Graham Swift - England and Other Stories

CHARLIE YATES IS a small compact man with the look such men can have of inhabiting well their own modest proportions. Hed been less at ease, once, with his name. Charles Yates, the proper version, the name he had to write on forms, was a toffs name, a joke name. What had his parents been thinking? But Charlie was a joke name too, a jokers name. A right Charlie. Still, he couldnt wriggle out of it. Charlie Yates. No one else seemed to mind.

Hes fifty-seven now. Hes not quite sure how its happened. He was born in Wapping in 1951. The Wapping he can remember from back then was still pretty much the Wapping that Hitler had flattened. Look at it now.

He can look at it now because more than twenty years ago he and Brenda moved to Blackheath. Not very far as the crow flies, but in other ways a different country. Theyd made the move because they could. Theyd gone up in the world. And Don Abbot and Marion had made the same move at the same time. Don and Charlie were old pals and business partners. Bren and Marion got on with each other too.

Now at fifty-seven Charlie likes to keep himself in shape. He likes on crisp bright still-early Sunday mornings to take a jog. Not such a short one either: across the heath itself and into Greenwich Park, then through the trees to the brow of the hill where you get the view. Then he likes to sit for a bit on one of the benches and take it all in. My city, my London. Hes sitting there now.

Jogging isnt his friend Dons idea of how to spend the early part, or any part, of a Sunday morning, even a brilliant crisp one like this, so Charlie has never jogged with Don. He jogs alone. But every other Sunday, even after Charlie has already gone for a jog, Don and Charlie meet up and go and play nine holes. At Shooters Hill or Eltham, even sometimes, if someone asks them, at Blackheath itselfRoyal Blackheath. There, perhaps, he should be known as Charles.

There were never many golf courses in Wapping.

When he jogs Charlie wears a pale grey tracksuit, with a blue stripe, and neat trainers, nothing sloppy or cheap. The simple thin gold chain that it seems hes worn all his life flips up and down at the base of his neck. He has trim close-cropped hair thats now more white than grey, but its soft and fine and his wife still likes to stroke it sometimes as if she might be stroking the head of a dog.

As he sits for a while hes hardly puffed at all. At fifty-seven Charlies father, Frank Yates, had been pretty much past it. But then he was a docker or he had been just like Dons father. Look at the docks now.

Francis Yates. You could say that was a toffs name too.

One fine morning in Wapping over fifty years ago Charlie Yates and Don Abbot had met in the playground at Lea Road Infants School and for some strange reason a big chunky kid and a little nipper theyd known it would be a lifelong thing. Lea Road Infants had later got flattened too, though not by bombs.

For his size, Charlie has quite broad shoulders. When he pushes up the sleeves of his tracksuit (or of his red cashmere golf sweater) you notice the tattoos on his forearms and that, for his size, he has large wrists and hands. He also has, for the size of his face, quite a big prominent but well-shaped nose. With his deep-set eyes this can give him, especially when he grins, a slightly wolfish expression which once used to help him with a certain kind of girl.

But Charlie would say and the jogging, which is sometimes more of a gentle floating run, would back this up that the most important item is the feet. The balance and the feet.

Once, for three or four years, Charlie was a boxer. Big hands, but it was really the feet. A bantamweight. He won a few fights and is still proud of the fact that he never got his finely shaped nose smashed out of true. Once he worked on an oil rig, which was when, more fool him, he got the tattoos. But tattoos had come back again now so hes in fashion. Once he was a roofer. That was his main thing. He was never going to be a docker at any rate. Just as well.

A roofer. He could climb like a monkey. He had the physique. Then it seemed that the roofs just got higher and higher and he became something more than a roofer, without really reckoning on it and without knowing if there was any limit to how high he could go.

He went up in the world. He discovered that he had no fear of heights.

Once, if hed been born earlier, Charlie might have been a steeplejack, but that was a trade, even a word like docker that was becoming out of date. Where were the steeples? Where were the tall chimneys? But suddenly, instead, there were the towers, springing up as if it were a race, and Charlie could work at the very top of them on the exposed girders, without a moments giddiness or fear. A head for heights is what they say, but Charlie would say it was all in the feet. Where you are standing is just where you are standing.

He earned good money and there was no shortage of work. Some people called it danger money. Charlie didnt like to call it danger money because that implied it was dangerous, but he accepted the basic principle: no risk, no gain. Do something special like boxing so you might make a bit extra and put something away, not just scrape along till Friday. Dont be a docker.

Some people quite a lot of the people Charlie has known like to place bets, to put their hopes in dogs and horses. Charlie has never placed a bet in his life. He became a birdman, helping to build towers.

And there they are now, glinting in the early-September sunshine, the towers that Charlie Yates helped to build. There, beyond the hidden twists of the river, is Wapping. Theres Stepney, theres Limehouse. Theres Docklands.

One night, when it was still only starting with him and Brenda, when it was still a bit touch and go, Brenda had said, Charlie, you have lovely feet. It was the clincher. No one had said this to him before. It went straight, not to his feet, but to his heart, not just because it had never been said before, but because it was true. He said, Brenda, you have lovely everything. And that was that.

Now Brenda and Marion go on shopping sprees together. Now, twice a year, all four of them go on holidays, to faraway places. Last March it was the Maldives. Charlie couldnt say precisely where the Maldives are, but hes been there. You get out of a plane. The others were all for going again this winter, but Charlie wasnt so sure. Hed heard somewhere that the Maldives could be one of the first places in the world to be submerged by rising sea levels. It was hardly likely to happen while they were there. But he wasnt sure.

Funny, the feelings you could get. He had no fear of heights, but hed never got on with the sea. Hed known it, working on that oil rig. Once was enough. The same perhaps was true of the Maldives, different proposition though they were. And if he was honest, Charlie would say that hed be just as happy knocking a ball around the local course with Don as he would be sitting in the Maldives. Or wherever. Hes just as happy sitting here. Its all the same place, its sitting in your own body.

Hed said to Brenda, You dont have to worry, Bren, with these feet. As if his feet had little wings. But there hed be anyway, safe and sound every night, cuddling up with her again. A thirty-floor tower in the Isle of Dogs wasnt, in that respect as well as others, like being stuck out in the North Sea.

He said, Arent you glad, Bren?

Glad what?

Glad Im not on an oil rig.

But it wasnt fair to her, he knew, the prospect of his going off every day indefinitely to walk in the sky. He said that when hed stashed enough away hed fix something else up. He hadnt a clue what. Hed come back down to earth.