Carnie Wilson - Im Still Hungry

IM
STILL
HUNGRY

ALSO BY CARNIE WILSON

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IM
STILL
HUNGRY

Finding Myself
Through Thick and Thin

Carnie Wilson
with Cindy Pearlman

Hay House, Inc.
Carlsbad, California Sydney, Australia
Canada Hong Kong United Kingdom

Copyright 2003 by Carnie Wilson

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Editorial supervision: Jill Kramer Design: Amy Rose Szalkiewicz
Interior photos: Greg Bertolini

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The author of this book does not dispense medical advice or prescribe the use of any technique as a form of treatment for physical or medical problems without the advice of a physician, either directly or indirectly. The intent of the author is only to offer information of a general nature to help you in your quest for emotional and spiritual well-being. In the event you use any of the information in this book for yourself, which is your constitutional right, the author and the publisher assume no responsibility for your actions.

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

Wilson, Carnie
Im still hungry : finding myself through thick and thin / Carnie Wilson, with Cindy Pearlman.
p. cm.
ISBN 1-4019-0227-8 (Hardcover) ISBN 1-4019-0228-6 (Tradepaper) 1. Wilson, Carnie, 1968Health.
2. Overweight womenUnited StatesBiography. 3. Jejunoileal bypassPatientsUnited StatesBiography.
4. Women singersUnited StatesBiography. I. Pearlman, Cindy, 1964- II. Title.
RC628.W526 2003
362.1963980092dc21

2003004570

Hardcover ISBN 1-4019-0227-8
Tradepaper ISBN 1-4019-0228-6

06 05 04 03 4 3 2 1
1st printing, June 2003

Printed in the United States of America

This book is dedicated to the person who invented the old-fashioned glazed buttermilk doughnut. I could ring your neck,
because Ill always be tortured by the thought of eating one.
But I could also give you a hug for all the times I ate three
at once and couldnt believe something could taste that
good. You are part of the reason I needed
gastric-bypass surgery. Ha-ha!

Okay, for real: This book is for all the people who have ever
struggled with a weight problem or some type of addiction.
Only you know what its like. But my message is that you
can change something about yourself if you really
want to. The power belongs to you.

Contents

Friendly Food Facts for You

PART I: THE BIG LOSER (CONGRATULATIONS!)

Introduction to Part I

Chapter 7: Hot Child in the City

PART II: THE BIG HEAD TRIP (WHO KNEW?)

Introduction to Part II

Epilogue: Sex vs. Chocolate

APPENDIX

T he other night I had a really weird, but delicious, dream. In a long, flowing white gown and bare feet, I was running through soft, ticklish grass toward a secret garden. Breathing deeply, I stepped inside, blinked, and noticed something strange about the Technicolor landscape. I was sinking, but not into soilthe dark dirt turned out to be a super-rich fudge-brownie mix. Hoisting myself out of this high-fat quicksand, I found a stony path; yet the rock was actually wet walnuts stuck together with a substance so foreign to me that I stifled a scream. It was real butter! Ditching the path, I ran wildly through a field, where something was suddenly poking at my feet. It wasnt the tips of grass blades, but an endless carpet of rainbow-colored sprinkles.

Why is this happening? I hardly ever eat dessert anymore! I cried as I fell down and grasped at the stem of a sunflower to stand up. But just as quickly, I pulled my hand back in horror to realize it wasnt a plant I was clutching, but a gigantic chocolate biscotti. At this point, I knew that if I could just make it to the shimmering pond in the distance, I could stop and catch my breath. As I came closer, however, I noticed that it wasnt a body of water at all, but moving waves of thick hot fudge with a crunchy crme brle island in the middle.

All I could do at this point was pray to a higher power. Lord, help me, I whispered as I looked up at the sky, but those werent regular clouds up there. It was all marshmallow fluff.

Suddenly, I bolted up in bed, gazed at my sleeping husband and our three dogs, and understood that those last pulse-racing moments had just been a nightmare. In the quiet darkness, I also realized something else: Fuck, Im still hungry.

I know thats not what you were expecting from my new book. Admit it, you were waiting for me to say that I found inner peace eating a tofu burger, happiness in a pair of size-six jeans, and the true meaning of life when I made eye contact with my ankles again.