If the garden has taught me anything, its that you cannot hurry time. A seed will sprout and flower and fruit all on its own schedule (greenhouses notwithstanding). A story, however, must sometimes be condensedas this one has been. The timeline has been shortened, and, in some cases, names have been changed.
A memoir is, at heart, a work of memoryand memory is subjective. No two people experiencing the same event will remember it the same. This story is true to my memory, but anyone else who was there would tell it differently. This is what I experienced, this is how it was for me.
A PLACE TO GROW
I HADNT EXPECTED MUCH from the house. Looking back now, the details run together: ugly brown-and-orange carpet, windows turned cloudy where seals had failed. The stains on the wood floors, we were told, came from pet urine. Each room rolled out, one after another, a parade of awfulness. But it wasnt the house that I wanted to see.
It was the gardenhalf an acre, sloping long and narrow down the hill to a high wall of blackberries in the distance. We burst out of the dank house into generous sunlight, my nieces running ahead, past a small cottage locked up tight.
Time seemed to stop. Thorny vines snaked over rhododendrons towering tall above our heads. It was so quiet. The workday world lay elsewhere, far from this neglected garden. The grown-ups laughed in delight at this secret place we had discovered, improbable and unexpected.
The girls, small, blond creatures in sundresses, ran down the hill, their shouts ringing out. When they returned their faces were streaked purple from berry juice, arms filled with ripe Asian pears. Look, they cried. Look what we found.
I did lookat sun-dried grass crunchy underfoot, at fruit trees drowning in vines and weed-strewn flower beds. Years of neglect had backed up on this place, overcome it like a wave, wiping out any order. Nature was reclaiming what had always been hers.
And yet, it felt magical. As the sun beat down on my shoulders, as my nieces laughter floated up to the house that crouched atop the hill, I smiled. This, I thought, would be a good place to grow.
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STOLEN BERRIES
T HE DAY AFTER WE saw the house with the real estate agent, my mother convinced me to go back, to break into the garden to pick those luscious blackberries. There was a solid stripe on the dry lawn where the berries were falling to the ground and staining the grass purple, unpicked and uneaten.
What if someone catches us? I was nervous. The house was on the market; it was a weekend; we would, technically, be stealing. My mother was unmoved. She has always been bolder than me.
No one is going to catch usand those berries are just going to waste.
If there is one thing my mother hates, its wasted food. Her childhood taught her there is always someone who is hungry. We grabbed six large plastic containers and a bag to carry them in and made our way to the garden.
The house had been on the market for a year, uninhabited all that time. Large PRIVATE PROPERTY NO TRESPASSING signs hung on each of the tall wooden gates. The first we tried wouldnt open. Through the slats of the fence, I glimpsed the heavy padlock keeping it shut. For a moment it seemed our expedition would fail.
This would have been more comfortable for meno risk of discovery, no getting in trouble, but also no berries. Peering on tiptoes over the tall wooden fence at the weedy backyard, I could see laden vines in the distance.
The second gate, on the south side of the house, was unlocked. Trying to ignore the angry red letters of the warning sign, I swung the sturdy door open, and we entered the garden.
The grass, mowed short and dry from the late summer sun, stretched from the house down the hill. On either side of the lawn, blackberries hung on vines that had engulfed whatever lay beneath them. The slightest shake or tug and they tumbled into our outstretched hands. The house was uninhabited, the garden fenced; no one had been there to pick. My mother and I looked at each other and grinned.
In a lifetime of picking blackberries, these were the largest I had ever seen. They plunked into our containers with a deep and satisfying thud, tasting like childhood, like summer condensed and made sweet. The sun warmed our backs as we fell into the slow rhythmic pace of picking.