Mickey Spillane - Everybody's Watching Me

Mickey Spillane

EVERYBODYS WATCHING ME

First Published in Manhunt in 1953

The killers were afraid of Vetter, and their fear made them anxious to hunt him down and kill him. But how do you hunt a man nobodys ever seen?

Chapter 1

I handed the guy the note and shivered a little bit because the guy was as big as they come, and even though he had a belly you couldnt get your arms around, you wouldnt want to be the one who figured you could sink your fist in it. The belly was as hard as the rest of him, but not quite as hard as his face.

Then I knew how hard the back of his hand was because he smashed it across my jaw and I could taste the blood where my teeth bit into my cheek.

Maybe the guy holding my arm knew I couldnt talk because he said, A guy give him a fin to bring it, boss. He said that.

Who, kid?

I spit the blood out easy so it dribbled down my chin instead of going on the floor. Gee, Mr. Renzo

His hand made a dull, soggy crack on my skin. The buzz got louder in my ears and there was a jagged, pounding pain in my skull.

Maybe you didnt hear me the first time, kid. I said who.

The hand let go my arm and I slumped to the floor. I didnt want to, but I had to. There were no legs under me any more. My eyes were open, conscious of only the movement of ponderous things that got closer. Things that moved quickly and seemed to dent my side without causing any feeling at all.

That other voice said, Hes out, boss. He aint saying a thing.

Ill make him talk.

Wont help none. So a guy gives him a fin to bring the note. Hes not going into a song and dance with it. To the kid a fins a lot of dough. He watches the fin and not the guy.

Youre getting too damn bright, Renzo said.

Thats what you pay me for being, boss.

Then act bright. You think a guy hands a note like this to some kid? Any kid at all? You think a kids gonna bull in here to deliver it when he can chuck it down a drain and take off with the fin?

So the kids got morals.

So the kid knows the guy or the guy knows him. He aint letting no kid get away with his fin. The feet moved away from me, propped themselves against the dark blur of the desk. You read this thing? Renzo asked.

No.

Listen then. Cooley is dead. Now my fine fat louse, Im going to spill your guts all over your own floor. Renzos voice droned to a stop. He sucked hard on the cigar and said, Its signed, Vetter.

You could hear the unspoken words in the silence. That hush that comes when the name was mentioned and the others half-whispered Son of a bitch they were buddies, boss?

Who cares? If that crumb shows his face around here, Ill break his lousy back. Vetter, Vetter, Vetter. Everyplace you go that crumbs name you hear.

Boss, look. You dont want to tangle with that guy. Hes killed plenty of guys. Hes

Hes different from me? You think hes a hard guy?

You ask around, boss. Theyll tell you. That guy dont give a damn for nobody. Hell kill you for looking at him.

Maybe in his own back yard he will. Not here, Johnny, not here. This is my city and my back yard. Here things go my way and Vetterll get what Cooley got. He sucked on the cigar again and I began to smell the smoke. Guys what pull a fastie on me get killed. Now Cooley dont work my tables for no more smart plays. Pretty soon the cops can take Vetter off their list because he wont be around no more either.

You going to take him, boss? Johnny said.

What do you think?

Anything you say, boss. Ill pass the word around. Somebodyll know what he looks like andll finger him. He paused, then, What about the kid?

Hes our finger, Johnny.

Him?

You aint so bright as I thought. You should get your ears to the ground more. You should hear things about Vetter. He pays off for favors. The errand was worth a fin, but hes gonna look in to make sure the letter got here. Then he spots the kid for his busted up face. First time he makes contact we got him. You know what, Johnnie? To Vetter Im going to do things slow. When they find him the cops get all excited but they dont do nothing. Theyre glad to see Vetter dead. But other places the word gets around, see? Anybody can bump Vetter gets to be pretty big and nobody pulls any more smart ones. You understand, Johnny?

Sure, boss. I get it. Youre going to do it yourself?

Just me, kid, just me. Like Helen says I got a passion to do something myself and I just got to do it. Vetters for me. He better be plenty big, plenty fast and ready to start shooting the second we meet up.

It was like when Pop used to say hed do something and we knew hed do it sure. You look at him with your face showing the awe a kid gets when he knows fear and respect at the same time and thats how Johnny must have been looking at Renzo. I knew it because it was in his voice too when he said, Youll do it, boss. Youll own this town lock, stock and gun butt yet.

I own it now, Johnny. Never forget it. Now wake that kid up. This time I had feeling and it hurt. The hand that slapped the full vision back to my eyes started the blood running in my mouth again and I could feel my lungs choking on a sob.

What was he like, kid? The hand came down again and this time Renzo took a step forward. His fingers grabbed my coat and jerked me off the floor.

You got asked a question. What was he like?

He wasbig, I said. The damn slob choked me again and I wanted to break something over his head.

How big?

Like you. Biggern six. Heavy.

Renzos mouth twisted into a sneer and he grinned at me. More. What was his face like?

I dont know. It was dark. I couldnt see him good.

He threw me. Right across the room he threw me and my back smashed the wall and twisted and I could feel the tears rolling down my face from the pain.

You dont lie to Renzo, kid. If you was older and bigger Id break you up into little pieces until you talked. It aint worth a fin. Now you start telling me what I want to hear and maybe Ill slip you something.

II dont know. Honest, Iif I saw him again itd be different. The pain caught me again and I had to gag back my voice.

Youd know him again?

Yes.

Johnny said, Whats your name, kid?

JoeBoyle.

Where do you live? It was Renzo this time.

Gidney Street, I told him. Number three.

You work?

Gordons. Ipush.

Whatd he say? Renzos voice had a nasty tone to it.

Gordons a junkie, Johnny said for me. Has a place on River Street. The kid pushes a cart for him collecting metal scraps.

Check on it, Renzo said, then stick with him. You know what to do.

He wont get away, boss. Hell be around whenever we want him. You think Vetter will do what you say?

Dont things always happen like I say? Now get him out of here. Go over him again so hell know we mean what we say. That was a lousy fin he worked for.

After things hurt so much they begin to stop hurting completely. I could feel the way I went through the air, knew my foot hit the railing and could taste the cinders that ground in my mouth. I lay there like I was pressed out, waiting for the pain to come swelling back, making sounds I didnt want to make. My stomach wanted to break loose but couldnt find the strength and I just lay there cursing guys like Renzo who could do anything they wanted and get away with it.

Then the darkness came, went away briefly and came back again. When it lost itself in the dawn of agony there were hands brushing the dirt from my face and the smell of flowers from the softness that was a woman who held me and said, You poor kid, you poor kid.

My eyes opened and looked at her. It was like something you dream about because she was the kind of woman you always stare at, knowing you cant have. She was beautiful, with yellow hair that tumbled down her neck like a torch that lit up her whole body. Her name was Helen Troy and I wanted to say, Hello, Helen, but couldnt get the words out of my mouth.