Mark Stone - The Judas Line

Jude

Two air sprites flitted down the street, lifting random scraps of paper, tossing them about before moving on to the next bit of rubbish. Then they saw a little old man wearing a black fedora walking slowly down the sidewalk against the stiff winter wind, clutching his trench coat tightly to his skinny body. With whispery cries of glee they snatched the hat from his head, revealing a liver-spotted scalp. They tossed the fedora to and fro down the sidewalk.

I didnt want to interfere, but the old mans expression-sadness and frustration at knowing he didnt have the strength to run after his hat-tugged at me, so I whistled. Soft, like a breeze through aspens, the sound was still enough to distract the tiny elementals. Howling gusty cries, they dropped the hat and flew off. A scent like lemongrass tickled my nose.

The old man tottered to where his fedora had fallen and stooped to pick it up off the cement, damp with snowmelt. He carefully wiped off the brim and placed it on his bald head.

What was that, Jude?

I turned to the man sitting next to me. Whats what, Mike?

What was that? he repeated, his shrewd blue eyes giving me a once-over.

Just a couple of wind sprites messing with an old mans hat. I asked them to stop and they did.

My best friend for the past fifteen years snorted. A big man, still trim despite being on the wrong side of forty, he sported a black handlebar moustache and a flat-top haircut. His ski-slope nose jutted out under icy eyes that presided over high, sharp cheekbones and a chiseled jaw line. He was a classically handsome man still in his prime. That face had broken hearts all around the city, the reason being the accoutrement that rested comfortably around his neck: the collar of a Catholic priest.

Always the crap artist, eh Jude?

Crap art is what I do best, man, I replied, watching the old man stumble away. Thats what you love about me.

Mike snorted and gave me a wry look. You didnt call me all the way down from my warm church just to pull my leg while I freeze my butt off, did you?

The park near Con Agra, normally so green and peaceful, looked dreary, brown and sad on this cold January day. It matched my mood perfectly. I had something stashed down here I wanted to give you, Mike. You know, to keep it safe until the right time.

His gaze was skeptical. He knew me far too well.

Okay, okay, man. I pulled a folded manila envelope from the inside pocket of my brown leather jacket. This is very important, Mike, possibly dangerous, so if you accept it, know that there are those that wouldnt think twice about killing a priest to obtain it.

Alarm replaced skepticism. What is it?

If you dont hear from me within a month, you can read whats inside and then do with it what you will, reveal it to whomever you wish. Consider it my confession. Until then, keep it at St. Stephens. My Family and their lackeys wont violate the sanctity of the church; theyre scared of it.

His eyebrows threatened to join his hairline.

I sighed heavily. Dont ask because I cant answer. I need someone I can trust and youre it, man.

As usual, he saw right through me. Its not just about your family, he stated flatly.

Yeah, not just.

The bench shifted slightly as he leaned his bulk toward me. Come to the church, Jude. A beefy calloused hand landed with surprising gentleness on my shoulder. All this time you never entered Gods house, even though youve told me youre a believer. Its time, long past time.

Long past time, I murmured softly. Long past time long past time. I rubbed my face. It has been long past time my whole damn life, Mike. Its not going to do any good now.

God wants you to come to him. So just give in and come unto the Lord, Jude. He welcomes us all.

My smile was mirthless. Me and the Family arent on speaking terms with the Lord.

Just because they dont believe-

Oh, they absolutely believe, I interrupted, shaking my head. They just hate Him.

Mike stared at me, mouth agape. I dont know what made me reveal that fact. Perhaps my darkening mood, the feeling of impending doom, broke my give-a-shitter, but I spilled those few carefully hoarded beans with surprising ease. Things were going to come to a head and I desperately needed him.

Do you hate Him, Jude? Mike whispered, blue eyes holding a wealth of sadness.

Aw, no, man. Of course not if I did, my best friend wouldnt be a Catholic priest, and I wouldnt want with all my heart to feel Gods blessing on me. Naw, Mike, I just think God doesnt care too much for me. Christ! I was starting to sound like a Danielle Steel character. Next thing you know, Id pull out a monogrammed hanky and delicately dab my eyes as they leaked bitter tears.

You know, thats the first real thing youve said to me in over six years, Mike mused.

What did I say that was so real last time?

Im buying.

Damn, what the hell was I thinking, opening up like that? Sounds like I almost grew a vagina right then and there.

No need to be a misogynistic prick, Jude.

Sorry, man, its been one of those centuries.

Seriously, what is up with your family?

You know thats been a touchy subject for me.

The manila envelope slapped me on the chest. Then keep your secret documents or whatever they are.

What?

A hard finger poked my chest and his breath, smelling of peppermint gum, washed over me. You dont drop a bomb about your family hating God and His apathy toward you, then expect me to hold onto whatever this is. Im a priest, not an idiot.

Well damn, not how I wanted this conversation to go. Had I been prone to panic, I might have. A thread of unease rippled up and down my spine as I realized that even though my Family might consider Mike the enemy, I had no one else to count on. After all these years of hiding in plain sight, I saw Mike as the only person I could sincerely call a friend. Julian wanted to use me, while the rest of the Family wanted me dead and gone in the worst way. All Mike wanted was the truth. Could I handle that?

No choice you take your friends where you can get them.

Tell you what, amigo, I retorted, slapping the envelope back into his hands. You go ahead and read whats in here. If you can handle it, if you think we still can be friends, then call me. The number to my new disposable is in there.

The fear that Mike would hate and revile me after reading the contents of the envelope blazed up inside, causing my stomach to clench. Nothing for it, however, but to trust him and hope for the best.

He clutched the envelope in one hand and stroked his ridiculous handlebar moustache with the other; something he always did when perched on the horns of a dilemma. Okay, Jude, he said, folding and unfolding the envelope. You got it, but I have to ask whats going on?

My eyes trailed up the side of Woodman Tower to where wind sprites frolicked on high. What about the holy water I asked for, Mike? I hedged.

Having a courier deliver it to your place. Should be there sometime this afternoon. I dont know why you keep asking me for ten gallons of holy water every six months, but the donations are appreciated. Now answer the damn question.

Whats going on? Well, I have Family business to take care of soon.

Jude

My place was a little white ranch-style affair on 61st near L Street, smack dab in a quiet middle class neighborhood where the houses are small, but the backyards are large. The kind of place you find newly married couples and the retired.

Omaha in winter is only slightly less windy and cold than the Ninth Circle of Hell, the frozen lake trapping the traitors to mankind. The previous day saw a wind chill of -65? F, cold enough to shatter the plastic quarter panels on my neighbors blue Saturn coupe. I didnt mind the deep freeze, as long as the blessed cloak of anonymity covered me.