James Howard Kunstler
WORLD MADE BY HAND
To Sally Eckhoff Fabulous transcender of the mundane With love
Whom will you cry to, heart? More and more lonely,
your path struggles on through incomprehensible
mankind. All the more futile perhaps
for keeping its own direction,
keeping on toward the future,
toward what has been lost.
-Rilke
I am a pilgrim and a stranger
Traveling through this wearisome land
Ive got a home in that yonder city
And its not (good Lord its not) not made by hand
-American gospel song
Sometime in the not-distant future
Loren and I walked the railroad tracks along the river coming back from fishing the big pool under the old iron bridge, and I couldnt remember a lovelier evening before or after our world changed. Down by the rushing stream, banks of wild yellow irises shimmered in the twilight, and up in the vaulted corridor that the tracks cut through the trees, the mild June air was filled with twinkling green fireflies. Wed both been drinking some of Jane Anns wine.
It reminds me of Christmas at the mall, he said.
I dont miss the mall, I said. I miss a lot of things, but not that.
Do you think Im pathetic?
Youre obsessed with the old days.
Most of my life happened in the old days. Yours too, Robert.
It made me sad, but I didnt say so because the evening was so beautiful and that was something to be grateful for. Now and then, the fireflies pulsed in unison, mysteriously, as if they all agreed on something we humans didnt know about.
I wish I had a jar. Id catch some, Loren said. The fact that he was our minister and fifty-two years old had not diminished his boyish enthusiasm, which was one reason we were such close friends. He pulled out the bottle again, and polished off the dregs. Jane Ann, Lorens wife, made good wine, considering what we had to work with around here. She flavored this batch with sweet woodruff to round off the foxy roughness. When the bottle was empty Loren pretended to try to catch fireflies with it, but he was obviously just clowning around. Finally, he stuck the bottle in the back flap of his fishing vest to take home and reuse. We resumed walking the tracks.
Ive been thinking lately, he said.
Its not healthy to obsess about the past.
No, Ive got an idea.
Oh? Lets hear it.
We should start a laundry.
A laundry?
Yeah, a community laundry. A place where people bring their clothes and bedsheets and all, and they get washed there.
What about Mrs. Myles? I said. Lucy Myles was my neighbor. She took in quite a bit of other peoples washing.
She could work for us, Loren said.
Us?
Well, thats why Im telling you about this. Wed be partners.
I dont know the first thing about running a laundry.
No, your job is to help me start it up. Fix the building. Figure out the water system. Get the tubs going. Keep things running. You know how to do all that stuff.
Where do you think you would do this?
We can use the old Wayland-Union Mill building. The titles open, he said, meaning that the owners were known to be dead with no heirs and assigns, a common condition in these times. It would be useful for everybody. And we could make a little honest profit too.
What do you do with the dirty water?
Into the river, he said.
Its got soap in it.
Its just gray water. Itll go downstream to the Hudson.
Thats not right.
Its below where we fish. And mostly from town. Its just soapy water.
Thats a hell of an attitude.
Dont get all environmental with me, he said.
I wouldnt dump soapy water in the river.
It wouldnt affect anything.
I wouldnt be so sure.
Youre being an asshole.
Nice talk, Reverend.
Ive been thinking about this for a long time.
Maybe you should think about it longer.
Condescending prick.
Vulgarian.
Nabob of negativism.
I let him have the last word. It was always better that way with Loren. He could keep it up forever. We walked a ways more, enjoying the silence and the fireflies.
Nabob of negativism? I said. Whered you get that one?
Spiro T. Agnew.
Who was he?
Vice president under Nixon.
Oh? I dont remember Nixon too well.
Agnew used to call news reporters nattering nabobs of negativism.
He wouldnt be able to say that nowadays, would he?
No, hed have to call them nabobs of nothingness, Loren said and laughed at his own joke. I guess I didnt think it was that funny, since we didnt have news reporters anymore and you barely knew what was going on five miles away. Hey, look, he said. Give this laundry idea a chance. It would be good for the community. Try not to be negative.
Im not negative.
Contrary then.
Im not contrary.
You should hear yourself.
Eventually the train tracks crossed over Lovell Road, and we got off them there while the road took us across the river on a steel and concrete bridge that was falling to pieces now. It had been years since the state of New York repaired any of these things. There were big holes in the deck you could see clear through. Another couple of spring floods and it might be swept away altogether. On the far bank stood an old hydroelectric station, or the brick shell of one.. An inscription in the masonry lintel over the door said it was built in 1919. The big power company, Niagara Mohawk, closed down all these little generating plants in the 1960s because they were supposedly inefficient. Nothing was left but the walls and part of the roof. The turbines and metal parts had long since been sold for scrap and every other useful thing was scavenged out. We couldnt replace them anymore. It was too bad because it might have lit up our whole town. Anyway, the little dam there had been breeched, and rebuilding that would have been more than our community could manage. I dont know if anybody would even have known how to do it. It was chilling to reflect on how well the world used to work and how much wed lost.
We stopped halfway across the bridge in the lovely pink light that remained of the long June day and peered down to the water. Scores of big trout finned in the current beside the crumbling bridge abutment. A nice hatch of cream-colored mayflies fluttered off the water and mingled with the fireflies. The swift little mud swallows that nested under the bridge did an aerial ballet through it, gorging themselves. Plenty of mayflies would still get away for their one ecstatic night of reproducing in the treetops. They would return to the river to die the next morning. It was called the spinner fall. Theyd been doing it for millions of years before we showed up.
Want to go down and try some? I said.
My creel is full, Loren said.
We could put back what we catch.
Ive fished enough tonight, Robert.
Okay, lets go home.
It was about a three-mile walk home to Union Grove. In the old days, youd drive it, of course, but now you walked. I didnt mind. I enjoyed the peacefulness and easy pace of the walk. In a car, I remembered, you generally noticed only what was in your head or on the radio, while the landscape itself seemed dead, or at least irrelevant. Walking, it was impossible to not pay attention. On a mild luminous evening like this, the landscape came alive. The crickets had started up. In the distance a last glimmer of sun caught the top of Pumpkin Hill where men were still out mowing the first hay crop on the Deaver farm. You could hear their horses from down where we were, and someone was singing while he worked. Washington County is a terrain of gentle hills and close valleys that grows more rugged as you get east over toward the Vermont border, where the Green Mountains begin in earnest. In the early twenty-first century, farming had all but died out here. We got our food from the supermarket, and not everybody cared where the supermarket got it as long as it was there on the shelves. A few elderly dairymen hung on. Many let their fields and pastures go to scrub. Some sold out to what used to be called developers, and theyd put in five or ten poorly built houses. Now, in the new times, there were far fewer people, and many of the houses outside town were being taken down for their materials. Farming was back. That was the only way we got food. Ben Deaver employed at least twenty men from town on his farm. You could smell the horses down where we were on the bridge. Sometimes the whole world smelled of horse. It was my fond wish to own one some day.