Also by David R. Gillham
City of Women
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Excerpts from The Diary of a Young Girl: The Definitive Edition by Anne Frank, edited by Otto H. Frank and Mirjam Pressler, translated by Susan Massotty. Translation copyright 1995 by Penguin Random House LLC. Used by permission of Doubleday, an imprint of the Knopf Doubleday Publishing Group, a division of Penguin Random House LLC. All rights reserved.
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LIBRARY OF CONGRESS CATALOGING-IN-PUBLICATION DATA
Names: Gillham, David R., author.
Title: Annelies / David R. Gillham.
Description: New York City : Viking, [2019] |
Identifiers: LCCN 2018025172 (print) | LCCN 2018026671 (ebook) | ISBN 9781101601280 (ebook) | ISBN 9780399162589 (hardcover) | ISBN 9780525561781 (export)
Subjects: LCSH: Frank, Anne, 1929-1945--Fiction. | Holocaust survivors--Fiction. | Psychic trauma--Fiction. | Amsterdam (Netherlands)--History--20th century--Fiction. | GSAFD: Alternative histories (Fiction)
Classification: LCC PS3607.I44436 (ebook) | LCC PS3607.I44436 A85 2019 (print) | DDC 813/.6--dc23
LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2018025172
This is a work of fiction based on actual events.
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To all the Annes
Contents
Also by David R. Gillham
Title Page
Copyright
Dedication
Epigraph
1. The Heath
1945
2. Her One True Confidante
1942
3. Diving Under
1942
4. The House Behind
1944
5. Radio Orange
1944
6. Burglars
1944
7. The Freedom of Sunlight
1944
8. Boulevard Des Misres
1944
9. A Prayer
1944
10. Hope
1945
11. Furies
1945
12. Survivors
1945
13. Grief
1945
1945
14. The Truth About Desire
1946
15. Jealousy
1946
16. Trust
1946
17. Forgiveness
1946
1945
18. Bread
1946
19. Betrayal
1946
20. A Kiss
1946
21. The Transvaal
1946
22. Another Birthday
1946
23. Sacrifice
1946
24. Enemy Nationals
1946
25. Pity
1946
26. The Fourth of August
1946
27. The Pages of Her Life
1946
28. The Canal
1946
29. Mieps Typewriter
1946
30. Gods Comedy
1946
31. The Question of Forgiveness
1946
32. Truth
1946
33. Atonement
1946
34. The Diary of a Young Girl
1961
1961
35. Repairing the World
1961
Authors Note
Acknowledgments
About the Author
I want to go on living even after my death!
Anne Frank, from her diary, 5 April 1944
1THE HEATH
We thought we had seen it all.
Until Belsen.
J. W. Trindles Until Belsen 1945
1945
Konzentrationslager (KL)
BERGEN-BELSEN
Kleines Frauenlager
The Lneburg Heath
THE GERMAN REICH
She lies sprawled among the dead who carpet the frozen mud flats, time slipping past, her thoughts dissolving. The last of her is leaking away as the angel of death hovers above, so close now. So close that she can feel him peeling away her essence. Her body is baked by fever and ripped by a murderous cough; her mind is more animal now than human. She is numb to the bitter cold that has penetrated her bones. Thirst is gone, and so is hunger. She has passed through them on her way out of her body.
But from somewhere there is a loud pop, the anonymous discharge of a rifle or a pistol, and she can feel the darkness above her hesitate. The sound of the gunshot has grabbed its attention, and instead of collecting her final breath, death, in its forgetfulness, passes over her. And in that fractured moment, the world that would have been takes a different path: a flicker of the girl she once was makes a last demand for life. A breath, a flinch of existence. A small, tentative throb of expectation dares to flex her heart. A beat. Another beat, and another as her heart begins to work a rhythm. She coughs viciously, but something in her has found a pulse. Some vital substance. She feels herself draw a breath and then exhale it. Slowly. Very slowly, she pries open her gluey eyelids till the raw white sunlight stings.
She is alive.
2HER ONE TRUE CONFIDANTE
Writing in a diary is a really strange experience for someone like me. Not only because Ive never written anything before, but also because it seems to me that later on neither I nor anyone else will be interested in the musings of a thirteen-year-old schoolgirl.
Anne Frank, from her diary, 20 June 1942
. . . all Dutch Jews are now in the bag.
Dr. Hans Bhmcker, Beauftragter des Deutschen Reiches fr die Stadt Amsterdam, 2 October 1941
1942
Merwedeplein 37
Residential Housing Estate
Amsterdam-Zuid
OCCUPIED NETHERLANDS
Two years since the German invasion
Anne gazes out the open window of their third-story flat in the Merwedeplein, her elbows braced against the windowsill. The sun is cradled in a sharp blue sky. The grass of the common is a lush green. Its a Sunday midday. Down below, a stylishly dressed wedding party is off to the magistrates office, and Anne is absorbing the details with excitement because she positively adores fashion. The bride is modeling a well-cut suit with a tapered skirt and a felt hat. A wartime look for a bride, sleek and smart without the frills. She carries a generous bouquet of white roses. People peer from their balconies as the bride and groom process down the steps and pose for a movie camera as if they were film stars.
Anne, get away from the window, please, her mother calls out. Unwilling to budge, Anne calls back over her shoulder, In a minute! She imagines herself in front of the camera one day, as a famous film star. Like Greta Garbo, or Priscilla Lane. She loves the films and film actresses, and it angers Anne more than almost anything that the Nazis have seen fit to ban Jews from the cinemas. After the war, though, who knows? She could become another Dorothy Lamour, followed everywhere by eager photographers.
Her mother grows adamant, correcting her in her normal singsong reprimand. You should be setting the table for lunch. And besides, its simply too unladylike for you to be there with your head stuck out the window like a nosy giraffe. Though Mummy herself cannot resist a discreet giraffes peek, followed by a shallow sigh. When I married your father, I wore a beautiful white silk gown with a long, long train, she reminds herself. Decorated by the most charming little filigree of Belgian lace, specially imported.
Im never going to marry, Anne decides to announce at that instant, which leaves her mother blinking, utterly appalled. Really, Anne was just irritated and wanted to strike back at Mummy in some way she knew would sting. But her mothers expression is positively stricken, as if Anne has just threatened to jump out the window.
Anne, but you must,
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