In memory of my dad, Thomas Ramsaur Smith Jr.
Governor. Stop. Its over, the voice broke through on the conference call line.
Six months earlier, it would have been inconceivable that anyone, let alone a mere political consultant, would cut off the most high-profile, fearsome, and feared state chief executive in the country.
It was Andrew Cuomo who was talking, after all. He was eleven years into his reign at the top of the Empire State, and just one year removed from becoming a national phenomenon for his masterful, made-for-TV COVID briefings, which offered comfort to people amidst the isolation, confusion, and trauma of a global pandemic.
But on August 3, 2021whether he was willing to accept it or nothe was a dead man walking. That morning, the Attorney General of New York released a bombshell report that concluded that hed broken state law by sexually harassing women staffers in his administration.
Whats over? Cuomo responded.
This. All of this. This is over. There is no path forward for you, the adviser responded.
Its over because I touched a woman on the back? Cuomo shot back incredulously, his voice rising with a pitched tone of panic.
The adviser, someone not prone to hyperbole or challenging the governor unnecessarily, didnt mince words.
It was more than touching a woman on the back. Dont bullshit yourself or us. If I, a man, were accused of doing any of the things you were, I would be out of a job by now.
Silence.
So, youre telling me I dont fight back? I dont do a press conference? Why dont I just resign then?
Silence.
Lis, Cuomo started in his halting, Queens-inflected cadence, what do you think?
He was looking for a sympathetic voice, as he often did on calls. He had a knack for finding people who could agree with even his worst instincts. I paused before I answered.
It had taken me seventeen yearsand twenty campaignsto claw my way up the political ladder and go from a lowly field organizer to one of the top communications aides in the Democratic Party. Presidents? Worked for one. Senators and members of Congress? Worked for a few. Governors? Worked for many. Most recently, Id served as a senior adviser on Pete Buttigiegs against-all-odds presidential campaign, where hed defied conventional wisdom, won the Iowa caucuses, and become one of the Democratic Partys biggest stars. My star had risen as well.
Id had an on-off professional relationship with Cuomo for the past three years, starting with his 2018 campaign, where I served as spokesperson and ran his debate prep. I reconnected with him at the beginning of COVIDs onslaught on New York in March of 2020, when hed call me for thoughts on his daily briefings. Now I was a part of his kitchen cabinetthe group of trusted, unofficial advisersthat he was relying on to help him weather the allegations of sexual harassment.
While Cuomo was notoriously tough on staff, he engendered a remarkable amount of loyalty in the people around him. Yes, he could be irrational and impetuous at times, but he matched that with a deep interpersonal warmthshowing up at weddings, bar/bat mitzvahs, and funerals. He always took the time to call staffers dealing with loss and personal hardships. Hed also been a formidable governorthe likes of which New York hadnt seen in decades. Hed managed to get the unruly state legislature under control and achieve some big things.
The last several months had tested that loyalty, as it became increasingly clear that Cuomo wasnt being straight with any of usmyself included. Hed led us down a path of defending him against claims of sexual harassment without giving us the full truth. We felt betrayed and misled.
Governor, Id like to disagree, I told him. But I just dont see a way out of this.
In the moment, I meant it as much for him as for me.
You always remember your first.
I started college less than a year after the Supreme Court hijacked the 2000 election. Their decision left half the country (myself included) extremely pissed off at the new commander in chief.
Ten months later and ten days before Id set foot on Dartmouths Hanover, New Hampshire, campus, I watched two different Boeing commercial airliners crash into the World Trade Center, reducing the Twin Towers to ash. For a brief moment, the anger over Bush v. Gore evaporated, and President George W. Bush rallied the American people to unite against the threat of global terrorism.
Like a lot of other kids in my generationthose two seemingly once-in-a-lifetime events (happening in the span of one year, no less) nudged me into the world of public service. It wasnt the hardest sell for meever since Id seen The War Roomthe behind-the-scenes documentary about the 1992 Clinton campaign, Id had an itch to work in politics. The 2004 presidential race scratched that itch.
In a normal world, Id have followed my parents footsteps into the legal field, where my father had an especially distinguished careerand I still could. But nothing about the world felt normal anymore. The low stakes of peace and prosperity 1990s were gonethe politics of the 2000s felt like some life-and-death shit.
I settled on my 2004 candidate early: Senator John Edwards from North Carolina. Id done some research and read a series of national profiles; Nicholas Lemann described him in the New Yorker as a rollicking, full-throated, us-against-them populist. His Two Americas campaign theme drew me in immediately with its echoes of Bobby Kennedy.
Also, lets be real: his superficial appeal was an undeniable factor. He was youngish and vibrant, with the shiniest light brown hair youd ever seen. Years of work as a courtroom star translated well on the Senate floor and campaign trail: he knew how to craft an argument, reel you in, and leave you with no other option but to side with him. With his pronounced Carolina drawl, he drew out his vowels irresistibly: Eye-o-wah, ahhh bah-LEEEEVE in youuuu.
In March 2003, between my winter and spring terms at college, I dragged my parents down to DC to get an up-close look at my candidate. After he was elected to the Senate in 1998, Edwardss staff had developed a simple but effective political ploy: whenever the Senate was in session, hed hold weekly, freewheeling sessions with constituents that his office dubbed Tar Heel Thursdays.
Technically, I was cheating a little bit. I was a New York native enrolled at college in New Hampshire. But my dads status as a born-and-bred Tar Heel got us in the door. Looking back, Im a little surprised that my parents agreed to make the four-hour drive to Washington, but they were always supportive of the interests of their four children. And I think they were a little curious themselves. Maybe this guy could be the one?
It was a smallish crowd that day, thirty people tops. After Edwards gave a spiel about the legislation he was working on and answered questions, I made my pitch to him: I want to run a student group for you at Dartmouth if you run for president. I pressed my email on his staff and got their cards.
A few weeks later, having joined forces with a couple dozen students and been elected co-president of Dartmouth Students for Edwards, I followed up with his staff to request a campus visit. I was annoyingly persistent. But heres the thing about being annoying (and persistent): sometimes it pays off. Less than a month after Edwards officially announced his presidential campaign in September 2003, he came to Hanover. I marked the occasion with my first ever op-ed in The Dartmouth: Why Sen. Edwards Is the Answer. I wrote about his fresh and innovative vision and uncanny ability to relate to common-folk America. Its hard not to cringe, looking back at my earnest twenty-year-old self.