Carlos Gamerro - The Adventure of the Busts of Eva Perón

The day Ernesto Marron returned home from the Los Ceibales Country Club after a splendid afternoons golf and discovered the poster of Che Guevara hanging on his teenage sons bedroom wall, he knew the time had come to tell the truth about his guerrilla past.

Not that this had been a secret kept under lock and key: his wife had, of course, been partially privy to it after all, they were already married at the time, and something of that magnitude was harder to hide than an extra-marital affair but, far from attempting to pry, Mabel had always clipped his timid attempts at confession with a curt Id rather not know. His in-laws, and to a lesser extent his parents, were aware of something; just how much hed never dared find out. And at the office, of course, it was an open secret. Who hadnt heard of Marrons rise through the ranks of the Montoneros, the far-left Peronist guerrilla force, who had taken hostage no less than his companys president, Sr Fausto Tamerln? But his children had, for better or worse, been spared this knowledge until today.

Thats how it is, thought Marron with a sigh as he unknotted the laces of his Jack Nicklaus golf shoes; theres no escaping the past. No matter how far you run, sooner or later it catches up with you with all of us. Because, far from being an exception, Marrons story was emblematic of a whole generation a generation now striving to erase the traces of a shameful past with the same diligence it had once devoted to building a utopian future. Who then would dare to point the finger at him, who to cast the first stone? Take this very place, no need to look any further: how many of the current occupants of these beautiful houses half-hidden among leafy groves had, in the past, with the same hand that now gracefully swung a Slazenger, taken up arms against privileges far less unjust than those they now enjoyed?

The hot shower restored the warmth driven from his body by the June cold and the bitter memories, and strengthened his purpose: the time had come for his son to know the truth. He wouldnt even discuss it with Mabel beforehand as he usually did, in case she challenged his decision and weakened his resolve. A couple could walk the path of life blithely avoiding silent corners and wisely passing closed doors. But a son was different. To a son, the secret, the silence, the indifference of a father was a message, a command, perhaps even a curse, all the more insidious for having gone unsaid. Perhaps if this had concerned his daughter Cynthia, Daddys pampered princess, he could have left it for a future date. What could she know, when only yesterday her Barbie games and today her hairdos, weekend discos, diets and innocent flirting with boys her own age and background occupied all the free time her studies at the Country Club school afforded her? If it was true that in those days the impetuous advance of the guerrilla movement had added thousands of women to its ranks, it was equally true that today any such possibility was well and truly dead. With boys, however, you could never be sure. They always went for them first, taking advantage of their idealism, their romantic yearnings for adventure, their worship of risk for risks sake; of all that energy that was so much easier to detonate than to channel and conduct along the ordered circuits of society. He had faith in his son: he was a brilliant young man, fated to succeed, a born leader and true friend, and most of all he had a noble heart. But it was precisely these qualities what was best in him that made him easy prey to the siren song of the violent and impatient. Marron knew better than anyone. Hadnt they succeeded with him? How could he believe then that his son was safe?

Dressed now in his casuals, which he would wear until bedtime, he passed the open door of his sons room and came, once again, face to face with the sharp, black and white outlines no shades of grey of the Che Guevara poster. His eyes looked into the intense, defiant ones of his all-too-famous compatriot, but, unlike other times, this time he met his gaze. It might have worked with me, he said to him, but you wont have it so easy with my son. Because hes not alone; he has me. And I I know you all too well. Marron felt a stab of pain in his chest on thinking about how many lives could have been saved if only parents had spoken to their children in time. We never realised, theyd say later as if theyd never received the warning that flashed from the romantic revolutionarys fiery eyes on hundreds of walls, in hundreds of childrens rooms. A whole generation had sacrificed itself on the altar of dubious idols a generation of which he, Marron, was a survivor. But what had he survived for if not to tell his story, and in the telling to prevent it being repeated and lay the unquiet ghosts of the past to rest in the slumber of the grave?

Now wasnt the time though: Tommy was out, just finishing his rugby training at the San Isidro Athletics Club, and by the time he got home his mother and sister would be back from their usual Sunday evening shopping spree at the mall, and their presence might encroach on the privacy a father-and-son talk demanded. Tomorrow, like every Monday when Ernesto and Toms Marron drove the seventy kilometres of freeway separating him from the office block in Puerto Madero and his son from the university, would be the time to talk it over at their ease. And, in the meantime, hed have all night to think about what to say.

One thing worried him above all else.

Would he be believed? Could his son, could anyone looking at the Ernesto Marron of today believe that he, the financial manager of the most powerful construction and real estate conglomerate in Argentina, had once crouched in the lawless shadows of clandestinity and declared himself the enemy of the very society that now sheltered him? That he had not only raised his voice, but taken up arms against so-called injustices which his intervention had in any case only helped to aggravate?

Ernesto Marron didnt get a wink of sleep that night.

He lay there wide awake, hands folded behind his head, eyes fixed on the ceiling where the streetlights shining through the tree branches cast shadows of phantasmagorical crucifixions, and let the memories flood back. There, as on a blank screen, he watched the film of his rebellious past from beginning to end a film that, for him at least, had begun sixteen years ago, the afternoon he was first summoned to the basement of the building on Paseo Coln to the subterranean office complex that the companys president had christened with the poetic, Valkyrian name The Nibelheim, but which all his employees had more familiarly christened Tamerlns Bunker.

Sr Tamerlns kidnappers have set new demands, Sr Marron.

Seated on the other side of the desk, Marron slid his eyes over the polished cranium of Govianus the accountant, who rarely looked up, preferring instead to follow the vague gestures with which his own languid hands accompanied the conversation. Within hours of the news of Sr Tamerlns kidnapping by the Montoneros, Govianus had taken possession of both the imposing metal desk which looked for all the world like an over-turned safe and the immense sealed vault in which it lay. From here he had, for the last six months, directed all the negotiations, in close liaison with the victims family, yet in all that time he still hadnt grown into the place. The room was too big for him, the desk was too big for him, even the gold fountain pen with the monogram FT finely engraved on its base looked too big between his fingers. A dwarf that was what Govianus the accountant reminded Marron of: a bald, bespectacled dwarf usurping the dominions of a giant.

What do they want now? More money?

If only, Marron, if only. I sometimes regret the fact that kidnappings in this country arent performed by the Mafia. At least with them you know where you are; we speak the same language. But all this nonsense about improving the conditions of our workers always the workers, mind you; the office staff be damned, as if we didnt suffer too all this welcoming like lords the delegates that yesterday we spurned like dogs, all this dishing out of food in the shanties Give me a break! You know what they want now? You know the latest thing theyve come up with? They want us to put a bust of Eva Pern in each of our offices. Even in this one! Can you think of anything more absurd?