Edwidge Danticat - The Dew Breaker

Copyright 2004 by Edwidge Danticat

My father is gone. Im slouched in a cast-aluminum chair across from two men, one the manager of the hotel where were staying and the other a policeman. Theyre both waiting for me to explain whats become of him, my father.

The hotel manager-MR. FLAVIO SALINAS, the plaque on his office door reads-has the most striking pair of chartreuse eyes Ive ever seen on a man with an island Spanish lilt to his voice.

The police officer, Officer Bo, is a baby-faced, short, white Floridian with a potbelly.

Where are you and your daddy from, Ms. Bienaim? Officer Bo asks, doing the best he can with my last name. He does such a lousy job that, even though he and I and Salinas are the only people in Salinas office, at first I think hes talking to someone else.

I was born and raised in East Flatbush, Brooklyn, and have never even been to my parents birthplace. Still, I answer Haiti because it is one more thing Ive always longed to have in common with my parents.

Officer Bo plows forward with, You all the way down here in Lakeland from Haiti?

We live in New York, I say. We were on our way to Tampa.

To do what? Officer Bo continues. Visit?

To deliver a sculpture, I say. Im an artist, a sculptor.

Im really not an artist, not in the way Id like to be. Im more of an obsessive wood-carver with a single subject thus far-my father.

My creative eye finds Manager Salinas office gaudy. The walls are covered with orange-and-green wallpaper, briefly interrupted by a giant gold leaf-bordered print of a Victorian cottage that resembles the building were in.

Patting his light green tie, which brings out even more the hallucinatory shade of his eyes, Manager Salinas reassuringly tells me, Officer Bo and I will do our best.

We start out with a brief description of my father: Sixty-five, five feet eight inches, one hundred and eighty pounds, with a widows peak, thinning salt-and-pepper hair, and velvet-brown eyes-

Velvet? Officer Bo interrupts.

Deep brown, same color as his complexion, I explain.

My father has had partial frontal dentures since he fell off his and my mothers bed and landed on his face ten years ago when he was having one of his prison nightmares. I mention that too. Just the dentures, not the nightmares. I also bring up the blunt, ropelike scar that runs from my fathers right cheek down to the corner of his mouth, the only visible reminder of the year he spent in prison in Haiti.

Please dont be offended by what Im about to ask, Officer Bo says. I deal with an older population here, and this is something that comes up a lot when they go missing. Does your daddy have any kind of mental illness, senility?

I reply, No, hes not senile.

You have any pictures of your daddy? Officer Bo asks.

My father has never liked having his picture taken. We have only a few of him at home, some awkward shots at my different school graduations, with him standing between my mother and me, his hand covering his scar. I had hoped to take some pictures of him on this trip, but he hadnt let me. At one of the rest stops I bought a disposable camera and pointed it at him anyway. As usual, he protested, covering his face with both hands like a little boy protecting his cheeks from a slap. He didnt want any more pictures taken of him for the rest of his life, he said, he was feeling too ugly.

Thats too bad, Officer Bo offers at the end of my too lengthy explanation. He speaks English, your daddy? Can he ask for directions, et cetera?

Yes, I say.

Is there anything that might make your father run away from you, particularly here in Lakeland? Manager Salinas asks. Did you two have a fight?

I had never tried to tell my fathers story in words before now, but my first completed sculpture of him was the reason for our trip: a three-foot mahogany figure of my father naked, kneeling on a half-foot-square base, his back arched like the curve of a crescent moon, his downcast eyes fixed on his very long fingers and the large palms of his hands. It was hardly revolutionary, rough and not too detailed, minimalist at best, but it was my favorite of all my attempted representations of my father. It was the way I had imagined him in prison.

The last time I had seen my father? The previous night, before falling asleep. When we pulled our rental car into the hotels hedge-bordered parking lot, it was almost midnight. All the restaurants in the area were closed. There was nothing to do but shower and go to bed.

Its like paradise here, my father had said when hed seen our tiny room. It had the same orange-and-green wallpaper as Salinas office, and the plush emerald carpet matched the walls. Look, Ka, he said, his deep, raspy voice muted with exhaustion, the carpet is like grass under our feet.

Hed picked the bed closest to the bathroom, removed the top of his gray jogging suit, and unpacked his toiletries. Soon after, I heard him humming loudly, as he always did, in the shower.

I checked on the sculpture, just felt it a little bit through the bubble padding and carton wrapping to make sure it was still whole. Id used a piece of mahogany that was naturally flawed, with a few superficial cracks along what was now the back. Id thought these cracks beautiful and had made no effort to sand or polish them away, as they seemed like the woods own scars, like the one my father had on his face. But I was also a little worried about the cracks. Would they seem amateurish and unintentional, like a mistake? Could the wood come apart with simple movements or with age? Would the client be satisfied?

I closed my eyes and tried to picture the client to whom I was delivering the sculpture: Gabrielle Fonteneau, a Haitian American woman about my age, the star of a popular television series and an avid art collector. My friend Cline Benoit, a former colleague at the junior high school where Im a substitute art teacher, had grown up with Gabrielle Fonteneau in Tampa and, at my request, on a holiday visit home had shown Gabrielle Fonteneau a snapshot of my Father piece and had persuaded her to buy it.

Gabrielle Fonteneau was spending the week away from Hollywood at her parents house in Tampa. I took some time off, and both my mother and I figured that my father, who watched a lot of television, both at home and at his Nostrand Avenue barbershop, would enjoy meeting Gabrielle Fonteneau too. But when I woke up, my father was gone and so was the sculpture.

I stepped out of the room and onto the balcony overlooking the parking lot. It was a hot and muggy morning, the humid air laden with the smell of the freshly mowed tropical grass and sprinkler-showered hibiscus bordering the parking lot. My rental car too was gone. I hoped my father was driving around trying to find us some breakfast and would explain when he got back why hed taken the sculpture with him, so I got dressed and waited. I watched a half hour of local morning news, smoked five mentholated cigarettes even though we were in a nonsmoking room, and waited some more.

All that waiting took two hours, and I felt guilty for having held back so long before going to the front desk to ask, Have you seen my father?

I feel Officer Bos fingers gently stroking my wrist, perhaps to tell me to stop talking. Up close Officer Bo smells like fried eggs and gasoline, like breakfast at the Amoco.

Ill put the word out with the other boys, he says. Salinas here will be in his office. Why dont you go on back to your hotel room in case your daddy shows up there?