Elin Hilderbrand - Winter Stroll

The second book in the Winter series, 2015

Aka Christmas on Nantucket

She sneaks out behind the hotel and lights a cigarette. George knows she smokes, but he has drawn the line at watching her do it-so she has to be stealthy and quick. If shes gone for more than ten minutes he sends out a search party, which is usually comprised of himself and his Jack Russell terrier, Rudy, but also sometimes one or more of the women who work in the shop making hats. George thinks Mitzi is going to hurt herself. Or, possibly, run off and have an affair on him, the way she did on her husband, Kelley.

An affair is unthinkable in Mitzis condition. Hurting herself seems redundant; she is already suffering from the maximum amount of pain a person can experience.

Bart Bart Bart Bart Bart.

George says he understands, but hes never had a child, so how could he possibly?

Nicotine is poison. And yet, since Bart has gone missing, cigarettes are one of two things that make Mitzi feel better. The other is alcohol. Mitzi has become partial to a sipping tequila called Casa Dragones that is packaged in a slender, elegant turquoise box and costs eighty-five dollars a bottle at the one high-end liquor store in Lenox that sells it.

She wonders if any of the liquor stores on Nantucket sell Casa Dragones. Murrays, perhaps? She would like a few shots of it now, just enough to take the edge off.

When Bart enlisted in the Marines eighteen months earlier, Mitzi had naively believed the so-called War Against Terror to be over. Osama bin Laden had been killed and buried at sea. Mitzi had pictured Bart going to Afghanistan to help a war-torn people get back on their feet. She had thought he would be digging wells and rebuilding schools. She had envisioned him working with children-giving them pencils and gum, teaching them inappropriate phrases in English. Baby got back! But Bart had been in country less than twenty-four hours when his convoy of forty-five troops was captured.

They have been missing for nearly a year now.

The Department of Defense believes that the extremist group responsible for the kidnapping is called the Bely, pronounced belle-aye. It means yes in the Afghan language. No one has ever heard of the Bely; all that is known about them is that they are young-most of them only teenagers-and they are vicious. One official reportedly said, These kids make ISIS and the Taliban look like Up with People. The Bely are also, apparently, magicians-because even after sending three reconnaissance missions into Sangin and the surrounding province, the U.S. military has yet to discover where the marines are being held.

Mitzi cant watch TV anymore, nor read the newspaper; she can barely log on to her computer. When there is definitive news about what has happened to Barts convoy, the DoD will contact Kelley and Mitzi directly.

Georges advice is: Try not to think about it. This is apparently how they deal with misfortune at the North Pole. They ignore it.

Mitzi finishes her cigarette, stubs it out on the sole of her clog, and pops a breath mint-for what reason, shes not quite sure. George doesnt kiss her anymore, and they rarely have sex. George is older and requires the help of a pill to be intimate, and Mitzi cant lose herself for even half an hour. She is a prisoner as well-to her worry, her fear, her anxiety, and her bad habits.

She pulls out her cell phone and calls Kelley.

Hello? he says. His voice sounds robust, nearly happy; in the background, Mitzi can hear Christmas music, Carol of the Bells. Mitzi has many issues with Kelley, but chief among them is how, at times, he doesnt even seem to remember that their son is missing. He has handled Barts disappearance with an equanimity Mitzi finds baffling. Case in point: right now, he seems to be listening to carols! And hes probably getting ready to make champagne cocktails for the guests. Its Christmas Stroll weekend-which, on Nantucket, is even more Christmassy than Christmas itself. The town has an intoxicating smell of evergreen, salt air, and woodsmoke. When the ferry rounded Brant Point earlier that afternoon and Mitzi saw the giant lit wreath hanging on the lighthouse, she remembered, for an instant, just how much she loved the holidays on this island.

But then, reality descended like a dark hood.

Kelley, Mitzi says. Im here.

Here? Kelley says.

On Nantucket, she says. For the weekend. Were staying at the Castle.

For the love of all Harry, Mitzi, Kelley says. Why?

Why? Why? Why? She and Kelley had agreed that it would be best for everyone if Mitzi stayed with George in Lenox through the holidays.

You made your decision, Kelley had said, on the other occasions when Mitzi had mentioned returning to Nantucket for a visit. You chose George.

I chose George, Mitzi thought. For twelve years running, Mitzi and George had conducted a love affair during the Christmas holidays, when George brought his antique fire engine to the island and dressed up as the Winter Street Inn Santa Claus. Last year, things had come to a head, and Mitzi had decided to leave Kelley for George. Bart had just deployed and Mitzis judgment had been wobbly. More than anything, she had wanted to escape her circumstances; she had wanted to hide in a fantasy life of sleigh bells and elves.

It had been a big fat mistake. Now that Mitzi is with George day in, day out, the allure has worn thin. Who wants to be with Santa Claus on St. Patricks Day, or the Fourth of July? Nobody. Santas sex appeal is specific to the month of December. On good days, Mitzi feels a brotherly affection for George; on bad days, she is filled with bitter regret.

I had to come, Mitzi says. I missed the island so much, and I know Kevin and Isabelle are having the baby baptized on Sunday.

How? Kelley says. How did you know that?

Mitzi crunches her breath mint. She doesnt want to give away her source.

Ava certainly didnt tell you, Kelley says. And it wasnt Kevin or Isabelle. And Patrick is in jail.

Another second and hell figure it out, Mitzi thinks.

Jennifer! Kelley says. Jennifer told you. I cant believe she still speaks to you. She actually is the nicest person alive, just as we always suspected.

Jennifer and I are simpatico, Mitzi says. She lost her husband, and I lost my son.

She did not lose her husband, Kelley says. Patrick is in jail, hes not dead. And-here, Kelley clears his throat-Bart isnt dead, either, Mitzi.

Mitzi squeezes her eyes shut. She cant explain how badly she needs to hear Kelley say that. Bart isnt dead. Which means, Bart is alive. Hes somewhere. The Bely are a new enemy, but the one thing that is known about them is their tender age. The only way Mitzi gets through some nights is to imagine Bart and the other marines playing soccer or gin rummy with their counterparts in the Bely.

When Mitzi shared this vision with George, he gave her an encouraging pat and said, Thats the ticket, Mrs. Claus.

Mitzi has become pen pals with the mothers of two of the other missing marines through a service provided by the Department of Defense, and although they are from vastly different backgrounds-one woman is a fundamentalist Christian in Tallahassee, Florida, and one woman lives on Flatbush Avenue in Brooklyn, both women are black-the emails sustain Mitzi and provide her with a sense of community. There are at least two other people in the world who understand exactly what Mitzi is feeling.