require instead of deciding what we should be eating when and why. We return to the feminine when we gaze at each other during lovemaking, when we allow our bodies to decide what happens when and why when we create intimate space together. The feminine is all around us all the time saturating us, even. The issue is not so much a return to the feminine as it is altering how we conceive of and open to experiencing it. It is, in other words, in our attitudes about the natural feminine and how it surrounds us.