Neal Stephenson - The Mongoliad: Book Three

The Shield-Brethren buried Finn on the hill where they had set up camp. It is not as grand as one of those burial mounds-the kurgans-we have seen, Raphael pointed out to Feronantus, but it has a view of where we came from, and the sun will always warm the ground. Given the choice, Finn had always preferred to sleep outside, where the sun could find him and warm his bones in the morning. Finn may not have been a sworn member of the Shield-Brethren, but he was a feral brother to many of them.

One by one the members of the Shield-Brethren attacked the rocky ground of the hilltop. Without coming out and saying as much, they all wanted to be the one to dig Finns grave, as if the backbreaking labor would somehow assuage their individual guilt. It was not that they valued Finn above their other fallen comrades-the loss of any brother was equally horrific-but each was racked with a sense of responsibility for the circumstances of the hunters death.

As he prepared Finns body for burial, Raphael tried not to let his thoughts dwell on other members of their company whom they had lost. Or even his own role in the deaths of those dear friends. With Veras assistance, he laid the small mans body on Percivals cloak-the knight refused to hear otherwise-and arranged Finns limbs as best he could. The stiffness that creeps into a mans body in the wake of death had filled Finn, and one of his arms resisted Raphaels efforts. His face, once it had been tenderly washed by Vera, was surprisingly boyish. Raphael felt the weight of his years when he saw the delicate lashes and the unlined swath of forehead clearly for the first time. Too young, he thought, to die so far from home.

And he realized how little he knew of Finn. How little any of them knew.

Wait, he said to Vera as she made to cover Finns face with Percivals cloak. He strode to his bags and dug out his worn journal and his writing instruments. With the sun peering over his shoulder, he sat and carefully sketched Finns face on a blank page. There will be a record, he promised his dead friend. You will not be forgotten.

As Raphael painstakingly tried to capture the essence of Finns character-an amalgamation of the peaceful features before him and those memories he had of more exuberant expressions-Vera busied herself with washing Finns feet and hands. The leather of his boots had been soft and supple once, but months and months of being in the wilderness had hardened the material into a second skin over Finns feet. She tugged at them briefly, and then gave up, opting to run a knife along the thin seams instead.

Strangely fastidious, she noted when she got to his hands. Raphael looked up from his sketching as she showed him Finns palms. Calloused, as expected, but surprisingly clean. The nails were long, but there was no dirt or filth beneath them.

The Binder, Cnan, approached, and with some interest examined Finns hands. Like a cat, she said, and Raphael nodded in agreement.

Theyre done with the grave, Cnan reported. Though, she snorted, I think Percival would like to keep digging.

Raphael nodded. Yes, I can imagine he would.

There had been very little conversation among the company since Alchiqs attack on Finn; the sudden shock of the Mongols assault had left them all wordless. But no words were necessary to comprehend Percivals grief at having fallen asleep at the watch.

Privately, Raphael thought it was more likely that the Frank had been captivated by an ecstatic vision-much like the one that had come over him in the forest shortly after the death of Taran and the knights horse. He tried to push the idea out of his thoughts though, because he did not want to face the dreadful conclusion that followed: illumination brought death to those nearby. What price was being exacted for the guidance the knight was receiving?

Vera indicated to Cnan that she should help with the wrapping of the dead. It is time, the Shield-Maiden said to Raphael, her stern eyes unusually soft. No amount of drawing will bring life back to this face.

Aye, Raphael agreed, and he set aside his tools. He lent a hand, and soon Finn was nothing more than a squat bundle.

The other Shield-Brethren came down from the hill and carefully carried the body to its final resting place. Without speaking, they lowered Finns corpse into the deep trough they had hacked out of the rocky hilltop. It was deep, Raphael noted. Deep enough that the body might never be disturbed by the carrion eaters.

Feronantus waved them off, and even Percival relented, letting their aged leader undertake the task of filling the hole by himself. They stood around awkwardly for a little while, watching Feronantus scoop and pack handfuls of sand and rock into the hole. Once a thick layer had been carefully laid over the body to protect it from being crushed during the burial process, Feronantus would shovel dirt in more readily. A cairn would be raised and words would be spoken, but until then, they had little to do but wait.

Death itself was always quick, Raphael reflected, staring off at the distant horizon. It is the survivors who feel pain the longest.

Wheres Istvan? Vera asked.

Raphael blinked away from his thoughts and scanned the surrounding countryside. I dont know, he said.

Chasing Graymane, Cnan offered, pointing toward the west.

Raphael vaguely recalled their pursuit of the Mongol commander after Finns death, the long line of horses strung out across the plain. One by one, their steeds had faltered, until only Istvan and Alchiq remained, two tiny dots dancing in the midmorning heat. He hasnt returned? he asked, caught between surprise and apprehension.

Cnan shook her head. I find myself hoping that he doesnt. At least, not today. She looked at Raphael and Vera, and they both saw their own pain mirrored in the Binders eyes. If he is still hunting, then he might still catch him. If he comes back, well know if he was successful or not.

Vera nodded. I dont want him to return empty-handed either. Better he not return at all.

None of us are going to return, Raphael thought as he turned and looked back at Finns slowly filling grave.

That night the company made no fire, and the stars wheeled dizzyingly overhead. The air grew cold quickly after the sun vanished in a burning haze of gold and red in the west. They hobbled their horses near a band of scraggly brush that the animals appeared to be interested in eating, and then they wandered off to make their respective preparations for sleep.

Raphael tried to make himself comfortable. The lush grasslands surrounding the river had given way to flatter terrain, and he found the sere landscape to be oddly distressing. The muscles in his lower back and thighs kept twitching, phantom fears that the ground would suddenly tilt and he would slide away. But slide away into what? They had passed beyond the edge of the world that he-or any of the Shield-Brethren-knew. His hands pressed against the blanket beneath him, pressing the wool against the hard ground.

His reaction was not a sign of madness; it was simply a reaction to the unfamiliar. Men were drawn to civilization; only the most severe ascetic among them relished isolation. Penitent hermits craved seclusion. Being away from the squalor of humanity was an integral part of their spiritual monasticism. They could talk more readily to God in the silence of their mountaintop cave or their desert isolation. It was easier to believe that the voice you heard responding to your queries issued from a divine trumpet if there were no other souls nearby.

But he was a soldier. He slept more soundly when surrounded by the sounds of men preparing for war. His mind was less prone to fearful speculation when he rested behind a stout battlement. Even the sounds of domesticated animals were a welcome lullaby: cows calling to one another in the pasture; the nervous clucking of chickens as they scratched in the yard; dogs, barking at shadows.