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Thirteen transfixing new stories from one of the most innovative writers of his generation and one of the most vital and original voices of our timefor fans of George Saunders, Nathan Englander, and Elizabeth Strout. In these thirteen ingenious stories, Ben Marcus reveals moments of redemption in the sometimes nightmarish modern world. In The Grow-Light Blues, a hapless, corporate drone finds love after being disfigured testing his employers newest nutrition supplementthe enhanced glow from his computer monitor. In the chilling Cold Little Bird, a father finds himself alienated from his family when he starts to suspect that his sons precocity has turned sinister. The Boys follows a sister who descends into an affair with her recently widowed brother-in-law. In Blueprints for St. Louis, two architects in a flailing marriage consider the ethics of adding a mist that artificially incites emotion in mourners to their latest assignment, a memorial to a terrorist attack. A heartbreaking collection of stories that showcases the authors compassion, tenderness, and mordant humorblistering, beautiful work from a modern master.

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Ben Marcus

NOTES FROM THE FOG

STORIES

To my family:

Heidi, Delia, and Solomon

1 Cold Little Bird It started with bedtime A coldness A formality Martin - photo 1

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Cold Little Bird

It started with bedtime. A coldness. A formality.

Martin and Rachel tucked the boy in, as was their habit, then stooped to kiss him good night.

Please dont do that, he said, turning to face the wall.

They took it as teasing, flopped onto his bed to nuzzle and tickle him.

The boy turned rigid, endured the cuddle, then barked out at them, I really dont like that!

Jonah? Martin said, sitting up.

I dont want your help at bedtime anymore, he said. Im not a baby. You have Lester. Go cuddle with him.

Sweetheart, Rachel said. Were not helping you. Were just saying good night. You like kisses, right? Dont you like kisses and cuddles? You big silly.

Jonah hid under the blankets. A classic pout. Except that he wasnt a pouter, he wasnt a hider. He was a reserved boy who generally took a scientific interest in the tantrums and emotional extravagances of other children, marveling at them as though they were some strange form of street theater.

Martin tried to tickle the blanketed lump of person that was his son. He didnt know what part of Jonah he was touching. He just dug at him with a stiff hand, thinking a laugh would come out, some sound of pleasure. It used to work. One stab of the finger and the kid exploded with giggles. But Jonah didnt speak, didnt move.

We love you so much. You know? Martin said. So we like to show it. It feels good.

Not to me. I dont feel that way.

What way? What do you mean?

They sat with him, perplexed, and tried to rub his back, but hed rolled to the edge of the bed, nearly flattening himself against the wall.

I dont love you, Jonah said.

Oh, now, Martin said. Youre just tired. No need to say that sort of stuff. Get some rest.

You told me to tell the truth, and Im telling the truth. I. Dont. Love. You.

This happened. Kids tested their attachments. They tried to push you away to see just how much it would take to really lose you. As a parent, you took the blow, even sharpened the knife yourself before handing it to the little fiends, who stepped right up and plunged. Or so Martin had heard.

They hovered by Jonahs bed, assuring him that it had been a long dayalthough the day had been entirely unremarkableand he would feel better in the morning.

Martin felt like a robot saying these things. He felt like a robot thinking them. There was nothing to do but leave the boy there, let him sleep it off.

Downstairs, they cleaned the kitchen in silence. Rachel was troubled or not, he couldnt tell, and it was better not to check. In some way, Martin was captivated. If he were Jonah, ten years old and reasonably smart, starting to sniff out the world and find his angle, this might be something worth exploring. Getting rid of the soft, warm, dumb providers who spun opportunity around you relentlessly, answering your every need. Good play, Jonah. But how do you follow such a strong, definitive opening move? What now?

