Chandin Whitten - Beautiful Misery

I want to thank my amazing husband and all his support and sacrifices. He has been my biggest cheerleader (too bad I couldnt get him to put on my old uniform and wave the pompoms around) and support system. Without him I never would have had the ballswell vagina, to write. I wouldnt know what to do without you. You can piss me off better than anyone, but youre the only one who can make me smile. Thanks for not getting jealous of my many one night stands with Gage and Larkin, as well as the many hotties in the future. But really, who couldnt love a tatted & pierced, muscled up man? Next, my two beautiful and crazy little ladies. Momma loves the hell outta you, Bella & Macy. There were times when I was writing and I would be so pissed I would want to slam my laptop against the wall. Then, Bella would open her pretty little mouth and spew the fucks, shits, and damns I was thinking of saying, making me laugh. Ya, Im a bad momget the fuck over it. I laugh when my kid cusses..big fuckin deal! Love my munchkin monsters!

Annie & Heather. God I fuckin love you bitches! Thank you for being available any time of day or night, like my own personal whore. Always there to answer my dumbass questions or to send me virtual coffee & cupcakes. You ladies have put in just as much effort and time into my writing as I have. I would be lost without all your help. God knows how needy I can beand thankfully you two are there for me.

My friends & family who have supported my crazy dream to be a writer. Thank you! This has been an amazing journey and its only beginning.

My smutty sisters- Thank you for all the late night lovely pictures for inspiration. And, for all the laughs and hilarious stories to make my long coffee filled nights a little less draining. I love you all!

To my football floozies, thank you from the bottom of my heart (thats saying a lotmy heart is kinda like stone) thank you. I have got to meet so many wonderful people through my writing. I wouldnt be anybody without yall.

Much love, peace, and sexy men,

Chandin Whitten xox

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Gage

Groaning, I rolled over only to come face to face with some naked brunette. Using my hands I scrubbed my face and sighed. She must have heard me because her makeup smeared eyes popped opened.

Morning, sexy. The unknown girl purred.

Attempting to climb on top of me I placed my hands on her tiny shoulders and pushed her off. Shaking my head I said, Dont think so sweetheart. You can get dressed and go. Im going to get a shower and when I get out I expect you to be gone.

The girl huffed, You really are an ass.

Shrugging I replied, But you still came back to my house. You got what you wanted and I got what I wanted, so you are free to go.

With no shame the girl climbed from my bed, she was beautiful but she wasnt my girl. She wasnt Jenna, no one was. Closing my eyes, pictures of Jenna flashed through my mind. It had been eighteen months since she walked away from me. Eighteen months of hell. I always knew she would pick Larkin, and he was right for her, for their family. But it still hurt. I wanted to see her happy and she was, but that didnt make it hurt any less. When we were around each other or on the phone I acted like nothing was wrong. I acted as if my life was amazing as NFL football star, Gage Tucker. I never let on as to how hurt I was, how broken I had become. Giving her to Larkin nearly tore me apart, but I held it together for her, to see that she was happy. She deserved it, after everything she had been through, no one in the world deserved happiness more than her.

A tapping on my shoulder brought me back to reality. Opening my eyes I glared at the girl. What? I bit out.

She smirked and said, Know where my panties are? Someone was impatient last night and tossed them, now I cant find them.

Using my thumb and pointer finger I rubbed my eyes hard only stopping to pinch the bridge of my nose. Fuck. I dont know. Cant you write down your address? If I find them, I will mail them to you.

Crossing her arms, random girl pursed her lips and bit out, You cant be fucking serious? I am not giving you a free souvenir while I walk away with nothing. Give me something of yours.

Completely naked, I jumped from my bed and stomped to my dresser. Yanking open the top drawer I grabbed the first pair of boxers I saw and tossed them at her. There, now get out.

Not waiting for her to say anything I stomped into my bathroom and slammed the door, locking it behind me. Turning on the shower I waited until I heard my apartment door slam shut before I got in. The hot water stung as it hit my skin, I found it calming. This sting was nowhere near the sting I felt every day, coming home to nothing. Walking into an empty apartment I had picked out for the family I thought would be living here. Instead, that family was on the opposite side of the country.

When the water started to chill I shut it off and grabbed a towel, wrapping it around my waist. Opening my bathroom door I padded across my room to my dresser. I was halfway through pulling my sweatpants up when I heard voices coming from the other side of my bedroom door. Figuring the random girl hadnt left, and in fact had stayed and invited friends over I threw open my bedroom door and yelled, What the fuck are you

I stopped mid-sentence as the cutest little girl came bouncing toward me. Just as she jumped, I picked her up and hugged her tight.

Unky Gage! Mama has pwize fa you. Evie giggled.

Looking up from the sweetest face I saw Jenna and Larkin, holding hands and smiling. Burying my jealousy I plastered a smile on and walked to them. Still holding Evie I wrapped one arm around Jennas shoulders and kissed the top of her head. Jenna stepped away as Larkin and I shared a man hug.

Jenna used her fingers to move Evies wild hair out of her eyes then stared at me before asking, Who were you yelling at?

Not wanting to tell her the truth but not wanting to lie I chewed my bottom lip for a minute then said, I had a few people over last night. I told them to leave a while ago and when I heard voices after I got out of the shower, I figured sheerr ugh they were still here.

Evie wiggled and I sat her on the floor and watched her run down the hall to the room with all her toys.

Turning back to Jenna and Larkin they were both smirking at me. Jenna was the first to say something. She, huh?

Larkin clapped my back and laughed. Man, its a wonder there isnt a thousand little Gages out there running around.