Gilbert Sorrentino - A Strange Commonplace

AFTER HER HUSBAND LEFT HER FOR SOME FLOOZIE WHO was supposed to be an executive secretary at the crummy half-assed company hed worked at for years without a raise or even so much as a bottle of cheap whiskey at Christmas, she packed up a few things, took the girl, and moved in with her cousin Janet on Gerritsen Avenue. Shed get the rest of her things after her father had spoken with the rat about his plans for taking his clothes out of the house: she didnt ever want to see his face again. She should have known that something was going on when he took to wearing a ridiculous homburg instead of his usual fedora. Shed laughed at the hat and hed blushed and then got angry. Now that she thought back on this she realized that the tramp must have said something about how distinguished hed look in a homburg, and the damn fool went to the haberdashery, probably the Owl Mens Shop, where the kike told him he could be a banker in a hat like that. Happy as a clam. After a couple of weeks, she went back to the house to pack a suitcase with some of her toiletries, and found a note from him on the kitchen table, pinned under a bottle of Worcestershire sauce. Dear Sweetheart, Ive made a great mistake but I love you only, you, can you forgive me? Please call me at Ralphs or leave a message with him for a time I can talk to you. I love you, and want our marriage to last more than you can know. She put the letter in her handbag, went upstairs to their bedroom, and opened a drawer in her dresser. In among her lingerie and stockings she found his white silk scarf, the one with the blue polka dots that shed always liked so much. She startled herself by laughing convulsively, then threw the scarf on the floor and stepped on it. The son of a bitch bastard son of a bitch.

AT THE WHITE-WINE BOOK PARTY, AN EVENT HIS NERVOUS publisher had never even begun to conceive of as a portent of his memoirs surprising and modest but somewhat hysterical celebrity, he bumped into Napoleon, a bro, as the cant of the day momentarily had it, who had been one of his drug suppliers in his high school days. Napoleon was quite different now, dressed in a dark, conservatively cut suit, and an elegant tie against a gleaming white shirt. He thought to say how far theyd come from the old days, but realized how jejune such a remark would be and kept still. Napoleons card announced him as an Entertainment Consultant, and listed addresses in both Chelsea and Williamsburg. They laughed and postured, the usual half-true stories were hauled out, and Napoleons wife, Claire, smiled brilliantly in her role as ignorant but pleased outsider. She was an arrestingly beautiful young woman, whom the memoirist immediately decided to pursue; his pursuit of her led to a sexual encounter some weeks later, then another, and soon they were lovers. According to Claire, Napoleon was not interested in her comings and goings, and had other girls. This fact, true or not, somewhat tarnished the exoticism of the affair for the memoirist, and he felt on the cusp of boredom. One day, Claire, pale and nervous and chain-smoking the execrable Gitanes that sex had instructed him to tolerate, told him that shed been diagnosed with multiple myeloma. He comforted her with assorted clichs, held her tenderly, fucked her with what he was certain was sensitive caring, and sent her home with a stricken yet deeply compassionate look on his face: sadness beyond words, of course. That was that! He had, after all, literary responsibilities, publicity tasks to honor, people to talk to and cultivate, too many things to do to permit this exhausted intrigue to continue. She might want sympathy or understanding or whatever it is that the incurably sick want. Well, she was married. He stopped calling her, and did not acknowledge the messages she left on his answering machine. That, indeed, was that. She died less than a year later, while he was in Los Angeles, where he had moved to further his romantically stalled career, as he probably liked to think of it.

CLAUDIA, AS SHE HAD TAKEN TO CALLING HERSELF THESE past five years, came in from her supper at the Parisian diner at about six oclock, as usual. Shed had a hot brisket sandwich and a small salad and theyd refilled her iced tea free of charge; she was a good customer. She double-locked the door and slid the chain on, then hung up her coat. She took off her dress and slip and laid them carefully over the back of a chair, put on her pink chenille bathrobe, placed her flats in the back of the closet and slipped her feet into worn corduroy slippers. The apartment was silent, save for the thin clanking of the two radiators that warmed the small rooms. The letter from Warren that had come a week before lay on the kitchen table. She hadnt opened it, nor would she, of course, and in a week or two, or maybe a month or even longer, shed throw it away unread. There was something satisfyingly insulting and contemptuous about ignoring the letter. It would be, she knew, just like the others from the pig those that she, like a fool, bothered to read maudlin and self-pitying, filled with regrets and sentimental clichs about the sacredness of marriage and love and the gift of children from a loving God; about being together through thick and thin, about, God help us, their honeymoon even, which had become sacred. Hed have the gall, certainly he would, to mention their daughter, her daughter, pretending bitter guilt and deep remorse and talking about Jesus and salvation and being born again: enough goddamned sanctimonious evangelical Christian bullshit and broken glass, as her grandfather would say, to make a decent human being blush. She had never thought, never, that shed hate anyone as much as she hated Warren, and she often smiled sourly to herself when she acknowledged the fact that she had permitted her hatred to ruin, utterly, what was left of her life. And Warren, with his disgusting Jesus this and Jesus that, his whining, falsely joyous Christian idiocies, had arranged his putrid life so that his past, if not virtually obliterated, was even better redeemed. He was the fake grateful recipient of a fake grace. Claudia thought that any God worth a nickel even Warrens loathsome creeping Jesus should have mercilessly destroyed him with disease and agony and poverty. Should have killed him! It was dark in the apartment now, and she rose, quite abruptly, to walk to her small dresser and open the bottom drawer, where she kept the lingerie that shed never wear again, not that it would fit her now. She had hidden there, although hidden from what she had no idea, an old tattered book, wrapped in the white chemise shed worn on her wedding day, her sad and dark wedding day. She opened the book at random, and read: For a moment Bomba was so taken aback by the sight of the jaguar that he did not stir. She closed the book and wrapped the chemise around it, then stood staring at the window, black with night. One of these evenings shed read the whole book through, as she hadnt done in at least twenty years, more like twenty-five, and allow her heart to break completely. Then it would be the right time to take the pills shed been hoarding. Maybe shed bump into Jesus and tell him what she thought of him and give him a good one on his other goddamned cheek.

FOR ALMOST FORTY YEARS NOW IVE KNOWN A WOMAN whose husband, almost that many years ago, was utterly crazy about the phrase, I realize, dates me a younger friend of hers, whom he thought unimpeachably beautiful; often, upon meeting her, he would quote Marlowes lines on Helen in