Over the next few weeks, Jonah stuck by his statement, wandering through their lives like some prisoner of war whod been trained not to talk. He endured his parents, leaving for school in the morning with scarcely a goodbye. Upon coming home, he put away his coat and shoes, did his homework without prompting. He helped himself to snacks, dragging a chair into the kitchen so that he could climb on the counter. He got his own glass, filling it with water at the sink. When he was done eating, he loaded his dishes in the dishwasher. Martin, working from home in the afternoons, watched all this, impressed but bothered. He kept offering to help, but Jonah always said that he was fine, he could handle it. At bedtime, Martin and Rachel still fussed over Lester, who, at six years old, regressed and babified himself in order to drink up the extra attention. Jonah insisted on saying good night with no kiss, no hug. He shut his door and disappeared every night at 8 p.m.

When Martin or Rachel caught Jonahs eye, the boy forced a smile at them. But it was so obviously fake. Could a boy his age do that?

Of course, Rachel said. You think he doesnt know how to pretend?

No, I know he can pretend. But this seems different. I mean, to have to pretend that hes happy to see us. First of all, what the fuck is he so upset about? And, second, it just seems so kind of grown-up. In the worst possible way. A fake smile. Its a tool one uses with strangers.

Well, I dont know. Hes ten. He has social skills. He can hide his feelings. Thats not such an advanced thing to do.

Martin studied his wife.

Okay, so you think everythings fine?

I think maybe hes growing up and you dont like it.

And you like it? Thats what youre saying? You like this?

His voice had gone up. He had lost control for a minute there, and, as per motherfucking usual, it was a deal breaker. Rachel put up her hand, and she was gone. From the other room, he heard her say, Im not going to talk to you when youre like this.

Okay, he thought. Goodbye. Well talk some other time when Im not like this, aka never.

Jonah, it turned out, reserved this behavior solely for his parents. A probing note to his teacher revealed nothing. He was fine in school, did not act withdrawn, had successfully led a team project on Antarctica, and seemed to run and play with his friends during recess. Run and play? What animal were they discussing here? Everybody loved Jonah, was the verdict, along with some bullshit about how happy he seemed. Seemed was just the thing. Seemed! If you were an idiot who didnt know the boy, who had no grasp of human behavior.

At home, Jonah doted on his brother, read to him, played with him, even let Lester climb on his back for rides around the house, all fairly verboten in the old days, when Jonahs interest in Lester had only ever been theoretical. Lester was thrilled by it all. He suddenly had a new friend, the older brother he worshipped, who used to ignore him. Life was good. But to Martin it felt like a calculated display. With this performance of tenderness toward his brother, Jonah seemed to be saying, Look, this is what you no longer get. See? Its over for you. Go fuck yourself.

Martin took it too personally, he knew. Maybe because it was personal.

One night, when Jonah hadnt touched his dinner, they were asking him if he would like something else to eat, and, because he wasnt answering, and really had not been answering for some weeks now, other than in one-word responses, curt and formal, Martin and Rachel abandoned their usual rules, the guideposts of parenting theyd clung to, and moved through a list of bribes. They dangled the promise of ice cream, and then those monstrosities passing for Popsicles, shaped like animals with chocolate faces or hats, which used to turn Jonah craven and desperate. When Jonah remained silent and sort of washed-out looking, Martin offered his son candy. He could have some right now. If only hed fucking say something.

Its just that youre all in his face, Rachel said to him later. Hows he supposed to breathe?

You think my desire for him to speak is making him silent?

Its probably not helping.

Whereas your approach is so amazing.

My approach? You mean being his mother? Loving him for who he is? Keeping him safe? Yeah, it is pretty amazing.

He turned over to sleep while Rachel clipped on her book light.

Theyd ride this one out in silence, apparently.

Yes, well. Theyd written their own vows, promising to be intensely honest with each other. They had not specifically said that they would hold up each others flaws to the most rigorous scrutiny, calling out each others smallest mistakes, like fact checkers, believing, perhaps, that the marriage would thrive only if all personal errors and misdeeds were rooted out of it. This mission had gone unstated.

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