L. Modesitt - Imager

743 A.L.

The bell announcing dinner rang twice, just twice, and no more, for it never did. Rousel leapt up from his table desk in the sitting room that adjoined our bedchambers, disarraying the stack of papers that represented a composition doubtless due in the morning. Im starved.

Youre not. Youre merely hungry, I pointed out, carefully placing a paperweight over the work on my table desk. Starved means great physical deprivation and lack of nourishment. We dont suffer either.

I feel starved. Stop being such a pedant, Rhenn. The heels of his shoes clattered on the back stairs leading down to the pantry off the dining chamber.

Two weeks ago, Rousel couldnt even have pronounced pedant, but hed heard Master Sesiphus use it, and now he applied it to me as often as he could. Younger brothers were worse than vermin, because one could squash vermin and then bathe, something one could not do with younger brothers. With some fortune, since Father would really have preferred that I follow him as a factor but had acknowledged that I had little interest, Id be out of the house before Culthyn was old enough to leave the nursery and eat with us. As for Khethila, she was almost old enough, but she was quiet and thoughtful. She liked it when I read to her, even things like my history assignments about people like Rex Regis or Rex Defou. Rousel had never liked my reading to him, but then, hed never much cared for anything I did.

By the time I reached the dining chamber, Father was walking through the archway from the parlor where he always had a single goblet of red wine-usually Dhuensa-before dinner. Mother was standing behind the chair at the other end of the oval table. I slipped behind my chair, on Fathers right. Rousel grinned at me, then cleared his face.

Promptness! Thats what I like. A time and a place for everything, and everything in its time and place. Father cleared his throat, then set his near-empty goblet on the table and placed his hands on the back of the armed chair that was his.

For the grace and warmth from above, for the bounty of the earth below, for all the grace of the world and beyond, for your justice, and for your manifold and great mercies, we offer our thanks and gratitude, both now and evermore, in the spirit of that which cannot be named or imaged.

In peace and harmony, we all chorused, although I had my doubts about the presence and viability of either, even in LExcelsis, crown city and capital of Solidar.

Father settled into his chair at the end of the table with a contented sigh, and a glance at Mother. Thank you, dear. Roast lamb, one of my favorites, and you had Riesela fix it just the way I prefer it.

If Mother had told the cook to fix lamb any other way, we all would have been treated to a long lecture on the glories of crisped roast lamb and the inadequacies of other preparations.

After pouring a heavier red wine into his goblet and then into Mothers, Father placed the carafe before me. I took about a third of a goblet, because that was what hed declared as appropriate for me, and poured a quarter for Rousel.

When Father finished carving and serving, Mother passed the rice casserole and the pickled beets. I took as little as I could of the beets.

How was your day, dear? asked Mother.

Oh . . . the same as any other, I suppose. The Phlanysh wool is softer than last year, and that means that Wurys will complain. Last year he said it was too stringy and tough, and that hed have to interweave with the Norinygan . . . and the finished Extelan gray is too light . . . But then hes half Pharsi, and they quibble about everything.

Mother nodded. Theyre different. They work hard. You cant complain about that, but theyre not our type.

No, theyre not, but he does pay in gold, and that means I have to listen.

I managed to choke down the beets while Father offered another discourse on wool and the patterned weaving looms, and the shortcomings of those from a Pharsi background. I wasnt about to mention that the prettiest and brightest girl at the grammaire was Remaya, and she was Pharsi.

Abruptly, he looked at me. You dont seem terribly interested in what feeds you, Rhennthyl.

Sir . . . I was listening closely. You were pointing out that, while the pattern blocks used by the new weaving machinery produced a tighter thread weave, the women loom tenders have gotten more careless and that means that spoilage is up, which increases costs-

Enough. I know you listen, but I have great doubts that you care, or even appreciate what brings in the golds for this household. At times, I wonder if you dont listen to the secret whispers of the Namer.

Chenkyr . . . cautioned Mother.

Father sighed as only he could sigh. Enough of that. What did you learn of interest at grammaire today?

It wasnt so much what Id learned as what Id been thinking about. Father . . . lead is heavier than copper or silver. Its even heavier than gold, but its cheaper. I thought you said that we used copper, silver, and gold for coins because they were heavier and harder for evil imagers to counterfeit.

Thats what I mean, Rhennthyl. He sighed even more loudly. You ask a question like that, but when I ask you to help in the counting house, you cant be bothered to work out the cost of an extra tariff of a copper . . . or work out the costs for guards on a summer consignment of bolts of Acoman prime wool to Nacliano. It isnt as though you had no head for figures, but you do not care to be accurate if something doesnt interest you. What metals the Council uses for coins matters little if one has no coins to count. No matter how much a man likes his work, there will be parts of it that are less pleasing-or even displeasing. You seem to think that everything should be pleasing or interesting. Life doesnt oblige us in that fashion.

Dont be that hard on the boy, Chenkyr. Mothers voice was patient. Not everyone is meant to be a factor.

His willfulness makes an ob look flexible, Maelyna.

Even the obdurates have their place.

I couldnt help thinking Id rather be an obdurate than a mal. Most people were malleables of one sort or another, changing their views or opinions whenever someone roared at them, like Father.

Exactly! exclaimed Father. As servants to imagers and little else. I dont want one of my sons a lackey because he wont think about anything except what interests or pleases him. The world isnt a kind place for inflexible stubbornness and unthinking questioning.

How can a question be unthinking? I wanted to know. You have to think even to ask one.

My fathers sigh was more like a roar. Then he glared at me. When you ask a question to which you would already know the answer if you stopped to think, or when you ask a question to which no one knows the answer. In both cases, youre wasting your time and someone elses.

But how do I know when no one knows the answer if I dont ask the question?

Rhennthyl! There you go again. Do you want to eat cold rice in the kitchen?

No, sir.

Rousel, said Father, pointedly avoiding looking in my direction, how are you coming with your calculations and figures?

Master Sesiphus says that I have a good head for figures. My last two examinations have been perfect.

Of course they had been. What was so hard about adding up columns of numbers that never changed? Or dividing them, or multiplying them? Rousel was more than a little careless about numbers and anything else when no one was looking or checking on him.

I cut several more thin morsels of the lamb. It was good, especially the edge of the meat where the fat and seasonings were all crisped together. The wine wasnt bad, either, but it was hard to sit there and listen to Father draw out Rousel.